Chapter 1

Sam P.O.V

After I fought with my dad I left for Stanford. On the way there I decided that I couldn't go, not with my dad's words still on my mind. So I called Stanford and told them I wouldn't be attending. And instead I joined the United States Marine Corps. I suffered through 13 weeks of boot camp at Parris Island, South Carolina then made it through Camp Geiger. After that I was assigned to my unit and we were shipped out to Iraq.

3 years into my tour I was walking down a dirt road and stepped on a roadside bomb. My 2 closest friends were killed instantly, I fortunately? survived. I was at a hospital for a few weeks before being sent to a rehabilitation center to figure out how to use my new leg.

It's been four years since I last saw Dean and my dad. I'm ashamed to admit it but i'm afraid to see them. I don't know what their reactions would be, but most of all I don't want their pity. I get enough from complete strangers as it is. But I miss Dean and I hate to admit it but I miss hunting. Ridding the world of monsters was better than this. I wake up every morning and the first thing I notice is how lonely I am. I rent an apartment in Palo Alto and I live alone. I've tried dating but most girls can't get around the one leg thing and the scars covering my stomach, chest, and arms. I work at a local restaurant as a cook. It's a good job and I get a lot of free food so its fine. I live in a 2 bedroom, 1 bath apartment. Theres a couch, TV and coffee table in the living room. In my room is a queen size bed and a dresser. Theres nothing but bookshelves full of lore and a desk with my laptop on it in the other bedroom.

When I enlisted I told Bobby where I was going, he didn't like my choice but it was too late to stop me. But most importantly he agreed not to tell Dean or my dad. I've talked to him since but haven't mentioned my appearance or my missing leg. I'm pretty sure he would call Dean and my dad immediately. He thinks I made it back okay and I just let him think that. I help him with hunts sometimes but its all desk work of course. Other than helping Bobby I don't do much except work and watch TV and drink. I drink to forget, but I try to avoid drinking so much that I wake up with a hangover. I just wish I was normal so I could go hang out with Dean for a day.