My name is Erin, and I am a twenty year old English Literature student. I am hoping to study Scriptwriting when I have completed my degree; although I know it is a very difficult business, writing is the only thing that has ever made me happy, as well as being the only thing I have ever really been certain that I'm any good at. You never know what will happen unless you follow your dreams!

I have been writing for as long as I can possibly remember; it is something that has always brought me relief and joy in a world that is often bleak. I was bullied from a very young age and am what others would like to call "odd". As such, my self confidence is often very low, so please don't be upset if I take some time to update, or become paranoid that my story is rubbish - but do feel free to bang my head gently against a wall until I see sense again. This is definitely one those "it's not you, it's me" situations, and it's something that I am gradually managing to deal with.

Fandoms

I have recently, following my disappointment and heartache regarding the Torchwood fandom, made the active decision to ingratiate myelf within a wider range of fandoms. Whilst I now read within the Angel, Supernatural, Doctor Who and Sherlock fandoms, my fictions here are all written for either Torchwood, EastEnders, Phantom of the Opera, Queer as Folk and I have a few in the process of completion for Doctor Who.

Phantom of the Opera: My first ever fandom participation was within the Phantom of the Opera fandom when I was thirteen. I found myself, as an insecure teenager who had often found myself at the mercy of other people's prejudices, clinging to the beauty of the story and, in particular, the tortured, tormented and yet so monstrously human character of Erik (The Phantom). Some of my earliest attempts at fanfiction were for this fandom. They can be found at the bottom of my profile - whilst I feel I have improved drastically since, I keep them here for old time's sake and in the hope that one day, when I'm rich and famous and they come to write my biography (*winks*), they will be easily to hand.

Torchwood: Despite my decision, for my own mental and emotional wellbeing, to step away from the Torchwood fandom for the time being, the majority of my fictions here have been written for that show. You will find that these fictions tend to focus on the character of Ianto Jones and his relationship with Captain Jack Harkness. As a bisexual teenager, I always looked up to him as a role model and as someone I could relate to; not just as a bisexual but as a human being. He really did inspire me in ways I had not been inspired in a very long time - he was my muse and my icon, and through him I was able to come to some sort of acceptance of myself. I find him endlessly fascinating, and never tire of digging deeper than the writers of the show ever dared to go.

EastEnders: I only really write for the Christian/Syed (Chryed) pairing, as they have really become my crutch during my movement away from Torchwood. I adore their storyline and the characters themselves, and would urge anyone here to go and YouTube them if you haven't already. As this is a soap there is much that goes on behind closed doors, and it has been intriguing to try and fill in some of those annoying gaps. They really have inspired me and given me back my inclination to write. Their story is beautiful, complex and intriguing- complicated characters, themes of sexuality, religion and cultural clashes, all culminating in an ultimate triumph of love over adversity and prejudice. Whether you like soaps or not (I went into their storyline with a complete dislike of soaps of any kind) you might just find something special here.

Queer as Folk: In a move that is quite a step away from what is seen as perhaps normal in this fandom, all of my fictions (the posted ones and the ones in the planning stages) focus around the Melanie and Lindsey pairing. Whilst the men in this show were intriguing and pretty, I could never connect with their party boy lifestyle; I really could see, as a bisexual woman who desperately wants a family at some point, a snapshot of my future in the way that Mel and Linz negotiated the ups and downs of their relationship whilst raising their children and keeping a home. I find them endlessly intriguing and attractive, and, at the same time, unfairly ignored by the fandom in general. My decision to focus on these two will probably cost me the reviews or indeed the followers that could be possible in this fandom, but I follow where my heart leads me.

Doctor Who: I have loved Doctor Who since I was introduced to it with the resurrection of the series in 2005, and my love continues right through to the current Moffat/Smith/Ponds era. Although I have no singular piece of fanfiction dedicated to them, the relationship between Eleven, Rory and Amy has been quite extensively explored and visited in my Torchwood/Doctor Who Children of Earth Fix-It, Served Cold. I adore this new Doctor, and the Rory/Amy relationship has completely reinvigorated certain parts of my muse. It's the first straight relationship on television that has interested me in a while, mainly because they have allowed it to not be overshadowed by the extra-terrestrial world they inhabit. I have also recently become obsessed with the Madame Vastra/Jenny pairing (the best cross-species lesbian relationship on television) and have a whole canon for them mapped out in my head. It will be written at some point!

Main Pairings (I Write For): Christian/Syed (EastEnders), Jack/Ianto (Torchwood), Mel/Linz (Queer as Folk), Amy/Rory (Doctor Who), Madame Vastra/Jenny (Doctor Who) and Doctor/TARDIS (Doctor Who - because you know it's true)

Guilty Pleasure Pairings: Doctor/Rory (Doctor Who), River/Doctor (Doctor Who), Ianto/John (Torchwood), John/Sherlock (Sherlock) and my super sekrit OTP: Toshiko/Alice Guppy (Torchwood).

Awards/Nominations

Served Cold:
Children of Time Awards (Round 6): RUNNER UP in the "Angst" Category
Children of Time Awards (Round 6): Nominee in the "Slash" Category

Bandaging Wounds:
Children of Time Awards (Round 6): WINNER in the "Drabble" Category

A Place That Never Rains:
Jack/Ianto Last Author Standing Competition (Round One Challenge One): WINNER

Blood Red Roses:
Jack/Ianto Last Author Standing Competition (Round One Challenge Two): WINNER

Notes On Writing

As you can tell, two of my four main pairings are of the male/male variety. As you can also probably tell, I am NOT a gay/bisexual man, so I don't actually have any experience in this beyond other fictions that I have read over the years. This goes for the generalness of being in a male/male relationship, as well as the writing of male/male sex scenes. I don't think this means that I can't write it - after all, I write about time travel in my Torchwood/Doctor Who fictions and I, personally, don't know what it's like to travel in time. As a prime example, whenever I write for Syed's character in EastEnders, I find myself placing his being a Muslim man in the same box as his being a gay man; all I can do is do my research, be sensitive, be informed and so, hopefully, I am able to do a realistic and/or believable job of it in the end.

The one thing I dislike is surgary, unrealistic and naive portrayals of relationships and life in general. I strive to avoid cliche in everything I write. I believe I have improved as I have grown as a writer (contrasting my first ever scenes to the ones I am now writing) and so any constructive criticism you may have is always welcome. Please don't hesitate to tell me if something grates or doesn't ring true.

I find it very difficult to write any fictions that are pure and unadulterated fluff. Angst and drama seem to be my forte, so even my more light-hearted or romantic fictions will contain some element of darkness. Even those that do not plunge into the very depths of human darkness will always contain some form of angst; for example, a row in a relationship, a hint of mistrust, of lying, of those underlying, simmering emotions that we never really discuss. Rest assured, however, that I believe the purpose of drama is to drag your characters through the harshest of situations and then get them out the other side. The interesting stuff comes when you gather the shattered pieces and begin to tentatively put them back together, not in the actual breaking. As such, unlike the writers of Torchwood and other shows, I believe that there should always be a reward for slogging through the angst.

That's the difference between drama and tragedy. And I will always be a writer of drama, not tragedy. They may not emerge smelling rosy sweet, or in the happiest of places, or indeed as exactly the same people they were before they went in: but they will always emerge with positivity, hope and a good semblance of the characters they once were. It's realistic in that it recognises the positive and the negative. And I hope you will join me on the journey's I take these characters on, on the assurance that it will all be worth it in the end.

A huge thank you to everyone who reads or comments on my fictions. You are all so supportive, and continue to spur me on even when I am in my lowest moments. Please don't ever stop being so wonderful.