Working Inside Out Chapter 4

Hey there. Sorry. I have been super busy with college and with Thanksgiving coming my life has been filled with papers and homework. So don't expect chapters to come so very fast until Christmas Holiday. Again I want to thank you, the reader, for sticking with me though this. I know it is short and moving very fast but it is how I write and I want to get things out there as fast as possible. I do this because I hate when I am in a fic and the author never updates. Drives me crazy. Anyway. Let's Do This. I don't own anything.

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How can you block something from your mind without having permanent brain damage? Well if you can I haven't figured it out yet. It wouldn't be that bad if it I wasn't constantly reminded of those damn soft lips. It should be illegal to have lips that soft. I mean I can't even think of something that soft and it bothers me. Everything about that man bothers me. The way his hair falls in his face. His eyes when he wears a blues shirt. The way the shirt fits his body. The way his pants fall off his hips. I mean it has to be a sin to look that good. And worst of all his always catches me looking at him and blush. He never says anything but I know he knows.

I have this theory he is doing this on purpose. Because he can and he knows he oozes sexiness. And I can admire how quickly he has picked up on the daily chores around here. But he did something very spontaneous Peeta like today. While eating our quite lunch as usual then he speaks up.

" Katniss? Will you allow me to take you out tonight? Like a restaurant? I would be good to get off this farm once in a while. What you say?"

" I don't know Peeta. Well I tell you what. I'll go with you if I can pick the place and pay for it. Deal?"

" Okay we have a deal but I am driving."

And here I am heading to one of my favorite places to eat. Greasy Sae's Dinner right in town and right across from the Mellark Bakery. Way to think that though Katniss. He doesn't seem bothered by it when pull in.

We go right in and I set in the usual spot that we had when there was still a we in my family. I try not to think about it too much and try to have a good time. I am way too excited to get my hands on some of Sae's famous lamb and plum stew. Sounds crazy but it is like the best stuff ever with sourdough to scoop the juices. I could eat that every day and be happy. Even though Peeta's cooking has been excellent. After we order I notice that Peeta has been engrossed in his paper place mat and is vigorously writing something down.

" What are you doing?" I ask him. He looks up. Almost embarrassed that I caught him. He shrugs.

" Oh. It's nothing. Just some doodling. Here. See." He slides over the paper and what I see isn't some random doodling. I see the scene from the roof the other night but in Peeta's eyes. It is me out on the edge of the shingles. My face is illuminated by the moonlight. I look peaceful and beautiful. I am in shock on how good this is. Professional almost.

" Peeta this is good. Like professional. You have a real talent. You make me look like ten times better than I really am." He just smiles.

" I just do what I see." He looks at me with all seriousness. And then our food arrives and his drawing as a topic drops and we continue the rest of the meal in silence. Mostly due to me stuffing my face with every last bite of lamb stew I can manage. I pay for the food and we head out of the dinner.

I thought we were heading back home but Peeta apparently has a different plan than me. We are going down an old country road that I am not familiar with.

" So this is when you take me to a secluded place, reveal that you're a killer ,and leave my body here to rot?" He just laughs and I can't help but to chuckle at my little joke.

" Oh you caught me. But really I want to show you this place I used to go all the time. I thought I would return the favor from the other night. Plus it's the perfect night." We keep going until the dirt road is no more. Peeta puts his truck in park and gets out. I head out to the grassy field in the middle of absolute nowhere. Hearing the crickets and distant owls from the forest on the outskirts of the field soothes me. I feel at home and calm.

Peeta spreads out a huge blanket and has a pitcher of sweet tea at hand. He lays down and motions me to join him. I lay down and see the clear sky, full of constellations and distance galaxies. At this point I feel so small and my problems seem so minor to the big universe I live in. At this moment I feel at peace for some reason. I don't know if it's the reminder of seeing my family happy through the stars or the man I lay next to but it's something along that line. And now I have never been more aware of the heat and chemistry that radiates when I am around him. My heart thumps loud in my ear. My brain shuts off and I feel heat spreading though my body at all times. It is both annoying as fuck and blissful all at the same time.

I turn my head and watch Peeta. His strong arms are under his head. His blonde locks fall just to the side of his face making me want to just run my hands through it. His eyes are closed with a smile on his face. It is the best smile I have ever seen because in this moment he looked happy. Like he could freeze time and be here forever. I wish it could just for him. He deserves everything he has ever wanted. Now I realize the one thing he has wanted most of his life: love, true love with one girl forever, and he chose me.

" Peeta, can I ask you something?" He shifts towards me and nods. " Why did you pick me?" He just smiles.

" I think you know why."

" I know the situation and how but never why. I never did anything for you or talked to you."

" You never asked for attention and you didn't need to. I saw you and knew you were a real person that loved fiercely. You are so confident in yourself you never needed anyone else. Don't get me wrong you are a very beautiful woman but I am more attracted to you as a person. I feel like you can see right through my heart. Now that I know you I can't help but to fall even more."

" Well thanks for the explanation. I was a bit confused. I think you deserve everything you ever wanted and more. Ya know for just being a really awesome person. "

" Can I ask you something?" I just nod. Not wanting to reveal the nervousness in my voice. " Have you ever thought about me as being more than a friend or a coworker or roommate?" His voice is husky but playful. He is aware of what he does to me. I am trying with all my power not to blush but I am failing in a downward spiral.

" Yes. Sometimes. Okay maybe more that I would admit to but I can't help it when you show up with this super toned body, personality from God Himself, professional cook, and your dumb eyes that are so freaking wonderfully blue. Yes I think about you. Gay guys think about you. Hell, even Lesbians think about you. It is hard to ignore the perfect. And I have tried." But I have done more than think about him. Longer showers. Sleepless nights. Shit like that never happened before Mr. Hot Buns started showing up.

" Just making sure you are feeling this too." He is so close I can feel his breath and it is sending waves of shivers down my spine. He leans in a whispers in my ear " I never stop thinking about you. Never. Even my dreams are filled with you and after that kiss the other night… Oh I will never forget what you tasted like." I just nod. The feeling could be nothing but mutual but I am scared to move. " Would you allow me to kiss you again?" I tense at his words. I want this. More than anything right now.

" I will allow it." I barely squeak out before his lips are on mine again. This one I am ready for and manage to put in all the passion I have into this kiss. His arms enclose around me bringing me into his body. My hands find his hair and I run fingers through every inch of those blonde locks. Next thing I know he is deepening the kiss begging for permission. I grant him. I make sure to tell him I want this too. He may have wanted this longer but this is all new to me and I like it. When the kiss exceeds its limit and very out of breath Peeta pulls away, all I can see is his goofy grin in the moon light.

" Wow." I smile at his bluntness but couldn't agree more.

" Wow." And just like that I was falling hard for Bread Boy, Peeta Mellark. And all I could think about was fucking his brains out and never being happier.