Chapter sixteen

'Pure,' Harry said weakly, before he blinked a few times.

'Harry,' Kingsley looked down into Harry's eyes.

'Hey, what happened?'

'We weren't sure, but Gerard here said you basically went inside yourself, you closed down because you were in shock.'

Harry screwed up his face, 'The nightmare.'

'Yes, but listen Harry, Gerard did some tests over you. Voldemort did not do anything to you, your soul is pure, so it was just a nightmare. Joseph even spoke with Minerva who spoke with Albus, he believes it was just a nightmare as well.'

'Pure, are you sure?'

'I'm very sure Mr. Potter, I checked your soul and the minister explained how you were a horcrux. That never harmed you.'

'Kingsley,' Harry stared up at him.

'It's fine love, see, it was just a nightmare, that's all.'

Harry nodded then slowly moved so he could sit up, 'Where are we?'

'The department of mysteries, you weren't responding, so I brought you here.'

'I can just imagine the new stories written about me being carried into the department of mysteries by the minister.'

'No one saw you Harry, I used a special way in that is only known to the minister. I didn't think it was a good idea for anyone to see you the way you were.'

'Thanks love,' Harry turned to the man beside him, 'So you're positive he never did anything to me?'

'I'm positive and I even asked the minister if your scar has hurt at all, he said neither of them have. That's proof enough that you are completely free of him. We've been testing him since he was brought here, so I do know what I'm talking about.'

Harry smiled, 'I know, I've just been so scared thinking something in my life was going to go wrong again, it usually does.'

'Nothing is going to go wrong Harry, you have to believe that, it's finally over, all of it.'

'Trying love, but you help.'

'I try, but Gerard did tell me something about Voldemort. When he was conceived he was just plain evil, it had nothing to do with his parents or even Salazar Slytherin. He didn't change to be that way, it is just the way he was.'

'His mother was a nice woman actually, just a bit weird looking. His father, well rich and arrogant but not evil. Even his grandfather and uncle weren't evil in that sense, even if they weren't nice men.'

'How do you know this Mr. Potter?'

'Oh memories that Dumbledore had. He'd been collecting them for a long time, from anyone that would give them up. There was this old ministry employee that went to see Marvolo Gaunt about his son Morfin, that's Voldemorts grandfather and uncle. The son, Morfin had been hexing muggles, Voldemorts father actually. Merope, that's his mother, she was in love with Tom Riddle, the muggle, but her father hated muggles, but never killed them, nothing like that. She used a love potion on him one day, married him, got pregnant, then couldn't keep him under the spell. He left her alone and pregnant, she gave birth to him in a muggle orphanage in London, died right after telling them he was to be called Tom Marvolo Riddle,' Harry stared at the unspeakable, 'That's an anagram of I am Lord Voldemort, I saw that when I was twelve.'

'This is what we were talking about Harry. You've had to deal with him and everything else from a young age and it just got too much for you to take. You might be powerful and you might act and look older, but you are only eighteen. You're life from the time you were a kid right up to a few months ago has always been hard, dangerous and full of pain.'

Harry nodded, but looked up again, 'Yeah, but since we are here, would it be possible to see him, I want to check something?'

Kingsley looked up at Gerard, 'Would you let him Gerard?'

'I think Mr. Potter deserves this if he wants. If you feel up to it, I can show you the way?'

'I feel fine, I just don't remember anything since last night in bed.'

'I'll tell you later love, come on,' Kingsley pulled Harry to his feet, but kept his arm around him, then followed the unspeakable out of the room, down a corridor, then into another room. Kingsley felt Harry tense as they all saw Voldemorts body, 'He's dead remember Harry, it's fine.'

'Yeah, dead,' Harry let go of Kingsley and stepped over to the man that had caused so much of his pain. Harry stared down at the weird looking face that was so still and calm now, 'All the times I saw him or through his eyes, he never looked like this. He was always so angry, I think I only felt happiness from him once.'

'When was that Mr. Potter?'

'Um, it's Harry, okay and it was when he broke all his death eaters out of Azkaban. I just finished playing quidditch when I got a pain in my scar. Ron panicked thinking something bad was about to happen. I waited until the team left the changing rooms and thought about what I felt. Elation, he was ecstatically happy, then next day we found out about the death eaters. When he found out I knew about his horcruxes, his anger was so frightening, severe, so dark. He put me on my knees with the pain I felt,' Harry slowly picked up Voldemorts hand.

'What are you doing Harry?' Kingsley asked looking worried.

'Checking,' Harry put Voldemorts finger to his scar, 'Nothing, every time I was near him or he touched me, a white hot pain used to make me collapse. I'd be screaming with the pain I felt, he would think it was funny,' Harry threw his hand back down, 'His really gone for good, isn't he love?'

Kingsley stepped over to Harry and wrapped his arms around him, 'Yes, he's gone for good.'

'We tested how much soul he had left and while I was looking at you, I could tell you had the same amount, then add the other horcruxes, which made up his whole soul. There's no way he could do what he did before Harry, he's gone.'

Harry nodded then turned away but faced the unspeakable, 'Thanks.'

'You're welcome. You've got a chance to have a good life now, so put him and the last eighteen years out of your heart and mind, then you will find yourself healing.'

'I'm trying but with Kingsley, I think I finally can have a normal life.'

'You can love, so let me take you home so you can rest and I need to get back to work.'

'Okay, thanks again,' Harry put his hand out to shake the Unspeakables then left with the man he loved with hope in his heart that he could finally have a life without Voldemort having anything to do with it. He was going to do everything to make sure that happened.

Harry, Kingsley and Joseph arrived at the house, Harry poured a drink, knocking back the whole thing.

'I remember going to sleep last night, the nightmare, but that's it.'

'Well I woke to your screams, finally got you to calm down, we made love, then fell asleep. When I woke up in the morning, you were sitting in the shower with it still running. You completely broke down, by the time Joseph got there, you were gone. It was like what Gerard said, you went inside yourself, closed down. Your eyes were open, but you weren't seeing, hearing, responding in any way. It actually scared me because I didn't know if you would come out of it.'

Harry turned around, 'Sorry love, I think it was just everything, it finally got too much.'

'Another thing Albus Dumbledore said Harry, you never got a chance to grieve, not for your parents, not for Sirius,' Joseph said.

'No, I didn't. I didn't even know my parent's names until I was eleven, Hagrid told me. Sirius, well I still blame myself for that, but I also blame Dumbledore. If I knew about the prophecy, then he would never have been able to trick me into going there that night. That's been the hardest to live with.'

'Are you sure you're okay now Harry, I could stay.'

'No, I'm fine Kingsley and I think a few hours alone will be good. So go to work and do whatever it is you do.'

'Alright, but tonight, we're going out,' Kingsley slipped one arm around Harry pulling him closer, 'Sit here and think about everything, don't let it bottle up inside you anymore. Gerard said you're free and clear of him in every way, so start making yourself believe that.'

'That's what I'm going to do love. I think the nightmare just kicked it all off. I'm fine though, you better get to work.'

'Alright, but I'll floo later, just to check and if you don't answer straight away, I'm coming home.'

Harry smiled, 'Alright, but really, I'm fine Kingsley. I might go to the cemetery though, so don't floo until after lunch.'

'Alright, just be cautious while you're out.'

'I will love. Joseph, get him out of here or he'll end up staying.'

'He's right Kingsley, you seemed to be hesitant in leaving. Harry looks fine, so let's go.'

'Alright,' Kingsley stared into Harry's eyes, kissed him then left.

Harry sighed, poured another drink then headed out. He walked through the kissing gate at the cemetery in Godric's Hollow then found his parents graves. He checked that no one was around, then conjured a wreath of flowers and placed them against the headstone before sitting down and staring at his parent's names. He sat there thinking about his parents, what his life could have been like if they never died. He thought of Sirius and wondered how he would be right now if Sirius never died.

It seemed to Harry that whenever he got close to some, they died, except Ron and Hermione. So he started thinking about Kingsley, hoping nothing happen to him. Even though Harry didn't want to think about it, but if anything was to happen to Kingsley he knew he couldn't go on, but if he could, then he'd be alone, stay single because he knew he couldn't go through the pain of losing anyone again.

As he was thinking he got a strong feeling of Sirius, but also something else. After a minute, he realised what it was, so Harry made himself relax, but get up and walked slowly towards the Dumbledore's graves. When he was about a foot away, he spun around, waving his hand and had Rodolphus Lestrange and another man stunned, disarmed and bound, all within a few seconds. Harry grinned down at the two men, then levitated them upright, he took their arms and apparated away. He arrived inside the auror office to shocked looks from everyone.

'These two were about to kill me at the cemetery in Godric's Hollow,' Harry let them drop to the ground, then handed Joseph two wands, 'Sirius warned me they were there, hiding near Dumbledore's mother's graves. They must have had a lookout and just been waiting for me to turn up.'

'Well, I'm used to you doing things that's impossible, but apparating straight into this office is absolutely impossible. It's enchanted like Hogwarts, the minister's office is the same.'

'Like you said Joseph, I'm freaky,' Harry grinned, 'But they were easy to catch. Now though, their all yours, I'm going to go snog my man.'

'After seeing what you did Harry, I think you will pass your trials and test with no problem, so just get you're potions up and quickly, we could use that power of yours.' Gawain said.

'I'm getting stuck into boss,' Harry grinned, waved at everyone and made his way up to the minister's office, 'Any chance he could spare a few minutes?'

'He said if you turn up Mr. Potter, to let you straight in and he told me why, that you are his partner. So go see your man Mr. Potter, I think he could use a visit from you. He looked very worried about something when he came into work.'

'Yeah, my fault, he always worries about me,' Harry smiled then stepped into Kingsley's office, sat on his lap before he could move and started kissing him, 'Seal the office love, we're about to have a little lunch time fun.'

'I'm been scared shitless Harry, wondering how you were coping. So after I fuck you silly, you're going to tell me everything.'

'Anything you want babe, now seal this room or your secretary might get a shock if she comes in and sees me sucking the minister.'

Kingsley chuckled, lifted his wand and sealed his door before both men stripped off to do exactly what Harry said, had some lunch time fun.

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