special shout out to Anon,

thank you for your amazing review it has inspired me to keep writing all the story's that run though my head. Hearing that you are a fan has made me keep a smile on my face all day (While I lay in this bed recovering haha)

Im also sorry i made you cry :P my story's are always quite dark and sad but i'm glad i was able to pull at your heart strings it means you opened up your heart to my story and you felt what Sebastian felt as it went on.

You have nothing to fear I will continue to write (I already have two story's in my head that I need to get out). My favorite subjects are Ciel and Sebastian so I hope you don't get tired of them.

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The next few days were quiet, Sebastian had quit his job and wouldn't leave his house. Undertaker tried to get him to come out but nothing that mad man said got him out of the dark hole he was in.

The phone rang for days but he wouldn't answer it, he didn't even attend Claude's funeral. Even if he wasn't in this state he probably wouldn't of gone anyways...he felt horrible about it being his fault and he knew Alois was going though a lot of pain because of it. He didn't want to face that right now.

Sebastian has been doing nothing but sleeping but to his disappointment Ciel no longer visited him in his dreams, he knew why though. It took a lot of energy out of the boy to visit in dreams and now that Sebastian saved doll, there was no reason to come back.

The demons door bell took his mind off his thoughts, he sighed and got up to open the door. it was probably Undertaker like always trying to get him to come back to normal life but when he opened the door the demon was surprised to see it was Vincent at the door.

"Can i come in?" The blue haired man asked and Sebastian being in no state to argue let him in. Vincent walked and looked around, the place was surprisingly not that bad of a mess since Sebastian only slept. The father of the boy he loved was holding a box and he gently placed it on the table. "I've adopted Doll..."

Sebastian let a gentle smile curve his lips "Ciel would of liked that...He seemed to care about him."

"her...Doll is a girl."

"that's surprising..." Sebastian thought back to his memory of doll and could of sworn it was a boy but this is not something Vincent would lie about.

"Sebastian I truly am grateful to you...you didn't know my son but you did everything in your power to find him...and you did. I believe that he came to you in dreams...doll tells me things he said to her and...well..." Vincent started to shake as tears fell from his brown eyes. It was hard for Sebastian to look at Vincent, there was so many similarities between him and his son but he pushed that aside for now and hugged the man that was the reason Ciel existed. Vincent Cried into the demons chest for what felt like forever but Sebastian didn't feel awkward, he held the man understanding the pain that filled him.

When Vincent composed himself he gently pulled away and Sebastian allowed him the freedom. He looked at the box then back at Sebastian. "I had Ciel cremated...I couldn't bury him again...I have some of his ashes in there for you. I can tell you cared about my son...everyone told me how you reacted when you found him...Hes in there, along with some of his stuff that I thought you would like."

Sebastian was speechless and his eyes burned from water building up in them "t..thank you..."

"Please come visit Doll...she speaks about you all the time...things my son told her. Im sure you would like to know." Sebastian nodded and with that Vincent went to the door and opened it to leave "She...doesn't really know how to cope with the fact that she was talking to him even though he wasn't...alive. Your the only other person that understands that feeling." Vincent left and closed the door behind him.

Sebastian looked at the box and slowly started to open it. Inside was a small urn that held the boys ashes in them and just the sight of it cause Sebastian's heart to skip a beat from pain. He gently pulled it out and placed it on his table with tears in his eyes. the demon looked through the box and found a few pictures of the boy, one of them being the one he liked that was hanging in Vincent's home. A few of Ciels drawings that were not that good but very cute, and at the bottom of the box was Ciel's gray sweater that was washed and folded. He grabbed it and put it to his face as he cried into it letting the sweater soak his tears.

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The next day Sebastian had showered and managed to get out of his house to go see doll, he wanted to officially meet the girl Ciel wanted him to save. He knocked on Vincent's door twice before the man answered it and let him in. He called doll down and when she came the young girl was wearing light blue shorts that looked a little baggy for a girl, and a shirt with a rabbit on it. Her hair was still covering the burnt side of her face that was now wrapped with medical bandages. She smiled when she saw him "Sebastian you came."

He nodded and she grabbed his hand and lead him up to Ciels room. Vincent let them go allowing the two to be alone. He knew that there was a lot to be said.

Once Sebastian was in the room he looked around, It seemed doll was now living in Ciels room but she didn't change anything. Just added her clothes to the boys closet. Sebastian had so much to ask but at the same time he didn't know what to say. He was suddenly thankful this Girl talked a lot.

"Did you know Ciel refused to call me doll, He liked to call me freckles..."

"Well Doll cant be your real name, Where did you get that nickname?" Sebastian couldn't help but wonder where her real parents where.

"Well...I never had a real name. I grew up in a orphanage and the nuns said when i was little that I looked like a Doll, so it just kinda stuck." She sat on Ciels bed and Sebastian not wanting to sit to close sat on the desk chair. He moved the chair to face the Girl with a burnt face.

"...Ciel was lucky, so many people were looking for him. No one was looking for me so he sent you...Im grateful to him."

"What was he like?...When you got to talk to him..."

Doll gently smiled, like she was waiting for him to ask "Ciel was...calm, he was never scared like I was. When I Cried he'd calm me down...Sometimes I would sleep on the floor next to the wall just to be closer to him. now I know he was under me that whole time...he...he didn't sound like a dead person, He seemed to full of life.

He laughed at my stupid jokes a lot and sometimes he would talk about one day in the future how he would start a toy company...You came up a lot. I don't want to say nothing weird but...I would say he loved ya mister."

Sebastian gently smiled "Why do you say such a thing."

"Because you were this force to him, He would talk about you like you could never do anything wrong.

the day the man burned my face...I cried and curled up next to the wall. I told Ciel that I was going to die down there and that I didn't want to. He promised me I wouldn't, then he promised me that a man named Sebastian would save me. He said you had saved him two times before that you helped him escape a awful place once, and then pulled him away from being ran over.

When i asked him what you looked like he said "Hes handsome, the kind of man you only see in magazines, Tall and smart. He always looks hurt when you look into his eyes, like he has lived through so much pain, but that doesn't take away his gentle smile and how loving he can be." that's how I figured he loved you."

Sebastian had tears building up in his eyes but he only smiled in place of crying "Ciel and I have known each other for...what would seem like many lives, I was always there to save him when he needed me...but this time I was too late."

"You were not too late...he just didn't call you. Do you ever wonder where he is now?...He was dead but I was talking to him and you were dreaming of him...he was right there..but now I cant hear him...where did he go?...Doesn't he know I still need him?

do you still dream of him?..."

Sebastian looked at her sadly "No...I don't dream of him anymore..." It was something he wondered too, where did Ciel go? Was he still around or did he go were all those orbs were going in that one dream he had...was Ciel gone now? Really gone?

"I don't want to believe hes gone...I want to think hes in this room, right now."

Sebastian nodded agreeing with the young girl Ciel had saved. "Ciel gave you his family, you have Vincent now and a bright future...these were all gifts from him, he even let you have his room...the only thing you have to do now to pay him back, Is to live the best life you can and smile a lot. Can you do that Freckles?" the demon gently grabbed Dolls hand and held it in his and she gave him a loving smile and nodded "I promise."

Sebastian got up and took one last look around Ciels room for a moment he thought he could feel Ciel there but it quickly passed and he didn't know if it was just wishful thinking. He made his way out of the house and started walking to the prison. Sebastian's plan was more then going to see the girl named doll today. He also wanted to see Akane but his plans with him were not as loving.

He had already paid off the prison to let him in and to allow him to do whatever he wanted to the man that killed the person he loved more then anyone else. when he got to the prison the guards let him in and lead him to a room where they had Akane tied up to a chair and for once Sebastian was happy the legal system was so corrupt. all he needed was money and he could do anything he wanted and it just so happens that he was rich thanks to his parents. All he had to do was give good old pop a call and promise to go back and take on the company to get the money he needed.

Akane had a smile on his face and it took everything in Sebastian's power not to kill the man already. "Why are you smiling?"

"Your the crazy guy that broke into my basement remember? your also the guy that busted me...how did you know? Is it true what the guards told me, you dreamed of our cute little Ciel?"

Sebastian tightened his jaw and didn't answer

"I guess its true then. Seems Ciel was more magical then just his looks were. pity really, he would of had such a bright future with that brain he had, beautiful people get everything in life. Why is it wrong that i liked him? Why is it wrong I wanted to touch him? You liked him and i'm sure you wanted to touch him too. Who wouldn't? Im in trouble because I acted on it and your the hero because you dreamed of him...oh wait, heroes save people, and you didn't save him." Akane let a smirk form on his lips but it was quickly ripped away when Sebastian punched the man in the face hard enough to brake his nose.

Akane's spit out blood from his mouth and started to laugh "Wanna know how I got him to come with me? how I got him the first night when he walked home, I waited in that alley and when he saw me I told him he failed a test in my class. You should of saw his face, I've never seen a student that worked up over a grade. I told him I was on my way to see his father to show him the bad grade and that's when I asked him if he wanted to see the paper, of course he did and that's when i pulled a rag out of my bag covered in chloroform and held it cover his nose and mouth. Boy did he fight. It was so satisfying, but not as satisfying as that night when he woke up and I took his sweet virginity. His screams were like musi-"

Sebastian punched him again this time knocking some teeth out, rage was all he felt and he had made up his mind that he would make Akane go through everything Ciel had gone through. He called in a guard and asked for a prisoner that wanted a good time. When the guard brought one in Sebastian tied Akane on the bed in the room and waited outside. He listened to the Asian man scream as he was raped.

when the prisoner was done Sebastian asked the guard to take the prisoner back and to bring him a select few weapons and just like that he had a cart full of objects that he was planning on using to inflict pain on Akane.

When he walked in the room with his new cart he saw Akane trying to get his wrists free from the rope holding him to the bed he was half naked thanks to the prisoner pulling off his pants.

"Its not so fun on the other side is it?" Sebastian first grabbed a ragged knife and walked up to the man that was tied down, He grabbed the mans member and slowly cut it off making sure the pain was elongated. The prison was filled with the Japanese mans screams. "You don't get a Dick, you don't know how to use it." Sebastian really did feel like a demon right now and he was just as scary as one. Once Akane's member was fully off Sebastian placed it on the table and wiped his hands on the Japanese mans shirt.

"Now lets see...what was it I remember you doing to Ciel. Oh yeah, you burned him" With that Sebastian grabbed the lighter fluid he had asked for that was on the cart, he pored it on the mans stomach but made sure to "accidentally" get some of his chest as well and with the flick of a match the man was on fire and letting out cringe worthy screams.

When he knew any longer might kill the man Sebastian put the fire out. Akane was in pure agony and he suddenly tried to plead with the demon

"Please...no more...i'm sorry...please stop!"

Sebastian only watched as his pray begged for his life he then grabbed the knife and started to carve deep gashes into the mans legs and arms. He was letting out his frustrations out over losing Ciel and what not a better way then attacking the man that killed him. Sebastian's arms were covered in blood by the time he was done.

The last part was Akane's death and he grabbed a hammer that was on the cart "Im sure you know what comes next..."

"CIEL WOULDN'T WANT THIS! YOUR TURNING INTO THE MONSTER I AM! IS THIS REALLY WHAT CIEL WOULD WANT!" Akane was desperately trying to find anything to use that might stop the demon but it was all in vain.

"Im not a monster...Im a demon." Sebastian then started slamming the hammer into the Japanese mans skull but unlike how Ciel died, he kept throwing blows at the skull till there was nothing there that someone could call a face. blood splattered all over Sebastian and he placed the hammer down and stared at the dead body of the man who murdered Ciel. He was flooded with emotions...he wanted to torment him forever, it wasn't enough to just kill the man. He went out and paid the guard one more time and started to walk home. He was numb, not feeling anything. People gave him odd looks as he walked mostly because of all the blood on him. He must of looked terrifying because no one stopped him. When he made it to his house he noticed that he had a package in the mail, he knew what it was, he had sent Ciel's phone in to get fixed. Looked like they were finally finished. He grabbed the package and brought it inside. Opening it he noticed that everything on the phone was the same, he gently turned it on and was surprised to see that his background picture was the old picture of him and Ciel from the 1800s. It looked like Ciel took a picture of it and made it his background.

he started looking through the phone and when the demon got to the messages tears fell once again from his crimson eyes. There was a single message from Ciel to Alois that read

"Last night I dreamt of him again...the man with the crimson eyes. He had kissed me for the first time on ice. I never felt so loved then that moment and even though I knew that this was a moment from the past I wanted to stay there forever, in his arms...

I need to find him Alois...I need to be by his side again."

Sebastian wiped his tear on his sleeve and went inside the bathroom. He looked at himself in the bathroom mirror and realized he really did look like a Demon with all the blood on him. He grabbed a blade from inside the mirror and looked directly into his own eyes...He placed the blade on his Neck and Quickly slit his own throat.

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The demon found himself surrounded by trees, the sky was beautiful full of colors and there were the same small crystals in the air that he seen before in his dreams. He allowed himself to scan the place and found that there was a river with water that was so clear it seemed to glow. next to it there was a white bench and he could see a very familiar boy sitting on the bench looking at the water, on the other side of Sebastian in the trees was Abaddon standing watching him. He knew what was happening, he had the choice to go with Ciel and suffer through more human lives or follow Abaddon back into hell and be forgiven. Sebastian smiled sadly, walked to Ciel and sat down next to the boy. Ciel looked at him shocked for moment "Sebastian? What are you doing here?...it wasn't your time..."

"A life without you...is not worth it." He gently placed his hand under the boys chin and made the boy look up at him, once they made eye contact Sebastian gently kissed Ciels soft lips. He could feel tears fall down the younger males cheeks as he leaned into the loving kiss.

Ciel gently pulled away and looked up at the older man "Now what?..."

"...we keep living lives together...until they give up on us...every life with you is worth all the pain of being human."

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so there ya go. I hope you all liked it.