Dear Edward,

A new phase is approaching and I welcome it. I'm tired of feeling stagnant for such a long time, like waiting for my life to move forward and not moving at all. I guess if you want something to change you have to make it happen for yourself. Truth is life always has a way to turn your plans, but I have hope that things even with a bit of rocks on the way will bring forth positive outcomes in my future.

Adversity is part of the package unfortunately. I can't escape it, no one can. I'm praying for a reprieve...a pass. We all have crosses to bear. I can't let discouragement and fear to drown me. I admit to failing some days and letting it consume my mind, a very dangerous thing.

Like the other day, I said somethings I shouldn't have to my sister. I felt like quitting. Doesn't anyone?

I'm sorry, but I'm only human. This is just another piece of my frailty, of why I have to depend on the only one that I can trust, who is with me every single moment.

Yes, Edward without faith I'd have given up a long time ago. That empty feeling inside you can only be contained with faith, with God inside your heart. I have nothing else and without Him, I'm nothing.

I've decided to let go, trust that things will workout in the end. I've come this far, even on my own for the past two years. It's been hard, but I'm certain that with my sister, together we will face whatever comes next with confidence that God will guide us through.

A new year has just begun, it really is just a different number, another day. What makes the difference is when you make a different choice, not conform to the status quo. Believe is a powerful thing, that allows you to see beyond your limitations and see potential for growth.

So, I thank God for gifting me a new day...full of his mercies and benefactions.

Love,

Bella