Set in season 8. Meredith messed up the trial and also Zola got taken away from MerDer. Derek blames Meredith but he does not know that Meredith has a stalker. My birthday gift to my readers. May contain slightly violent content. But at no point in the story is it going to get too violent for anyone to handle..

AU: Derek decides to leave Meredith after he gets the chance to start his internship in New York. After six years, Meredith and Derek happen to stumble upon the same path again, but things have changed. Meredith has hidden something from him. Will she keep her secret to herself? Will they be able to start over again, or will they end up farther away from each other than before?

Meredith has lost Zola, her job and now Derek, what more has she to lose? She decides to pick up her life and move on, but how will this effect how she ends up, and how everyone else copes without her. Season 8 AU. R&R

3.20 'Desire' post-ep. "That day. You came out of the water. I spent the scariest hour of my life trying to breathe for you. I love you and I want you, but I don't know what… You didn't swim. You didn't swim and you know how to and I don't know if I can… I don't know if I want to keep trying to breathe for you." As Meredith prepares to bolt, she pauses. "You're wrong."

What if Jack Hyde did more to Ana then just hit her? What if he had actually raped her? Will Ana and Christian be able to recover from this hit and how will they cope with the dangers that lie ahead?