AN: This is a collection of one-shots about when the Doctor remembers Rose. May be some fluff moments between the Doctor and Rose, may be some reunion. I dont have anything really planed yet.

Song of the Update: Dead! ~ My Chemical Romance (nothing to do with the chapter)

I Believe In Her

He looked down the hall. Door eleven. How fitting. The Doctor looked up at Amy and told her, without words, that he found his door. The look in his eyes told her that he wanted to be alone when he opened it, but she didn't care. He turned down the empty hallway and walked towards the door. He footsteps were long and measured, his breathing even. He was the picture of serenity, except to those who knew him. He reached the end of the hall and looked at the door handle. The smooth brass reflected his face and he stared at it a moment or two, wondering what was behind his door.

His thoughts raced in those few seconds, going anywhere from Daleks to the Master. His breathing slowed slightly and he reached his hand out to the door knob. The knob turned with ease and the door swung open.

What he thought was behind that door was about as far as he could get from right. A sob made his way out of his throat and a single hot tear traced its way down his cheek. How could he think it would be anything else? It made perfect sense, really, that his savior was also his greatest fear.

He took a step into the room. It was an average hotel room, but that wasn't what caused the reaction. What caused the Doctors pain was the pink-and-yellow human that sat on the bed. "Rose Tyler" he whispered the words like a prayer and she turned her head. What the Doctor saw caused him to fall to his knees as Amy ran up to him.

She tried to hold him, to whisper to her raggedy man that this woman wasn't real. That this woman with glowing gold eyes and a union jack T-shirt was not the person who the Doctor screamed for in his sleep at night. This woman wasn't the same person that he woke up crying for, but he couldn't hear her.

The Doctor felt Amy's hands on his arm, trying to lift him up. He heard her whisper soothing words in his ear, but Rose Tyler was walking towards him. Rose Tyler had all of the Time Vortex still running through her fragile human brain and she was walking towards him.

"You left me." It was a statement, not one of sadness or accusation, just an empty statement. Somehow that was worse than anger. Her voice had a strange echo to it, the same echo it had at the GameStation.

"I had no choice" his voice was broken, and lost.

"There is always a choice. You choose to leave me on a beach, you choose to leave me a second time and for that I will never forgive you."

"I couldn't watch you grow old, I couldn't watch someone I love die" somewhere in the back of his mind it registered that he had just told Rose Tyler that he loved her.

"I'm going to die because of you. I still have Bad Wolf in me and its your fault." her words were harsh but still emotionless.

The next time she spoke her words were loud and angry and hurt. They were also her last. "I loved you Doctor! I wanted to spend forever with you! You were the coward! You where the one that refused! You were the one that ruined my life then left me for dead! You, you, you. And guess what? I won't forget that."

Then she collapsed and her mind burned from the inside out. The Doctor watched helpless as his one, and only love died in front of him.

He knew that the Rose Tyler in the hotel room wasn't real. He knew that his Rose Tyler would never such harsh things, but he also knew that this Rose Tyler said nothing but the truth. When Amy asked him about the strange girl in the hotel room, the one he was afraid of, he smiled lightly and told her exactly what he had told the beast in the pit. What he told everyone when they asked about her, what he repeated to himself when things when bad and he didn't know what to fight for anymore.

I've seen a lot in this universe. I've seen fake gods, and bad gods, and demi-gods, and would-be gods. I've had the whole pantheon. But if I believe in one things... just one thing... I believe in her.