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Reed was dead, Charles was dead and she felt numb. April huddled against the building. The gun man had went down. Derek Shepard was in recovery and her heart rate should have went back to normal but she still felt like she couldn't breathe. Her eyes frantically scanned the area for Jackson. He was fine she knew he was fine but at the same time she needed to see him for herself.

"April" Her head turned at his voice.

"Jackson." She sagged against the wall he raced forward catching her before she fell to the ground

"April are you ok are you hurt?"

"I'm… I'm fine." She was shaking tears were gathering in the corner of her eyes and she was trying to be strong but she just couldn't. "Their….. their dead."

"I know." He held her close to him and let her cry. "Come on let's get you out of here." He lead her away from the pain and the confusion that surrounded the hospital.

"April.. April. Kepner stop." April turned around to see Christina standing behind her.

"Yes." She sighed she wanted to leave and she wasn't sure at this moment if she ever wanted to come back.

"I need to talk to you, privately." She looked at Jackson.

"I'll be right over there." Jackson nodded towards the edge of the building.

"What can I do for you Doctor Yang?' April held her hands in front of her clasped trying to stop the shaking.

"Meredith just don't say anything ok she doesn't want anyone to know."

"Of course not." April shook her head and her eyes cut to Jackson.

"Ok good I have to get back to her. "You did well today Kepner."

On shaky legs April walked to where Jackson waited. "What did she want?"

"Nothing are you ready to go ho..me." her words got stuck on the last word. Home were was home she didn't want to go back to the apartment she shared with reed and looking at Jackson she could see he didn't want to go back to the apartment he'd shared with Percy. Her eyes swung back towards the hospital she didn't want to walk back towards that place.

"Kepner, Avery." There attention was divereted to Callie.

"Callie." April had at some point grabbed Jackson's hand and was squeezing it for dear life.

"Go get some sleep you two." Callie pressed a key into her hand. "My apartment is right across the street."

"Thank you." April whispered. She looked across the street and then at Jackson. "It's our only choice for now."

"I know." He sighed "I have to call my mother and you should call yours."

"Right we actually have lives outside of this mess." She shook her head. "That's hard to believe." Jackson steadied her all the way across the road and opened the door for her making sure she was sitting on the couch before he pulled out his phone to call his own mother.

"Call your parents April this would have made national news I'm surprised they haven't called yet. I'm surprised my own mother hasn't called yet." Jackson looked down at his phone. "Shit somehow it got shut off." Turning his phone on it started to blare as April tried to figure out where her phone was.

"Jackson I can't find my phone." Jackson was about to press the answer button on his own phone before he turned to April.

"I'll deal with my mom and then you can use mine."

"Thanks." April whispered frantically wondering where her phone could be and as she did the bile raised in her throat. She could almost picture it laying in a pool of Reed's blood. She hadn't had it when she'd changed out of her scrubs so she must have lost it when she tripped over Reed.

Jackson was pacing the living room. "Yes mom I'm ok I'm not hurt just shook up.

Catherine Avery was frantic she'd switched on her tv and there it had been blaring news reports Seattle Grace Mercy West under fire and Jackson hadn't answered his phone not once she'd left dozens of messages and called every five minutes she was about to pull her hair out when he finally did answer. Too hear her sons voice make her cry for joy but she tried to stay composed.

"Who died?"

"Mom I really don't want to talk about it but I'm fine. April lost her phone she needs to call her own parents."

"Of course, of course." Catherine thought of a set of parents themselves worried over their child's safety. "I love you Jackson." It felt so good to Catherine to say those words after she worried she'd never be able to say them again.

"I love you too ma." And with that the phone went dead but she could breathe Easy because her baby had made it out of the building and she'd mourn for those who didn't.

Jackson sat down next to April she looked so fragil and pale. "April you need to call your parents." He handed her the phone as she shook her head.

"Right ok." She wanted to tell him that all she could see was that pool of blood and Reeds vacant face but the words wouldn't form. With Shaking Fingers she diled a number she knew by heart the number home.

Karen Kepner jumped for the phone the minuet it rang praying with everything in her that it was her baby girl. She'd been frantically calling since the minuet the news had broken only getting April's voice mail. "Hello." She held her breathe on a prayer.

"Mom." She closed her eyes and gave a shaky sigh of relief. Tears running down her face.

"April oh thank god. Are you ok baby?"

"I'm fine I can't really talk about it now. I don't want to talk about it but I'm fine I'll call you when I'm more composed."

"Ok Sweetie I'm just glad you're ok." Karen wasn't going to fight her daughter on this she could hear as April almost broke just telling her that tiny amount of information. Hanging up the phone she turned to her husband. "She's fine." Joe fell to his knees and thanked god for sparing the life of his middle child.

April hung up the phone and handed it back to Jackson. "Thank you."

"You're welcome." Jackson laid down on the couch and pulled April to him. "We should sleep just sleep." His eyes fluttered closed before he could even say another word. April watched him sleep and she thought of all they'd went through Reed and Percy were dead and Jackson was alive but what did that mean why were they spared?" Thoughts whirled through her head as she finally drifted off to sleep out of pure exhaustion.

A/N so this of course starts right after season 6 shooting yes everyone got close on the show but I think Jackson and April would have gotten closer at that moment so this is where my story will diverge from cannon. Something will still be in cannon but not all It's a what if they realized there feelings during season 7 story. Please review.