What is the perfect family? – ch5

Everything happened so fast, we radioed for the EMT's, while Traci called child services to come and talk to Jeremy. I kept thinking about what Traci told me this morning about being the bigger person. Yeah sure I was heartbroken and terrified but I loved Sam and I don't want to lose him again. I know what I have to do. After we wrap this case up I am going to talk to him. Even though it might go one of two ways, we could break up again, or we can work it out and stay together, it is up to us to decide what we want to do. We made sure that Hayley was going to be ok, Helen thanked me, and I smiled and explained that I just did my job. We all headed back to the station and began to forget about this awful day. When we got back we discovered that Hayley's father had gone to Connor's house and attacked him, he was arrested and brought back to the station.

I noticed that Sam was talking to Oliver; I am glad that they have each other, my thoughts then drifted to my future, and all I could picture was Sam, a dog and a couple of kids. I sighed internally and went back to my desk and finished off the paperwork I was doing earlier. I really want a future with Sam; I love him with everything that I am and nothing will change that.

I know that Marlo is going to be the one to make him a father for the first time and I know I can't control that any more than I can control what is going to happen to my relationship with Sam if we decide that we can't go on being together. I finished the paperwork and went and got changed. I spoke to Traci and she told me to fight for it, and not to let Marlo get in the way any more than she already had.

I nodded and hugged and thanked her for everything, she looked at me "Go on Andy, he is probably waiting for you, I told him about our chat earlier and he told me he wanted to sort everything out with you as he doesn't want to lose you" I nodded "Thanks, I just hope we have a relationship at the end of all of this". She nodded "You will now go" I thanked her and walked out.

I made my way out and found Sam sitting in the truck I took a deep breath and got in, he looked at me "You deserve the perfect family, and more than anything, I wanted you and I to have that. And now I can't give that to you" he looked wounded and deflated, I knew deep down that this must be hurting him too, I looked away and tried to think of a way to tell him that I will always be here by his side even when things don't look good.

I looked at him "Did I want to be the woman to make you a father? Yes. And when you saw your child, did I want you to see a mixture of me and you in a perfect, little human being? Yeah. But just because this isn't what I pictured, it doesn't mean I fold. Okay? I have no idea how to do this. And I know it's not gonna be easy but what I can say is that I love you. And I will show up. And we're gonna figure this out. I promise, you there is not gonna be a day where that child does not feel wanted or loved by me".

He looked at me shocked that I had been so reasonable about everything; he leaned over and kissed me, I pulled back and smiled, I couldn't help the smile that took over my face, I must have looked really happy as everything was going to be fine, we are together and we are happy and nothing is going to change that… I hope.