This is heartbreakingly beautiful. I love every word of it. Excellent story, fabulous writing - thank you for sharing it!

Each chapter has made me cry.

Aargh. You're going to dehydrate me with the crying. I love the simple intimacy of asking about her mother. Like wow - that's so incredibly intimate, and shows their relationship on what Pam chose to share. I ache for Pam that she left her mother behind.

I'm glad Pam lives on until now - that she has choices she never had when she was a human. It must have been so frustrating for women back then to eat their words and forget their own beliefs.

Strangely - I love the scene where they tell each other they love one another, and the fight. Like you said to me ages ago (and I quoted you) it's the love that grants the permission to fight. Even some stupid fight about the irritating filing of nails. But at least it lead to a foot rub. :D

I think maybe you decided to be just a little kinder to Pam (you big softie) you didn't have her playing the waiting game - you have the turning fail instead. I think that would be easier to get over than knowing you tried to delay a little bit longer. Pam's loss makes my heart ache for her.

I love them playing in the rain, playing in the ocean, ruling it all - beautiful imagery - just gorgeous. I love the way you capture a woman falling for another woman, and the softness of their relationship. None of the struggle we see between Eric and Sookie - just this gentle slide. *Sigh* Sookie should run off with Pam. :D

Sorry if this has too many breaks, or not enough breaks. Last review I wrote, ate my breaks. Now I'm going to experiment on all of you to get my reviews to have breaks. :D

Yeah, it was your description of the labored breathing that really got to me. There’s just no escaping that sound, and it makes the suffering all the more real. I can only imagine it would have been especially difficult for Pam to hear it, such an insistent reminder of the dilemma they were facing. They came so close. *Sniff* I’m consoling myself over the fact that Miriam died in Pam’s arms, knowing Pam was willing to toss out her vampire rules for her. Maybe that was enough for her. I wonder, too, what Miriam would have been like as a vampire, turned so late in her illness. I like how those memories came together, showing a Miriam who was alive and invincible, such a terrible contrast with the Miriam who lay on her deathbed. *Sigh* They had lovely times together, which even Victor can’t take away. Miriam was a stretch for Pam and a gamble in so many ways. She changed Pam. I loved how Miriam responded with an “I love you too” to Pam. Lol. If I’m reading that right, that was Miriam being a little sneaky. And/or perhaps lost in that moment of joy with Pam. Either way, I like it. ;)

Victor is evil. Pam really needs to go have that meeting with him.

I knew this would be a tearjerker, but…gah. I liked the different ideas of change in here—the way Miriam’s parents want to change her, vs. the way Pam wants to change her, vs. the way Pam accepts her for who she is. I’m so glad Miriam has Pam’s support—Immanuel’s too—but it’s very sad that her parents provided too little too late. How awful for everyone that they’ve missed out on Miriam. I also loved their date on the beach, turning cartwheels in the sand, and Pam’s comfort with looking a little foolish around Miriam. They were meant to be together. One day. It’s so close, it’s painful.

My heart is breaking for Pam. Just breaking. Knowing that it's going to be too late, and she will never keep her Miriam - not even say goodbye to her. But on the flipside, I'm glad that Pam is channelling her distress into doing something about it. But knowing it is not her inaction, but rather Pam being a good vampire and following the rules is so sad.

I love the way you've written them being together. Those gentle touches, the small smiles, chatting in bed together. Playing board games where Pam has all the babies! :D I love this gentle connection, this love and care you've infused into actions instead of words - the very intimacy that is so moving. I love the flashbacks to their happier times - I love imagining Pam frolicking on a beach with her lover, listening to her heartbeat, laying on the sand with her.

Oh you are just killing me here. Miriam's parents not accepting that she loves who she loves? So incredibly sad. It's sadder still to think that there are thousands of Miriams out there whose parents don't see that it's not rebellion - it's love. Pam is right - using her love against her is so wrong it's not funny.

You maked me cry. Tears streaming down my face knowing Pam thinks she has a day, trying to eke it out and do it the right way. Her anger and her sadness that this is all happening - and Pam wanting to keep her Miriam forever, never to lose her. You've given it real sadness, infusing everything - even the optimism, because that makes everything so much worse. You really captured what it's like to watch someone you love dying of cancer - that hope that something will happen in time. We don't have a choice to immortalise our loved ones, and that seems so much more cruel to vampires that they do have a choice, but are constrained by other factors.

I finally got my wish! Thank you so much! I've been saying that there needs to be something written about these two. It's refreshing to see a piece of fanfic that doesn't involve the same two characters. This feels so much like Christmas to me! Thank you so much for making my day!

So bitter-sweet knowing what will happen. Happy to see the loving moments theyve had, though. And Pam is Pam :-)

What a sweet but also heartbreaking story. I really liked the flashbacks in this chapter. Gave us a feeling of their relationship.

This is fantastic. So incredibly heart-wrenching though. You avoid melodrama and cliches. All the emotion comes from the imagery and in the small things. The way Pam reacts and the actions she takes are very in character. The flashback was adorable and realistic. I just loved it in general and really hope you update soon.

Poor Pam. My heart broke for her. Knowing that she could save Miriam, but can't do anything. Being a vampire might be nice - but it means you have to live with other vampires. What a terrible drawback.

I love their date - and that makes it more heartbreaking. Miriam seemed to look and see Pam, not just a vampire. I love Pam being all ornery and disagreeable about having to sit in a canoe and watch Miriam eat - that made me smile.

I hate that I know Miriam is going to die in the day, and Pam will be alone. It's so terribly sad. I want to hug Pam, but she wouldn't like that. Poor Pam. Mayhaps you will give her a vampire horse to cheer her up? :D But seriously - very sad, and excellently written. I want them to be together.

Oh, I felt so sad for Pam & Miriam in DR, and very curious about their story. I’m looking forward to seeing what you’ve imagined for them. Lol, I could see how it could take something adventurous as you described to capture Pam’s attention. (I’d think Miriam would need a sense of adventure akin to Sookie’s.) I like this line: “I’ll get you back, Miriam,” which I think is an interesting choice of words that makes me think more about Pam’s experience, and the anger & desire for revenge she might feel. And of course it’s sad, too, because even if she could find her way past all of the vampire political roadblocks, turning Miriam won’t really get her back, at least not the way she was.

I’m glad you decided to write this story. ;)

*sigh** I love this. I wish there had been more between them in the books.

There's an elegant feel to your writing; you're descriptive with your imagery but it's also infused with emotion. I'm always up for a good Pam story. The coldness of her character fascinates me paired with the rare moments when she does love, and I think you've captured her just right.