Author Note: I'm not quite satisfied with this chapter but I have been sitting on it for three days and nothing is changing. So I figured I would post it and then hopefully it comes together better in the next chapter.

disclaimer: I own nothing.

"Mia, I need you to ride with Caleb and Bobby." Sam said as we all headed towards the cars.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because I need to talk to Dean." He said not even looking at me.

"Well great because I need to talk to both of you about a whole lot apparently." I say crossing my arms annoyed.

"No Mia not now." Sam said and I can hear how annoyed he is getting.

"This is such bullshit!" I say and everyone turns around. "I am so sick of all of you acting like I am a god dam child! I am 18 years old."

"Act like it some time and maybe well treat you like it." Sam spun around and growled in my face.

"Act like it!" I yell back in astonishment. "What do y'all think I have been doing these last few months? I stayed behind, I finished school, I helped Bobby, and I never said a God dam word about it!" I saw the surprise on everyone's face, but I was on a roll and there was no stopping me now.

"You both keep secrets and put yourselves in danger every day and don't tell me a thing about it. Then come back home and act like everything fine deciding when I can be part of your lives and when it's ok to just leave me in the dark. I guess it's true what they say apples don't fall far from the tree because you both are exactly like dad! Secret keeping, bull headed, leaping into danger, demon pact making, self-sacrificing, assholes." Tears were falling down my face and I was breathing hard as years of being pushed aside came pouring out.

"I'm done being pushed aside, I'm done being left out, I'm done being made to feel like an object that is so easy to pick and put down. By all of you." I say as my eyes land on Dean, Sam, and Caleb. "I'll ride back with Ellen and Jo because I know if I walk away right now, you'll just follow me. But when we get back things will be changing." Finished I turned and walked towards Ellen who was standing mouth open by the front of her car.

"Is that ok? If I ride with you?" I ask barley holding it together. Snapping out of her shock Ellen nodded her head and opened the back door.

"Of course, honey jump on in." I curled into the back and let myself come completely undone crying harder than I had in a long time.

Three hours into the ride home the tears had not stopped, at a stop light Jo came into the back with me. Her being there gave me enough comfort that I was able to pull myself together a bit more. We sat in the car silent for another hour.

"I'm sorry you guys had to see that." I said leaning my head against the window. Neither Jo nor Ellen said anything back.

We were the first back to Bobby's house, but I knew that the others weren't far behind us. I ran to my room and closed the door. I sat on my bed shocked that all of that had come out. I heard the door slam open and prepared for the fight I knew would be coming up the stairs. I was surprised when 15 minuets went by and no one came to the door I started to get worried. I slipped down the stairs and realized no one was home.

"You going to stand on the stairs all night or you going to come have dinner girl?" I heard Bobby call out from the kitchen. I walked into the kitchen suddenly feeling nervous and insecure about what I said.

"Where is everyone?" I asked sitting down at the table.

"I sent them out so we can talk." He said setting a plate down in front of me and sitting down across the table.

"About what I said earlier Uncle Bobby, I didn't mean anything when I said I got stuck behind with you." I said looking up and reaching my hand across the table. "I really enjoyed the time with you, and it gave me a chance to be a normal girl for a little bit."

"Mia, it's going to take a lot more then a tantrum to hurt my feelings." He said patting my hand. "That's not what I wanted to talk to you about." He sighed. "Mia, did you mean what you said about your brothers?" I wanted to deny so bad,

but I couldn't.

"I did, and about Caleb to I'm done being left behind and waiting around for everyone. I'm so sick of being pushed aside."

"So, what are you going to do about it?" Bobby asked.

"I'm going to help get Dean out of his deal." I answered.

"And then?"

"I'm going to go it on my own."