I know you put the genre as angst, and said, m but not fluff. Yet I was still unprepared for how sad this is. It is well written, and thought out. I guess what makes it so heartbreaking, is the possibility of truth (within the Ncis world) that is your story.
Thanks for sharing
Keep writing
Kikki

This is brilliantly written. The pain and hurt and so many emotions radiate powerfully through the text, through your words. This is definitely one of my favourite takes on Jetlag and what did or didn't happen. You've captured everything perfectly and handled things tenderly and delicately yet at the same time with brutal honesty and realism.

Oh, my. That was...brilliant. It's given me a second possibility for what could have happened in Paris that would fit with subsequent canon. What nice work, with the comparison to Gibbs and Jenny, the memories of Ziva's previous work with Jenny, the descriptions of Ziva and Tony as good together and good partners with such trust... I love that they stay together in a room with one bed here because it is Tony giving Ziva a memory of where she'd stayed with Jenny.

Then you break it all apart with Ziva unable to remain in the present, and unwilling to tell Tony and encouraging him on then wishing later he'd *known* but telling herself that SHE would have to tell him if that was how she'd wanted things to go...then her shivering in the bathroom, getting the *knife* to put under her pillow, and sending him off so she can gain some distance and perspective...ALL of that fits with the episode, with the fact that they don't synch up their lies, with the fact that Tony still knows they need to talk about it, with the fact that they aren't really *clicking* (nor are they avoiding each other) the rest of "Jet Lag"...this is excellently thought through.

I really like this. It's very bitter sweet. I've love to see you continue it.

Oh wow. This was so breathtakingly heartbreaking but felt so real. Ziva's pain is practically tangible; it emanates off the page and right into your heart. So amazing the difference you see in her and then in Tony after finally consummating all that sexual tension five years in coming. Ziva's confliction and Tony's joy; her yearning and his satiation. I wonder what route canon will lead us down, if we finally get the answer to the did-they didn't-they Paris question this season. Bravo, and I certainly hope to read much more from you; your eloquence and knowledge is certainly beyond compare!

sigh. as much as i want things to get nice and fluffy between these two, what has been left unspoken about what happened to her in somalia still remains a bitter question mark that you have well written about here. i wish for less pain and more openess between these two characters someday... i just hope the creators of ncis will do it soon because my poor little shipper heart can't take much more of this (

As love the realism of this fic. That is, it's not overly romantic (as so many post-Jet Lag stories are) and addresses both Tony and Ziva's pasts, especially after the season 6 finale. Toward the end, Ziva's pain and anguish and regret are so...real. The second half of the story is so visceral, as a reader, you can almost hurt along with her.

I know it's been requested before but if you were to ever expand this or write a follow-up to this, I would definitely read!

This is a great post-ep for Jetlag. And the whole Did They/Didn't They question is in a lot of reviewers minds right now. I'm still on the bridge (no pun intended) on that question.

I like how you molded the story into its own thing instead of trying to make it fit what happened in Jetlag. It's tender and loving in a way that most of these post-ep stories don't capture Tony and Ziva's relationships in Paris. And I like how this is set with Ziva as the main character, Ziva's thoughts and actions, though still in the third person.

And the brotherly love line was pretty funny. I laughed when I read that.

Also I just wanted you to know that I added this story to my c2, which celebrates all things Jetlag, whether a post ep, pre ep or during ep (lol). I love that episode most so far, and especially all the tags that Tiva writers have come up for it, including you. So of course, I added your beautifully written story to the community for more jetlag seekers to read and smile at.

I can only hope that you subscribe to the community as well and show your support for Jet Lag. But mostly I wanted you to know what a great piece of fiction you've produced for me to enjoy.

You can't believe how much I DON'T want this to be true! Well.. the last sentence that is... the rest.. YES!

Please let them do something with this! Thank you for writing the story. It was wonderful :)

beautiful and quite depressing. exactly as it should be. perfect- like always ;)

i too have read post Jetlag fics...but this one is so much different, and i find i enjoyed it more...you dug into ziva's painful past and tony's hurt over her being gone...i can't help but wonder if they really did have an encounter like this.

great story.

Amazing story. I felt so saddened by what happened, it wasn't the typical happy ending. I loved it.

I liked this story :) It's an interesting point of view.

Aww that's so sad. Great job on writing this piece.

Aww, I feel so bad for Ziva!