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Recap:
No. He couldn't admit it. But he had to. Denying his feelings Sakura
did him no good.
That night, he realized that he truly did love Sakura. She was his
first and only love. He
really meant it when he said, "I love you" to her. He longed to hold
her forever when he
kissed her. But that was all gone now. He had experienced a feeling
that he had never felt
before. After much thought, he soon realized what it was. It was the
feeling of having a
broken heart. It was that night that Syaoran felt heartache...and it
was that night that
Syaoran realized that he let the one girl he truly loved get away.
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King of Hearts- Epilogue
By: Sapphie
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// Syaoran's POV \\
So that's how she got away. I told her I loved her, she denied it, and
ran away. I should
have run after her the way I wanted to. But I didn't. I let her run.
Why did I do that? To
this day, I'm still not one hundred percent sure why I let her get
away. Maybe because I
knew that she was denying her feelings for me and she was hurting deep
inside. I guess I
thought that if I pressed on, I'd hurt her more than I already had.
That's what my feelings
told me. Well, I guess you're wondering what happened after that.
After she ran off, we all met up at the place where we set our blanket.
Sakura was there,
lying on the blanket, staring up at the star speckled sky. She seemed
calm. To me, she
seemed as if she was thinking about what happened, wondering if she
did the right thing.
To Eriol and Tomoyo, she was simply stargazing. After we all met up,
we went back to
the lounge and soon left the place. The limo stopped at Tomoyo's house,
letting off
Tomoyo, Sakura and Eriol. (Eriol was taking his own limo back home.)
Before I left, I
hugged Tomoyo to say goodnight. I shook Eriol's hand and we briefly
hugged. I was
hesitant at first to hug Sakura, but I was brave did it anyway. After
hugging her, I said
goodnight. She replied back with a "goodnight" and simply smiled at
me, although I
know she did that out of courtesy. After all was said and done, I got
into my limo and
headed home.
On the way back to the mansion, I had a sudden urge to see Suki. I called
her cell phone,
and she was up, as I had expected. I asked her if she'd mind if I came
over, and she
happily invited me to come. As my limo pulled up, I saw her waiting
for me at her
window. She came out of her house the moment she saw me. She looked
as beautiful as
ever. Her hair fell down to just below her shoulders and it was a lovely
shade of brown. It
had a mixture of light brown in it too, so I guess it could be considered
auburn. I don't
know.
Anyway, she came running up to me and we greeted each other with a warm
embrace.
She was clearly happy to see me. We took a seat on her porch swing,
as not to disturb her
parents who were sleeping inside the house. She sat very close to me
and leaned her head
on my shoulder. She asked me how everything was going, and I told her
things were
okay. She then asked me how prom went. I asked how she knew I was at
prom, and she
pointed out my limo and my tux. I felt completely stupid, as you can
imagine, but Suki
just laughed it off.
Later on, I told her about what happened with Sakura. She was glad that
I was able to
express my feelings for her, but was disappointed that Sakura didn't
respond the way I
had wanted her to. She truly sympathized with me. I could see it in
her eyes. I, as well as
any other guy, could drown in those beautiful green eyes. Actually,
it was a mixture of
hazel and green. In the daytime, it looked more green than hazel, and
at night, it was the
opposite. But anyway, she really did feel sorry for me.
It was then that she told me that she missed me a lot. She told me that
ever since we
broke up, she hasn't felt the same. She said that whenever she goes
out with someone,
she can't help but compare them to me, and they never meet her standards.
She said that
for long time, she felt like a piece of her was missing; she felt empty
inside. She finally
put it out in the open--she wanted to get back with me. I told her
I wasn't sure. I was still
hurting from what Sakura had done. At that moment, I suddenly began
to think that
maybe it was Suki that I loved, not Sakura.
They are both very similar to each other. Both have brown hair, both
have (almost) the
same colored eyes, and both have a very similar personality. They can
both be very sweet
and caring, but also very mysterious and unpredictable. Sakura definitely
fit that
descripton, but then again, so did Suki. I then remembered something
Sakura had said.
She told me that I was confused about my feelings. I was confusing
my feelings for
Sakura with my feelings for Suki. I then realized that Sakura may have
been right. I was
totally confused at that moment. Suki noticed that I had suddenly gone
haywire and asked
if I was alright. I tried to play it off, but she wouldn't let me.
She knew I wasn't okay.
She told me to rest my head in her lap and told me to relax. So, I
did. That was the one
moment where I actually felt calm and peaceful. Maybe that's what Sakura
was doing
when she was staring up at the stars.
While I rested and sorted out my thoughts, Suki softly stroked my hair.
Doing that made
me feel so calm. It felt so nice. At that moment, I thought that maybe,
just maybe, my
feelings of love were really for Suki, not Sakura. Suddenly, I asked,
"Suki, do you love
me?" She was a little shocked to hear me ask that so suddenly, but
she smiled down at
me and said, "Yes, Syaoran. I do believe that I am in love with you."
I sat up and smiled
at her.
"Suki, I think I love you, but....I can't tell you that I'm a hundred
percent sure of it." I
said, feeling a bit foolish for saying that. Who would ever tell a
girl something like that?
But she was very forgiving. She smiled at me and simply said, "I understand."
Those words made me believe more and more that it was Suki I loved,
but I still wasn't
sure. All of a sudden, I had an impulse. I sat closer to her and ran
my fingers through her
soft auburn hair. It resembled Sakura's hair a lot. I looked into her
eyes and leaned closer
to her. She knew what I was up to, so she also leaned in. Soon, our
lips met. I wrapped
my arms around her back and pulled her closer to me. Her lips were
pressed against mine
and she wrapped her arms around me, holding me tight. Then, for some
reason, I thought
about Sakura and how we kissed on the beach. I had pulled her in to
kiss me and I could
tell that she was trying to resist me at first, but I could feel her
give in. That's how I knew
she had feelings for me. I continued to kiss Suki, sorting out my thoughts
along the way.
She didn't seem to mind that I was kissing her for so long, but I knew
I had to stop. I
pulled away and looked into her eyes. In the dusky depths of her eyes,
I could she how
much she wanted and needed me. We sat there, looking each other, neither
one of us
saying a word.
I stood up and told her that I had to go. It was clear that she didn't
want me to leave, but
she knew I had to. She stood up with me and gave me a long hug.
"I love you, Syaoran." she said as she pulled away. "Never forget that."
"I won't." I said. "But I don't want to hurt your feelings. I love you,
too, but I don't know
if that's what I really feel for you."
Again, I felt so stupid for saying that. She, however, was such a dear.
"I understand." she said softly while taking my hand. "Just remember
that whether it's
me or Sakura you love, I will always love you. Even if you realize
later on that it's not
me you love, I'll still love you."
"But Suki, I don't-"
She placed a finger to my lips.
"I won't get hurt. I promise. If I'm not the one you love most, then
I'll be okay with that.
I know that I'll be able to move on with my life. There's no sense
dwelling in the past.
What matters most is the present."
I couldn't help but smile at her. I gave her hand a gentle squeeze.
"You're right." I said. "Thank you." Before I left, I gave her one last
kiss to remember
me by. "I'll let you know as soon as I can." I said after giving her
a kiss.
"Take as much time as you need. I'll always be here..." she said, placing
her hand on my
chest. "...in your heart." Again, I smiled at her. Not another word
was spoken after that. I
got into my limo and drove away, feeling more confused that ever. Was
it Suki that I
loved? Or Sakura? I found my answer on the Monday after prom, which
was the last day
of school.
On that day, Sakura wasn't in school. The teacher announced to the class
that she would
not be graduating with us. She was moving to England, where her father
had another
archaeological expedition to go on. Apparently, Tomoyo didn't know
about it. At lunch,
she burst into tears, crying her heart out about the loss of one of
her friends. She cried
into my chest, and I held her in my arms, comforting her as best as
I could. That night,
Tomoyo told me that she went to Sakura's house after school in hopes
that Sakura hadn't
left yet. Her instincts were right. Sakura was just about to leave
for the airport. She told
me that they were crying non-stop. I can only imagine how long that
lasted. She also told
me that she gave Sakura her phone number and address so they could
always keep in
touch. As Tomoyo was telling me about how she watched Sakura's plane
fly away, I
could suddenly feel and emptiness inside of me slowly develop. This
is what Suki must
have felt when I left her. I was feeling the same emptiness she felt.
At that instant, I
realized that it was Sakura that I loved the most.
Immediately, I went to Suki's house. I rang her doorbell and anxiously
waited for her to
open the door. She soon opened the door and smiled at me. I gave her
a smile, but she
could tell it wasn't a happy smile. I stood there, opening my mouth
to speak, but I
couldn't get the words out.
"So, have you figured out who the one you truly love is?" she asked,
knowing that I was
having difficulty speaking.
"Yeah. I did." I finally managed to say. Suki just looked at me, patiently
waiting for me
to continue. "I figured out who I truly love today. It's...it's Sakura.
She's the one I love
the most. I realized that today when she didn't come to school." I
explained. "When she
wasn't there...when I knew I would never see her again, I began to
feel an emptiness
building inside me, feeling as if..."
"Feeling as if a part of you was missing." Suki said, finishing my sentence.
"Yes. That's
how I knew that I loved you. And it seems you've realized your love
for Sakura the same
way." Suki said, laughing a bit.
"Yeah." I said. "Thank you for everything, Suki. And, I'll always love
you, as a very dear
and very close friend. You'll always have a place in my heart. And
I'll never forget you."
I said. She smiled at me.
"You'll always have a place in my heart too, Syaoran. I'll never forget
you." she said. We
hugged each other.
"I'll be leaving for the summer. I'm not sure if I'm coming back, but
I promise that I will
visit you in the future. I promise. So, while I'm gone, keep in touch."
I said, handing her
a piece of paper with my phone number and email address on it.
"I will." she said as she took the paper into her hands. With that,
we said goodbye. That
was the last day I saw her. As we had promise, we kept in touch. I
was able to visit her
once in a while. I was also able to keep in touch with Tomoyo and John
and a whole
bunch of other people.
It's been 8 years since this all happened. I'm a 26 year old man now;
healthy, alive, and
completely different. Well, almost completely. Girls still want me.
Then again, you can't
blame them. After all, I still look good. Hehe.
Anyway, my life since that year has been a rollercoaster ride. I've
gone through many
ups, downs, and turn-arounds. During college, I didn't have a steady
girlfriend. I mean, I
did date, but none of them compared to the girl I loved most.
They didn't even
compare to Suki! So, I could often be found at a local lounge or something,
by myself.
Tomoyo was lucky in love. Since highschool, she had been dating Eriol
steadily. Now,
they're married. They got hitched a couple of years ago. I was Eriol's
best man. It was so
great to see Tomoyo so happy with Eriol. I was hoping to see Sakura
at their wedding,
but Tomoyo told me that she couldn't make it. She was in America, helping
her dad with
his expeditions. I had known for a while that it would be nearly impossible
to find Sakura
again. She was so busy, she probably didn't have time for boyfriends.
Tomoyo knew how
disappointed I was when Sakura wasn't there. At the reception, Tomoyo
approached me
and tried to cheer me up. She said, "I know you love Sakura. I've known
it all along. And
I hate seeing you like this. I'm sure that you'll get to see her again
soon. I'll make sure of
it. And if things don't work out between you and her, I'm sure you'll
find love again in
someone else."
I was quite skeptical at first. Tomoyo said she was going to make sure
I saw Sakura
again, but I was highly doubting it at the time. Sakura was always
so busy...there was no
way she would have time to see me. She probably didn't want to me ever
again after
what happened on prom night. But, I had to have just a little faith.
Maybe I would
get to see her again. So, I waited...for 3 years....and she never came
to see me. Tomoyo
was wrong. I was never gonna see Sakura again. At that point, I figured
that if I was
really to have someone in my life to love, fate would step in
and put someone in my
life for me. And that's exactly what fate did.
Now, I have a lovely wife. I'm so glad to have found her. I never would've
thought that
I'd marry someone as wonderful as my wife. She is the light of my life.
I don't know
what I'd do without her. Coincidentally, my wife is someone I was very
close to in
highschool. You all know her, of course. I will never forget the moment
I met up with her
after years of being apart. In high school, I remembered staring at
her from across the
room. She had captured my heart then, and when I saw her again, she
was still able to
capture my heart. When I reunited with her, I could not deny my feelings
for her, and she
couldn't deny her feelings for me either. Everyday, I cherish her.
I appreciate her so
much. I don't know how my life would be now without her. Every morning,
I wake up in
my warm bed and turn around to see my wife's lovely face. I always
smile at the sight of
her. Her brown, auburn-ish hair always falls into her face whenever
she sleeps. Even with
all her hair in her face, she still looks beautiful.
At our wedding, Tomoyo gave us a wonderful wedding present. It was a
picture of my
wife and I when we were in highschool. I thanked Tomoyo so much for
that present. That
picture of us means so much to me. I'll never forget those days. I'll
never forget the night
I kissed her...that kiss made me realize so many things. I really should
thank her for it.
*sigh* Well, those days are over now. Like Suki once said, "There's
no sense dwelling in
the past. What matters most is the present." I'll always love her for
saying that. That's the
one phrase that has keep me going all these years. So, since there's
no sense dwelling in
the past, I'll end my memoir here. What matters most is the present,
and what I have now
is more than I ever could've asked for. So, when I finish writing,
I'll crawl into my warm
bed, where my wife will be waiting for me. Before we fall asleep, she'll
give me a kiss
goodnight and tell me she loves me, and I'll do the same. Then, I'll
wrap my arms around
her and pull her close to me, never wanting to let her go. After she
falls asleep in my
arms, I'll look over at our dresser and look at the picture Tomoyo
gave us...the picture of
my wife and I....on prom night. And softly, I'll whisper to the girl
that got away, "I'll
never let you go again."
*** The End ***
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