For my dear friend Linda065cliva. Part 1 of your Christmas present! I hope you enjoy!

The two trolls were in front of the fire. It was Christmas night. Kankri had been thinking hard about his and Cronus' relationship. He had been hesitant to talk about it, but Cronus seemed to be growing concerned ever since that night last week when he was ranting about the Christmas sweaters. Kankri thought he had covered up his inner turmoil perfectly, but Cronus knew him too well. He could tell Kankri was dealing with something. He wanted to help, and had offered a sympathetic ear on more than one occasion. It wasn't until they were cuddling in front of the fire, his matesprite's arm lovingly around him that he realized…times like this were the only times he felt completely at ease. No thoughts of social justice or lecturing came to his mind, he didn't even feel the impulse. And it was this relaxation that facilitated a more primal feeling within him.

He did his best to suppress it at first. He had been thinking about Cronus and his wanting to take things further, he was pretty sure he wanted to take it a step further. He wanted to break his vow of celibacy. He was nervous though, about so many things. What if he chickened out? What if it became too much? What if the intimacy sex created became too much for either of them? Kankri didn't want to lose what he had. …what if he was bad at it? What would Cronus think? Although it would be unfair for Cronus to judge too harshly given his lack of practice at it. Still….so many things could go wrong. It was terrifying.

Cronus could tell his boyfriend was struggling with something, he just wished he could figure out what it was! He wanted to help. Did Kankri think he would mess something up? Had Cronus been coming on too strong lately? Kankri seemed more into their kissing sessions recently. He hadn't complained when Cronus would introduce his tongue into the equation or is his hands wandered a little from their designated station on his waist. He had been careful to avoid the horns and grubscars, he really didn't want Kankri feeling uncomfortable.

"Hey…chief?"

"Yes?"

"I've noticed you've been going through something lately, I don't know what it is, but you've been acting different. I just wanted to say that if I've made you uncomfortable in any way you can tell me. I mean you're usually pretty upfront if I cross a line, but, I don't know I just want to make sure you know you could say something. I'm all ears if you need to talk too."

"…"

"Really, nothing is taboo, say anything you want."

"…I…think…"

"Yeah?" A gentle coaxing.

"I think I want to have sex with you." There it was, blunt as could be. Blunt honesty was probably best in this sort of situation. Best not muddle anything.

Cronus was thrown for a loop, he was expecting a break-up conversation before he was expecting that. "Like, right now."

For some reason the proposition gave Kankri the most intense anxiety, he wanted to, yes, but he was also scared of everything it would bring. Cronus gently cupped the red-blood's hands in his. Pressing their foreheads together. "It's okay chief, we can go at your pace. If it's too much just say stop and I will in an instant."

And just like that, the anxiety was gone, well, for the most part. The two kissed passionately, tongues meeting in a battle before Kankri quickly submitted. Cronus shifted, hands on Kankri's back easing his to the floor, hovering above him. He just wanted to make his lecturing matesprit feel confident and good about what they were doing. Pulling away, trailing gentle kisses down Kankri's neck before reaching his collarbone. He looked up to notice Kankri's breath had already quickened and he was flushing red. And Cronus realized that he rather liked the way it looked on Kankri. Sucking on the collar bone, he was rewarded with a muffled moan. Glancing up once more he saw Kankri covering his mouth, embarrassed, which was ridiculous. Cronus thought for a moment of smacking the hand away from his matesprit's mouth, but decided against it. Kankri was clearly uncomfortable, yet trying to act comfortable for Cronus' sake. Returning to the blood-player's face kissing the back of the hand that was covering the usually ever-talking-mouth. Kankri removed his hand and kissed Cronus in return. Realizing that perhaps a different tact was in order, Cronus really did want Kankri to be comfortable. Keeping the kiss chaste and comforting, Cronus let his hands ghost on the grubscars of the one beneath him. Hitched breath followed, the eyes he looked into were half lidded with want. He was doing it right this time, he could tell. Pressing a little harder on the sensitive area, as gasp was his present this time. He allowed his tongue to be re-introduced, not as aggressive though. A little nipping at those now rosy lips. Kankri's hands now in the sea-dweller's hair, a shy inching towards the horns. Cronus hummed in response, giving Kankri a little more confidence.

He gently caressed the horns of the one above him, a loud moan, breaking their kiss before violet lips and tongue were back on him. The seer found he quite liked the sound, and wished to hear it again. He let his finger trace from the base of Cronus' horn, to its very tip. Causing another moan and shudder from the one above him. Cronus took Kankri's ministrations as permission to further his own. Leaving one hand in place he let another wander further south, rubbing the lecturer's wriggling bulge through his high-waist pants. Kankri moaned and Cronus rubbed a little harder, but stopped when he felt a push on his shoulders. "Stop"

"Chief, I'm sorry, you seemed to be enjoying it. I wasn't trying to push you too far."

"Don't worry Cronus, I just…."

"Too much?"

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be chief. If you're not ready, there's no reason to push yourself."

"I just…" Tender hands cupped his face, a gentle kiss on his nose, and a grin from the one facing him.

"The fact that you were even willing to try, that you felt that strongly about me and wanted to break your vows because of me….that's the best present you could give me." Bringing his matesprit into a bone-crushing hug, shower him with kisses. The two fell asleep in front of the fire, the warmth covering their bodies, matched only by the warmth in their hearts.

Notes: Alright, this is actually going to be a three-part fic. I didn't want this to go into M territory really, but now I think it kind of needs to. So, I'll be posting a sequel taking place on either Cronus' birthday or Valentine's Day for their true first time. It'll only be a one shot and I'll try to post it by the end of this month.