I really enjoyed this story. I just kinda binged it and the only thing that I'm a bit disappointed about is that I finished it.

I'm a little disturbed that I see similarities between Luc and myself. I'm also a bit disturbed how this story is affecting me. My aunt just walked in and said hi to me and I almost told her to fuck off, for no reason other than interrupting two seconds of reading. What they hell?

Ay so I just gotta say I've read this like three times and I always love it. You dove really well into the characters relationship and the way you described Sam's transition as a character was great. The whole thing really screamed addiction which I think was exactly what you wanted! Whenever I have a friend looking for fanfiction in the supernatural category I always recommend this! You're doing great!

Hello,

so I'll start by saying that you have (or rather, your story has) disturbed me more than anything has for a long time - and that's saying something.
I remember watching a horror/thriller movie with my dad when I was six or so and I remember that I kept telling myself that I should go, I should leave, I should do anything except watch that movie. My dad had fallen asleep and I was glued to the TV, clutching my blanket to my body as though it was the only thing keeping me from crying (probably was actually). Anyhow, what I'm trying to say here is that I've never really experienced that with a fanfiction before. Sure, I've been a little disturbed before, but I've always closed my browser and gone back to mobile-tumblr.
This time around, I stuck around, mainly because your plot was so addictive and fucking suspenseful. I am a bit of an obsessive person; it takes me a while to find that singular interesting thing, but when I do, I get really addicted and obsessed; so I guess that in that sense, I felt like I could sort of relate to Sam and Lucifer.

Lucifer. Hm. Well, he's definitely one of my favourite characters from the show; his mutli-dimensionality really appeals to me; his complex character is charismatic and flawed and I think a long of ff writers have trouble putting that on the page, so to speak. They struggle with finding Lucifer's 'true identity', for want of a better word. I thought your interpretation of lucifer as a human was pretty spot on, his eccentricities and his possessiveness certainly are some common symptoms with psychopathy so I get why this human version of Lucifer was like that. The Angel version of him - Well, i can't imagine that a ff author will ever be able to portray him properly; after all, we see everything in our own subjective way(#protagoras), so if we took some over-developed species like the Angels from supernatural, well... i doubt we would be able to understand them.
At times, I actually felt like I was reading something by Kant or even Freud (whenever Lucifer spoke or Sam had his innermost monologues with himself)... that darkness in your fic... well, you could seriously attribute it to the Kant or Freud.
That is partly why I wouldn't necessarily categorise your ff as a 'romance' or even 'angst'; it was more of a psychological thriller.

As for Sam; well, i thought that his characterisation was wayyyy off the map. Totally not Sam as we know him. Actually, curiously I thought that your Sam was a lot like robo!Sam - a soulless Sam. I'm not saying that psychopaths are necessarily 'soulless', just implying that that is what Sam reminded me of.

When I first started reading this ff, I was pleasantly surprised at how well-written it was and how complex the characters were, Sam and Lucifer, that is(that became apparent even in the first chapter). Somewhere around chapter 5, I started to have doubts. Not about the writing - it was (is) as excellent as ever - but that's when (imo) the story started to get really disturbing. That's also when I started to suspect about Sam's general psychological disposition (well, tbh, that already happened in chapter 1 when he was talking to himself, but I sort of waved it off and ignored it at the time).

Needless to say, this ff has impacted me greatly; I can't even say what exactly appeals to me so much; perhaps the way it's written, or maybe it's originality. After all, it's pretty seldom to find ffs in which Sam and Lucifer don't have that honeymoon phase and then a fight and then a wedding. This story is just... odd and disturbing and really really unique.

I hope that my review doesn't sound to brash or blunt; I tried to tame it as much as possible... I'm still trying to work everything out. For now, I'll add it to my favourites... I'll probably re-read it within the next year.

Anyhow, thank you for dedicating your priceless time to writing this fic and posting it here and on ao3 - your tumblr profile says that you're twenty and this was written three years ago so i imagine you were in high school at the time (ehhh sorry - I guess that seems a little stalkerish, but I really wanted to see the 'samifer stuff') and I know how stressful that time is.

So, um, thanks and good luck with future writing endeavours!

This was dark. Like really fucking disturbingly dark. I applaud you. I am a Samifer fan who genuinely believes that canonly, Sam and Lucifer's relationship can never be anything healthy. Being in love with the Devil isn't a situation where anyone can get out unscathed. So I love your portrayal of Sam being tainted, being corrupted to doing impure things thay je would have never done without Lucifer's influence. I love how far Sam fell, even committing murder for Lucifer. BECAUSE of Lucifer. It read like a deeply disturbing infatuation story between two psychopath and it was horrifying and freaking awesome. As I reiterated, I commend you greatly.

Gosh, that was beautiful. And sad. Loved it though!

You know... Every time i almost stopped reading, something happened that convinced me otherwise. I really love stories like this, so know that you did your job even if i wasn't creeped put by the crime and murder. You cant watch Supernatural and not like crime and/or murder, after all lol

D,: Okay, I loved the ending and how utterly tragic it was, but it literally hit me straight in the feels...thanks. No, seriously, I really adored the story-it was fabulous. I love the gradual changes in Sam and how he actually develops as a character, rather than just being either fucked up or morally superior. Kudos. I really, really loved Lucifer in this and how he gradually fixes/fucks up Sam in a way that is just...devilish. (Does that count as a pun? Because I could really use some form of wit right now, even the lowest.) Anyway, I'm off to cry. Great job on the story!

I bet his email is Satan Hell' . Please make this real.

I'm crying, oh my god I'm crying. I don't like this eye thing- Why did you make him kill himself? This story was way too fucking good for words, although you kept making my laugh, cry, wanna kill myself, and some other shit. This.. THIS. I love you and hate you at the same time, wonderful job, oh for the love of Satan never stop writing, EVER. Now I need to stop crying. Oh my Lucifer I'm never this much of a mess, with a sad Gorillaz song blaring. I can't tell if you made a void in my soul or filled one up, either way, I loved this unconditionally. Thank you so much for writing this, thank you! LLAP.

This was the best samifer fan fiction I have ever read. I literally could not bring myself to stop reading it! The ending made me actually start crying. Even if Sam and lucifer creeped me out it still made me really sad to have lucifer die.

May I just say that this is one of the most singular works of fiction I've ever read? This is incredible, to the last pixel.

I can't stop reading holy crap. I feel like lucifer's going to do something to Sam. Ugh this is so intense

Frickin...

You took away all the words, damn you. I can't even figure out how to accurately express just how profoundly this story impacted me...which is pretty much the biggest compliment I can give you anyway, so there.

All right, story time. So, I'm kind of addicted to the Samifer ship and have read...just an *insane* amount of fics featuring the pairing. I'd seen your story a fair few times in rec lists, but I never clicked on it because I could tell, just from the description, that it was gonna be twisted and angsty and basically ruin me, and I've found out the hard way that fan fiction authors are very rarely willing to cough up cash for my emotional reparations after their fics put my itty-bitty heart through the meatgrinder. Anyway. I was planning on avoiding this like the plague, but I stumbled on the mix for it on 8track and adored the music too much NOT to drag my butt over here and read it. I went straight to the last chapter and scrolled down to read the last paragraph, fully planning on running the other way if it looked a bit too grim. Seeing as it featured one of the two main characters as a jar of freaking ASHES I really should have closed the goddamn window, but it was intriguing enough for me to sort of backwards-skim my way back up, finish all of Chapter 13, then resign myself to heartbreak and take it from the top.

A few hours later and I'm just kind of sitting here, lost. It's such a goddamn shame this is fanfic, because it is so freaking publishable and perfect and $25-novelty-hardcover-edition-worthy, I could have a little freaking tantrum. But yeah, if you were wondering, this review isn't ridiculously rambly *just* because I'm insane - it's also because I don't understand why this story doesn't have at least 2349723492 more reviews, so obviously if I write one long and unintelligible enough it'll make up for the fact...right? Right.

Seriously though, the relationship dynamics between the two of them, and the characterization of each of them individually, and just...I don't know, just the emotional *depth* of the whole thing, I think it deserves more recognition and ego-stroking. Not to mention the downright unnerving accuracy in the depiction of their co-dependent, sociopathic little world. That bit where Luce said they were gods, and all the other people around them were cockroaches? Chills. Just...awesome. And what I like most is what you did with the ending. Driving around, screwing and setting fires and killing just because you freaking feel like it? I must be one twisted sumbitch to consider THAT a happy ending...but even the last bit, where Sam's alone and still hears Luce's voice telling him what to do? Agh, last chapter is sheer perfection.

In a final show of just how fantastically brain-melting this thing was, I'll admit that your story is now bookmarked in the Samifer folder as 'Fuckity fuck McFuckington'. You may take a bow.

WHO. THE. FUCK. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! YOU CANT LET HIM DIE LIKE THAT. WTF?! YOURE HORRID. But on another note, I liked it. HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THIS.