So I'm gonna pretend that the August is Pinnochio secret never came out while I write this fic.
I've been gone a while and no I haven't forgotten my last fic but life has had other plans for me but I'm hoping to one day soon go back and finish. With that said I've got to have my go at this whole lets have another baby and I'm not leaving you in Neverland thing, too many feels not to have a go at it. Probably just a one shot.
Emma's POV
It's happening again, I don't know why
I'm surprised but I'm caught off guard and
I'm amazed at how much it hurts. I guess
that's what I get for eavesdropping, but
I wanted to make sure they were ok, that
Snow would forgive him and we could
go find my son and figure a way for all
of us to get off this forsaken island. I need
to get away, not caring where I go I take
off into the woods doing the one thing I
know how to do, run.
Snow's POV
"Snow, sweetheart listen, we can talk
about this later, we need to get back to
camp and get some rest so we can help
save our grandson." He says and I know
what he's doing, he's yet to agree with my
decision to stay behind with him here in
Neverland and he's thinking of ways to
talk me out of it. My darling husband
should know me better than that, but if
this is how he wants to play it then I can
go along with him for now.
"You're right, lets get back and make
sure Hook and Neal haven't tried to kill
each other."
Walking back into camp I immediately
notice my daughters absence and I feel a
chill run down my spine.
"Where's Emma?" I ask with some
hesitance.
"I don't know love, last we saw her she
was coming to look for you two." Hook
answered but I could see worry in his eyes
when he realized we hadn't seen her.
"Pan?" I say but David stops me before
panic can really set in.
"Oh no...I didn't think it was anything
but Snow she was there, I heard someone
in the woods walking toward us but then
it sounded like they took off running. We
were talking and I wasn't thinking, why
would she run away and not come over to
us?" And the answer hits me harder than
a real fist ever could.
"David, we need to go find her and we
need to go now!" I scream at my husband,
he is still confused but there's no time to
explain.
"Lets go then." He says needing no
other information.
Emma's POV
I don't know how far I've run and I don't
care, all I want to do is find my son and
get as far away from here as possible, as
far away from them as possible. Finally I
sit and lay the all important map out in
front of me, hoping to at least get my
bearings before I start out again. I want to
forget them, forget that I ever found them,
but I'm finding that thats almost
impossible to do. The hurt has turned into
anger and I'm so mad at them, at her
more than him because she's the one that
has promised me that she'd always be
there for me. Why did I fall for her words, I
knew they were too good to be true yet I
allowed myself to hope that this time
would be different. That this time I would
be a part of a family that wouldn't leave
me. I feel myself falling apart as the tears
start to fall and the next thing I know my
fist has connected with the tree in front of
me.
Snow's POV
We've been walking for what feels like
hours when I hear the most anguished cry
I believe I will ever hear in my life and I'd
know that cry anywhere. That is the cry of
my child, the daughter that I continue to
hurt in this no win situation that is our life.
I look over and see that my Charming has
realized this as well and I grab his arm
before he can charge into action.
"David, I promise I will explain what's
going on but I need you to let me go to
her alone. This is my doing and I need to
be the one to try and make it right."
"She's my daughter too Snow, I want
to help her." I see the desire in his eyes
but this is something he can't fix, I'm not
sure I can but I have to try.
"I know sweetheart and I don't have
time to explain it now but this is my fault,
please just let me do this?" I beg him,
hoping that he'll go along with me for
now.
"Just go to her Snow." He says as the
cries get louder again.
"I'll be back, I promise."
As I move closer I can see that
Emma's cries are from a mixture of both
internal and external pain. She's beating
her hand against a tree and I can tears
falling down her face. I thought I was
prepared for anything life could throw my
way but seeing my daughter this way has
proved me wrong.
"Emma." I say grabbing her arm before
she could do anymore damage.
"Just go away Mary Margaret, please
just leave me alone." She's begging but I
won't go, I can't.
"No, I'm not going anywhere Emma..."
"Don't make promises you have no
intentions of keeping."
"I mean it Emma..."
Emma's POV
"So you're not staying here with him?"
When I say it out loud it sounds selfish but
I can't help myself.
"I...Emma when I think of losing you
again a part of me dies but I don't see
any other way."
"You don't have to explain yourself
Mary Margaret, this isn't the first time I've
lost out, hell it isn't even the first time
you've chosen him over me." I see the
tears start to form in her eyes and I find
myself confused. I want to scream at her,
I want to hurt her but at the same time I
want to let her off the hook, I know there
is nothing special about me and I don't
deserve a family.
"Emma..."
"No, I need to and then you can have
your say before we part ways and then
you guys can have your do over. Please
just let me finish." I take a breath hoping I
can get through this.
"Okay Emma go ahead." She says not
bothering to wipe the tears away.
"I meant it when I said I'm use to this,
the only difference is this time I got my
hopes up that this time it would be
different. I had my walls as you like to call
them in place to keep the hurt out but you
managed to break them down and I hate
you for that. I hate that you made me love
you, I hate that I've allowed you to hurt
me again. I don't know why I thought this
time you'd choose me but I did and I hate
myself more than you can possibly
imagine." I break off, vowing that after this
there will be no more tears shed for this
woman, for the life she made me want.
"Why? I know I'm not easy to love and I
know...I know that I'm nothing special but
I've been trying to be better, trying to be a
daughter you could be proud of but if I
didn't have a chance then why did you
promise me you wouldn't leave me again?
You told me it was your job to change my
life so I wouldn't be an orphan anymore.
Was it a game to you, to get the poor little
lost girls hopes up just to watch her fall?"
I'm done, I've said everything I need to
say but I need to see this through and
what she has to say hoping it'll make
walking away a little easier.
Snow's POV
I take a breath and prepare to try and
salvage my relationship with me daughter
but before I answer her I have a question
of my own that needs answered.
"Emma I want you to listen to me, I've
never chosen your father over you, can
you please tell me why you think I have?"
"Surely you haven't forgotten sending
me through the wardrobe." She says and
I'm still at a loss.
"Of course I haven't forgot Emma, that
was the best and worst day of my life all
rolled into one. That was the day I gave
birth to my beautiful baby girl and no
sooner was she in my arms I had to send
her away." Oh the pain was still so fresh
and even talking to Emma about that day
was unbearable.
"Still even then I wasn't enough to leave
him for, I was a baby and you chose him
over me, why in the hell did I not know
this time wouldn't be any different? I
wasn't even going to ask you to choose,
all I wanted was for you to promise me
you wouldn't give up, that we would find a
way to leave here as a family. That's why I
was coming to find y'all so we could work
this out together."
"Wait a minute Emma, back up, I
promise we'll get there in a minute but
first you have to know something. I want
you to listen to me here, I was suppose
to go with you while I still carried you but I
went into labor and it was too late, there
was no other way to save your life but
send you alone. If there had been another
way don't think I wouldn't have done it.
Don't you dare make light of the decision I
had to make, I wanted to be with you
more than you can know."
"Then why didn't you?"
"Damn it Emma, it only took one, we
had to save your life. Your life was more
important than the both of ours, don't you
see that?" I was beginning to lose my
temper and it wasn't going to solve
anything but damn why is she bringing
this up now? I thought we were over this,
after seeing her nursery and knowing all I
had planned for her.
"What about Pinnochio?"
"What does he have to do with this?"
"Pinnochio is August, he went through
with me. So don't stand there and lie to
face."
"Emma, you have to believe me here,
use that superpower you're so fond of
and you'll know I'm not lying, I had no
clue that he went through before you. We
were told only one could go and I will not
apologize for saving your life. I'm sorry
that you grew up the way you did and I
hope that one day you will trust me
enough to try and let me help you deal
with that part of your life."
"You won't be there because you're not
going back home remember."
"I'm sorry, I was so upset over your
father that I lost faith in everything even
our family and I'm sorry. But Emma, look
at me please, I promise we will find a way.
I won't lose you again and I know I've lost
your trust but I will do everything in my
power to gain that back. I do want a do
over but I want it with you. I want to fix us
before I try for another baby. I'm not going
to lie, I do want another baby and again I
will not apologize for wanting to expand
our family but I will apologize for the way
I've gone about it. But baby you have to
know that no one will ever take your place
in my life, you will always be the one that
stole my breath for the first time. If there
are anymore children they will join you in
my heart but honey no one will ever take
your place. I want you right beside me for
the rest of my life. It's hard because your
an adult, I don't have any experience
being your mother but Emma I am your
mother and I wouldn't change that for
anything in this world. Sometimes I want
to wrap you up in my arms and never let
you go and sometimes I want to strangle
you but I'm sure that's the way it's
suppose to be but regardless my love for
you haven't and will not change. Please
Emma just give us a chance. Can you
please do that?" I've laid it all out and I
wait as patiently as I can for my stubborn
daughter to give me an indication on if I
might have gotten through.
"I...I want to try, I can't promise it's
going to be easy but I do believe you. I..."
I cut her off taking her in my arms,
hoping that she'll allow me a few minutes
to hold on and make sure she's not going
to run again. I'm surprised when her arms
go around and hold me just as tight,
maybe we both need the assurance that
we're not going to disappear.
"We need to go get your father before
he paces a hole through the ground and
get your hand taken care of, it looks like
you did a real number on it."
"Lets go, Henry needs us and we need
to find a way to get David home."
As I walk toward my husband I'm filled
with a renewed sense of hope and this
time I'm not letting it go without a fight.
Authors note: this has not been proofed so I'm sorry if there's a lot of mistakes, I also typed it on my iPhone so I'm not sure how its going to look. I'm sure I've left some stuff outta it. I hope I got Snows and Emma's side out without destroying one side or the other cause this is a tough situation to be in. Thanks to all who read.