it's time

Sometimes I sit here, always in this spot, and I think. I think about how amazing it is that I've written these stories and you've read them. It's amazing that I still, over a year after i finished my latest, get messages from people who say they like it, they love it, they want more, they care about it and they care about me and I think about how amazing it is that a little girl like me in a little corner in a little land over here could have an impact, maybe even a big impact, on someone over there. I'm honored to have been given that opportunity.

I think about everything the writing gave me. How it made my days fly by, how it made me happy - genuinly happy, how it helped me find myself and how it forced me to deal with something and I had previously just pushed away. I'm honored to have been given that opportunity.

But everything has changed. Maybe it's that those stories drained me of everything I had. Maybe it's that I need to see more things. Do more things. Maybe it's that I'm happy now. I don't know. I just know that I will not be returning as an active author on this site anymore. I keep wanting it. I keep waiting for it but I know it's not gonna happen. I thank you, each and every one of you, for reading, reviewing, messaging, caring, loving. I don't think you'll ever know the huge impact you had on my life. From all the way over there to all the way over here. Thank you.

but it's time to say goodbye.