LONG A/N BUT VERY VERY IMPORTANT STUFF TO UNDERSTAND THE STORY =)
darn i wanted to post last night but stuff happened so here it is

FIRST I WOULD LIKE TO THANK JORDAN FOR BEING AS STRONG AS HECK AND POSTING THAT A/N…AND COMING UP WITH THIS ADORABLE SHIP PRETTY MUCH. well in a way that formed into something else. a ridiculous number of oneshots from me and i dont even known how many jorjor did but you know i was the one who said they both spoke french so you all owe this magnificent happening to me

AND THEN I WOULD LIKE TO THANK KINGDOM KID FOR BEING UNBELIEVABLY BRAVE AND POSTING THAT BEAUTIFUL ONESHOT, AND BEING THE FIRST AND I WOULDN'T RATHER HAVE ANYONE ELSE BE THR FIRST BECAUSE THAT WAS INCREDIBLE

AND THANK YOU, FANDOM, FOR RESTORING MY FAITH IN HUMANITY…ILL ADMIT I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS KIND OF OUTPOURING OF LOVE AND SUPPORT OF THE SHIP BUT IM GLAD IT HAPPENED. AND IM GRATEFUL.

because in the world we live in its unfortunate that this has to be a touchy topic but we are one step closer to breaking down the walls and that is WONDERFUL. everyday we are making more and more progress to making this important...the lgbtqpia community is not one that is "separate" or "non-existent" in life and your life and the lives of others. hecks no. there are more allies than haters and that's astounding, really. the letters are becoming real to people and not just an acronym you wanna shy away from…so thank you for being amazing.

ive had this one for a month i guess. out of the (omg this number is insane) jesslenes ive done, there are like seven that are good and four that ok and some of them i would like to keep in the green on the thread but some? dude i am HECKA proud of. and some of them will def go on here, on this, this can be like a shot series.

i wont be updating this often bc im doing aia and stuff. but this won't be abandoned.

i wanted to go on a rant about why i am so passionate about this topic but to make it short ill say that i am tied, emotionally and for real, with this community and i pretty much have dedicated all my efforts for the rest of my life to further the acceptance. some people live in enviroments where its tough to be supportive but this is one effort that can benefit with one retweet or one word or encouragement or even one thought of love. i like to wear my raninbow gloves pink purple and blue pride bracelet and noh8 dogtag and be current with the latests lgbtqpia news and really just shove my love into everyone's face. but there are so many other ways to help…and they all help.

now to the fic. you love love love love charbeck and don't ship jesslene? wonderful! bc charbeck is perf and you don't have to ship every ship in the fandom…

don't ship jesslene because it's a gay pairing? lolol that's just stupid

bc really that's what it is

I HAVE AN AUDITION TONIGHT so im gonna ask for your well wishes and prayers bc its very big and ive been waiting and preparing for it for a very long time. =)

here is one thing jesslene has done for me: first person pov. dont expect any other shots to be 1pov. I just do it in here because it works.

in my mind…well, in one section of my brain that accepts a certain headcanon, the keepers got taken by the ots and got hurt real bad and jess got it maybe the worse. charlie has feelings for her (formed months before the capture) and j realizes she has feelings for charlie at some point in captivity…they broke out, and char and j got closer bc char was the only one there to help j when she was really really hurting. so, weeks after getting home, they told each other that they liked each other (i did it in this one shot ughh ill have to revise that like cray) and are now girlfriends…this is a little bit after…

blame it on the stars

Maybe she's made of stars. As I'm driving down some vacant road, she cranes her head to see the above sky, and her wonder and astonishment is apparent, as she requests to stop the car and she scrambles out and props herself up on the hood, lying her head back on the glass. And I get out too.

Now we're just sitting, looking. Jess took the driver's side since she could see better there, and my view has some trees in it. What I see are a bunch of lights, maybe more than usual, I guess a bit clearer. Nothing extremely special. But she sees it as a whole new thing…and she never stops looking amazed…

And I say in my mind that she's made of stars because she seems connected with them, the way she knew they were special tonight or the way that she always shines bright but sometimes more than others but always…beautiful. I love her in moments like this. When she's so open. And so strong. Her arms are lying by her side with her hands playing with her braided belt…the scars are still there, still red, but she doesn't flinch and she's getting so good with dealing with what happed…

I found that I was muttering her name. /Jessica./ I do that a lot, absentmindedly. She turns her head to me, slightly. "Huh?"

"Oh, I was doing that again?" She nods. "Your name is too pretty."

"You're too pretty," she says. Then smiles. I laugh. I just have to. Won't respond, because I know all those comments about me being pretty or beautiful aren't real. I could never be, sitting next to her.

She shifts to lying on her side. She's not too far from me, since she is right next to me.

"This could be a date," I comment.

"Haven't we been on a couple already?"

"Well, yeah. I guess so."

"This would be, like, number three."

"Yeah. Okay. Third date."

I mean, we've gone out several times. She'll just text me sometimes that she feels like hanging out and we'll flail around somewhere. We have fun and we laugh a lot. This Friday afternoon she texted me that she's wearing a dress and that it needs to be seen in public because she "actually looks okay today" and I text her back that she always needs to be seen because she's too beautiful. And then she texted me back no and then pick me up at six.

She's so stubborn.

"You alright?" I ask.

"Fine. Just tired."

"You're always tired."

"Well that's just me, I guess. Still trying to get back on my sleep schedule again."

"Oh God, I forgot." I forget about how terrible things have been for a month or so. Blame it on the stars, but it's that quick that I forget how she couldn't possibly sleep because back then sleeping meant hiding from the pain. I look to her in alarm, that I've triggered some memory or something, but she just shakes her head gently. "It's fine."

I mess up too much. She's so perfect and flawless and I'm so…not.

Every day, at least once, I'm just consumed and awed and in complete adoration of her. Now the stars could be like this every minute of the day and I wouldn't once be astounded because of how…perfect and…I don't know, brilliant. Words fail me. They always do. When it comes to Jess.

She's not reduced to words. I love the way her hair is spread out on the glass and how she plays with her strapless floral print dress and the way she's smiling. I'm in love and that's it. Everything else is overtaken by that love.

I lean over, my thumb lightly brushing her temple. Looking into those jewels she sees through. "You have such pretty eyes…" I whisper.

They're filled with the stars.

She looks content, as I fondle her hair softly, but I know she could be irritated because that stuff still brings back the prison so I stop.

And I pull back and I think she's halfway to falling asleep but I'm not disconnected from her for long. She turns around and loops her arms around my neck and kisses me. It doesn't take me any time to kiss her back. Not some incredible makeout, but my tiny Jess is just pressed against me, and our lips are pressed together, and I hold her tight…

First time she's kissed me.

She comes apart and gently kisses my closed eyelid and lays her head on my chest. And it comes out at the same time to each other, these words lose all previous meaning and are only meant for each other and each other alone…"I love you."

She looks to me with the largest eyes, then the biggest smile, then burying her head in me again.
I was right. She is made out of stars and more and all things shining…Because I don't know how she could ever be mine but she is.

And I'm so grateful.

this is how i see jesslene because they are so in love.