A/N: This starts right after where the first book left off with Ana leaving Christian. What if that five day silent break up with no word from Christian never happened. What if he tried to patch up the next day? Thru a love letter? Review plz!
I'd initially published this from an old account of mine as a result of a bet with a friend. But now I've decided to revert to my original and more used account. My first fanfic in this fandom, but I love writing and would love to hear from you guys. I deleted the story under the name MarGarita pizza and have lost a lot of reviews as a result. Would love it if you reviewed again as I have added to this story.
From: Christian Grey
Subject: I'm not the hearts and flowers kind of guy but. .
Date: May 28, 2011, 2:00 a.m
To: Anastasia Steele
I'm not the hearts and flowers kind of guy. At least that was what I once claimed. So what am I doing at 2 a.m in the morning writing this corny email? Because that's what a 'hearts and flowers' kind of guy would do wouldn't it? But then you always had the talent to uncover hidden sides of me Ms Steele...
You had every right to walk away from me last night. I admit, I got a little..carried away. And when you shut my door for the last time, I knew I had gone too far. I wanted to fling open the door,run after you, gather you in my arms and soothe away your pain. I wanted you to come back to my life and return the light of happiness that you haf brought into my life. And most of all, I wanted to to kiss away your doubts and insecurities about our relationships and how you cannot give me what I want. Because if there's any giving to be done, I'll do it. To you Ana. Only to you. Forever and ever.
Why you ask?
I'll say it just once.
I love you Ana. This feeling I have in me to protect you forever, to break down anyone who wants to harm you, to wake up in your arms every morning and experience the wondrous thrill of making love to your beautiful body..yes, this wonderful feeling is what I realise to be love.
I love everything about you Ana! Your mania for NOT eating healthy, your smart mouth that I always long to silence with a sweet, searing kiss, your determination, your strength to oppose me in every damned decision I make and everything that makes up you!
Ana baby, come back to me please sweetheart. I've tried living without you for a mere day and it is hell! I love you, I want you, and I want you in my arms. I want to hear you sigh out my name when I'm inside you. I want to feel your hair tumbling over your shoulders and breasts and feel your lush body respond to my passion.
Come back to me my love. I will redeem myself and be the person you want me to be. Give me your love, your passion, your mind, body and soul, but not your hatred.
Love( I'm getting addicted to writing that word!)
Christian..
I gaped at the email, scrolling down over and over again just to read the new message. A new message from my fifty! My precious, lovable, fucked up fifty writing a love letter!
A small giggle escaped my lips, slowly turning into hysterical laughter. Tears streamed down my face as I re read his message of love in wonder, happiness bubbling in my heart that the impossible had happened..that the man I considered beyond my reach loved me back! Oh wonder of wonders!
I jumped up from the bed and danced around the room wanting to scream and shout for joy! I love Christian Grey! I left him, with a broken heart because deep down I knew I couldn't contemplate a life without him. A life without his continuos admonishing about my eating habits and 'smart mouth' as he so tactfully put it. I loved his possessiveness, his over protective nature , the sweet, kind caring side of him that only I knew. I missed him, even of it was only a matter of a few hours. My body craved his touch, and his caresses which he rained on me with unending passion, and all of a sudden I knew...this was the man I could never leave. Not when he loved me back too!
i flew to the bedside stand and picked up my blackberry. I must email him back this instant! My love must not be kept waiting a second longer!
My eyes shone with tears of happiness as I pressed the reply button. But as my fingers began to type, my dear subconscious chose that very moment to preach at me.
What if he doesn't really love you?
My fingers froze as realization washed over me like a strong douse of cold water.
What if just wants you back out of ego? Because no woman has ever walked out on him before?, she continued her lecture mercilessly.
I collapsed onto the bed, a feeling of hopelessness engulfing me. What if that was how it was? What if he thought this was the perfect way to lure me back and dump me later on? What if this whole thing was just a cruel trick?
I broke into a cold sweat as images if Christian dumping me flooded my mind. I'd left him and look what it turned me into in just a few hours. If it happened again, I don't know if I'd ever recover from the blow...
I bit my lip as the battle within me raged on. Which would you choose Ana ? Common sense or your heart?
Taking a deep breath, I decided there was only one course of action. I had to meet him for myself. But I would not go to him. Christian would come to me himself. If he loved me that is..
Taking a deep breath, I pressed the 'delete' button and for good measure deleted him from my contact list. If he called me, I'd pick up without question when his name flashed on the screen. A number would be easier to ignore.
I lay down on my pillow and closed my eyes. All I could do now was wait..