There's blood on his hands. Dry and flaky, on his fingers and under perfectly polished nails, coating the blue with red. He makes sure to lean back from the edge before loosening his iron grip and bringing numb fingers to his face. / He's afraid of himself. Of what he can do to others. Of what he might do to himself.

Magnus Bane is an internationally famous pop star, renowned for his love songs but knows little of love in his own life. Desperate to get away after a dramatic moment with the press Magnus takes off, ending up in small surfing town on the west coast. Who should he happened to meet there but a beautiful blue eyed man! Beta: Hewt. Being translated into Russian, Spanish, soon French.

Scene from episode 2x20 Alec's reaction, helped by Magnus during and after Jace's death before they head to the lake.

Only weeks after his breakup with Magnus, Alec's night takes a turn for the worse when he ends up in a mundane hospital. But help comes from an unexpected source. Set after 2x18.

Alec is a shadowhunter, and sometimes he gets hurt, but this was too much, this wasn't right. And he wouldn't tell Magnus where they came from. Set after 2x20 WARNING: This fic contains self harm and suicidal tendency themes, it's not explicit but be careful if this will make you uncomfortable don't read it. Be safe.

When Jace gets sick Alec and Clary are there for him. With help from Magnus will Alec be able to find the cause and help his parabatai?