I want to warn you this completely disregards the epilogue. It's my way of getting over Tobias and Christina ending up together.

10 forever! 4.

I know Zeke wants me and Christina to get together.

I know he wants me to move on from Her.

He'd never outright say it but I know.

Its been four years since She 'passed but it feels like yesterday.

Passed seems like such a peaceful word compared to what happened.

She died.

Even after so long it hurts me to say it, but I am mending.

Slowly but surely.

Each day is/was a struggle but I'm getting through it.

Once I hated Caleb. All I could say was Her when I looked at him. Slowly, I'm realising he may be the only one alive that loved/s her as much as I do/did.

A while ago we had our first talk.

It involved a lot of crying.

Back to the topic at hand, Zeke wants me to end up with Christina.

I don't love her.

Not even as a friend.

I try to tolerate her for Her sake but I can't.

Everytime I look at her I just see the Candor-Smart-Mouth.

And the worst thing.

The worst crime of all.

She's not Her.