I walked into the guild "hey I'm back!" I shouted. No response, not even one glance well I shouldn't be surprised it has been like this for 5 months now. It started when lisanna came back I don't blame her she's still one of my friends one of the ones who know I exist still, no I blame the others all that talk about loving their family was a big lie it's like I'm invisible to them there's only a few that still remember my existence. Juvia, happy, Carla, Lilly, Wendy, master Makorov,lisanna and gajeel they are the only ones that still know that I am here and to the rest of them I'm just a forgotten dream that never happened. Even levy ignores me now it's painful every time they do it it's like I die and the pain of dying over and over again is one I've felt. "Lucy your back!" Shouted Wendy running to me with a huge grin on her face "yep it was easy" I replied with the lie it wasn't easy at all I nearly died if it wasn't for horologium saving me but i wasn't going to let them worry because if I did that they wouldn't let me go on missions that they thought were to hard for me. "Lushyyyyyyyy!" Happy screamed flying into my chest "hey happy don't worry I'm fine you can stop crying now" I said reassuringly "I was so worried why don't you let me come anyways" he said to me with a pout which made him look so cute."I told you already I can handle it on my own" I lied again. At that moment Natsu, Gray and Erza walked up to me, Natsu had his usual grin while Erza and Gray had guilty looks on their faces which made me worry. "Hey luce!" Natsu said and as he said it, it made me feel warm inside he hadn't spoken to me in months let alone even looked at me I started to think he forgot about me. "Yes Natsu" I said putting on the best smile I could because now I can't smile when I do it feels like thousands of daggers stabbing my heart but if it was for him I will. "Well we where thinking that because you don't really go on missions with us anymore and your kind of weak that lisanna could replace you on the team" he said without a care in the world. My whole world crumbled in the matter of seconds I knew they where staring at me but I just hate them so much right now...no wait what am I thinking I can't hate them their my family. I smiled feeling the tears threatening my eyes "yep that's ok" I said those words and as soon as they turned around I ran out of the guild. How could they do that to me? Tears start to fall uncontrollably and I can't stop them. My legs are getting weak and soon I collapse and the last thing I remember is loke's face then every thing went black. When I woke up I was laying on my bed with loke sitting next to me "loke what are you doing here?" I asked. He looked at me strangely "I brought you here after you collapsed in the middle of the street" he said with concern. Then it all came back to me along with the pain that I hated so much "thank you" I mumbled before turning around and hiding my face from him. I didn't want him to see me so weak I knew he would get angry try and beat them up and if he did that he would get hurt because of me and that's the last thing I want.