A/N: Hello my faithful readers! Wow, it's been... 6 months since my last post?! Dang, I'm so sorry! I swear, if you were a fly on my wall, you would know I have been working on this chapter since January. But then RL took hold. No, I did not run away with Peter Facinelli... and boy did I want to so many times with everything that has been going on in my RL. I've been trying to get a job on his new drama series Odyssey on CBS. Most importantly, I'm moving to South Carolina to be closer to my grandma with Alzheimer's... did I mention that I don't want to move because of the fact I'm trying to get this awesome job on Odyssey as well as the two Whitey Bulger movies that will be filming in Boston? Yeah, I'm excited about moving far away from Boston (note the sarcasm).
Also, as some of you know, I have been having some difficulties with a former friend on Twitter. She was very close to me and a very dear friend. She decided to make things very difficult for me on Twitter by posting rumors and making stuff up about me that is not and never has been true. With all of this drama she has been pouring on me, it has been difficult for me to keep writing this fic as my mojo plummeted.
With that, I want to make it clear that I do not plan to abandon this wonderful fic! I can not guarantee that I will have another update soon, but I will have another chapter up as soon as I can!
Please keep in mind, because I had all of my faithful readers waiting for such a long time, I decided to post this really long chapter. I apologize if this is an inconvenience to some, however, many of my readers love to read long chapters and they would rather read a long chapter than short. This chapter is for my awesome friend, Acadia Elle. She has helped me through this difficult time in my life and has helped me see the humor in the little things... And helped me realize (with speculation) that just maybe, a certain someone might have a fondness for me. This is your birthday present, Elle (even though it's a little late)! Enjoy Dr. McSparkley and all his sexiness LOL!
So without further ado, here is chapter 5! Also another note, you all readimg this will notice I kinda pimped out Peter Facinelli in this chapter. I meantion our movie, "Loosies", in this chapter. I think it's safe to say he is ok with me mentioning the movie here as he personally thanked me for promoting "Loosies" at my work when I came to his November comic book signing. To me, any free promoting is good promoting. Once again, I do accept ALL constructive criticisms! Stop asking me if I want constructive criticism, it's obvious that I do want it! So yes, con-crit and comments are both welcomed!
Peace out!
Chapter 5: It's In His Kiss...
Carlisle's POV
I'm waiting for my pager to vibrate as I sit here in my office staring at the contacts list on my iPhone. Dear God, it's been 7 days since the hunt I went on with Jasper... and today is Friday. Donna is coming over for a sleepover with Alice. Donna was supposed to come over last Friday, but Alice looked into the future and saw I was busy with trauma surgeries last weekend. Alice told Donna that I got stuck in surgeries, including trauma surgeries, all weekend and that the sleepover would have to wait for the following weekend.
As difficult as it is, I am trying my best not to think about Donna right now. I'm focusing on being a doctor, on helping people, on reverting myself back to being calm; more my true self.
If not for myself, I'll do it for Donna; I'll show her who I really am, and not who I became after Es- after she left me. I knew then, that I was damned; regardless of how many lives I save in my existence. That is the main reason why I wanted to quit my profession of being a doctor. Why help people if I know for sure that I am damned? But Alice pulled me through and brought me here to Vermont. Then I met my mate, Donna... My God, she is an angel sent from Heaven.
I feel awful for lying to Donna the other day. I never want to lie to her. Even though we just met a little over a week ago and barely know each other, I can safely say that I'm in love with her. But I have to protect my identity, my family's identity.
It's against the laws that are made by the Volturi to let humans know of our existence, or else the punishment is death to both the human and vampire. However, during "the war that never was", as Alice dubbed the confrontation with the Volturi, Aro made a deal with me after meeting Nahuel and Renesemee, who are both hybrids. He now believes that hybrids do exist and are not a threat to vampires.
We made an agreement that if a human finds out on their own terms that we do exist, then they are not subject to become one of us. So with that being said, humans who know of our existence, and keep their knowledge a secret from other humans, will not be subjected to death.
Donna seems to already notice how my family is different from other humans. At least that is what Alice told me last night. Our golden eyes, and pale skin.
I am different from Alice, Jasper, and the rest of my original Cullen coven. I am a soft body vampire and my skin is a little cooler than room temperature. If she asks me if I am a vampire, I won't lie to her, I'll say 'yes.'
I decide to write Donna a short text message so she doesn't feel like I'm ignoring her. I want to subtly tell her that I have feelings for her.
Your presence warms my heart like the sun warms a flower. You entered my thoughts a few times today, and each time I smiled. I hope your day has been as pleasant as mine. -C
It's not difficult for a vampire to figure out if a human they are interacting with is shy or not. The sudden erratic heartbeat and blushing of the skin are tell-tail signs. Donna is, without a doubt, a very shy individual. She should be handled with the utmost care by my family and myself especially when dealing with sensitive matters.
Carlisle, thanks for the lovely message. That was very thoughtful of you to think of me this way *blushing* I'm happy to know I'm welcomed into your thoughts. I'm looking forward to the sleepover with Alice this evening. Will I be seeing you at your home? -D
Yeah! I mentally give myself a high-five. I have a small bit of doubt that is entering my mind though. Did Donna really mean that or does she think that I'm a creep for telling her she is in my thoughts?
I would not miss it for the world. I can not think of anything else I would rather do than to enjoy the evening with you, Alice, and Jasper :) -C
Oh stop making me blush Carlisle! I enjoy your company very much, and hearing your laugh makes me feel so much at ease. Honestly, I'm nothing special, as I have a lot of flaws. I'll see you when you arrive home tonight. Be sure to bring home an appetite ;) -D
Oh boy, Alice must be planing something. I can feel it in my gut. I smile to myself while reading Donna's last text. WOW! I place my right hand on my chest and sit back in my office chair, taking a deep breath. It might be all in my mind, but I think I just felt my heart become warm and beat again, after it has been dead for the past 360-some years! Maybe I should buy Donna a carnation, something simple. Or would that be too much too soon?
No Carlisle, it's too early for you to be buying flowers for Donna. Not tonight, maybe on your first date. -A
That pixie read my mind! I sigh deeply and shake my head. She is always one step ahead of me.
Buzz... Buzz... Buzzzz...
There goes my pager. I push myself away from my desk, sending one more text to Donna, before tucking my iPhone in my side pocket.
Sweetie, if it's not too bold of me to say, with all sincerity, I find whatever flaws you have to be breathtakingly beautiful. This seemingly long shift is well worth my time as I look forward to spending a pleasurable night with you and my family. -C
Before I walk out of my office, I let out an unnecessary sigh.
6 hours later, I'm pulling into the garage. I can smell... Mmmm... strawberries and hibiscus. My mate is here, in my territory, and she is cooking what I'm sure will taste delightful.
I can also hear my mate's heart beat and laughter from inside. Alice and Donna are giggling about something. Despite how tempted I am to just listen into their conversation with my vampiric hearing, it would not be fair to Donna since she has no knowledge of our family secret... yet. I'm scared to think what Donna's reaction will be when she realizes we are not human. But there is the small part of me that tells me that everything is going to be perfect, that it won't matter to Donna if I'm a vampire or a regular human, she will still love me for the gentleman that I am. That thought makes me smile inside.
I'm oddly aware of how blessed I am, that unlike my fellow family members, I have no problems ingesting human food, until I have to bring it back up some hours later.
The food she is baking smells delicious... Is that hamburgers I smell? I hope Alice told Donna I like mine cooked rare... as long as I can still taste the blood. I think I can also smell nachos, guacamole... and chocolate chip cookies... my mate can bake cookies? Geez, I'm a lucky son-of-a-gun, aren't I? Ha! I smile to myself.
Just then, the door to the gaming room opens and Jasper comes into the garage to greet me. "Hey Carlisle, pleasure seeing you come home a little early." He comes down the steps to meet me at the trunk of my car and I take out my briefcase. "I sense that you are a little apprehensive to come inside the house since you can hear your mate. I figured I could assist you in distracting yourself from the girls." Jasper leans in as if to whisper, a human habit that I've taught my "children" to keep even when we are not in the presence of humans.
"You know, Alice and Donna are having their girl talk. Ugh, I just wanted to get out of it." Jasper sighs in relief.
Jasper mocks the girls with a high-pitched voice that makes me cringe, "Donna, what do you look for in a man? Oh, Alice, Carlisle is so handsome! I love his bright golden eyes and his light blond hair! Oh, we should go shoe shopping..."
"Stop it Jazz..." I wave my hands in protest. "Wait a second," I hold my thumb and index fingers at the bridge of my nose while squeezing my eyes shut, out of habit when my 'children' frustrate me. "What did you just say?"
"Oh, nothing Carlisle, nothing at all. I must have misunderstood those girls at some point." Jasper winks knowing fully well that I heard him loud and clear the first time and I know he did not make that stuff up. Alice would live at the mall if she could. If Jasper were human, I would have questioned if he has been smoking something while watching "Hannah Montana." That mock that Jasper did of Donna, I could have sworn my heart felt warm again with just the thought that she felt the mating pull also.
"Come on, old man! Let's get you inside and get you changed into something more..." Jasper leads me in and claps his hands on my shoulders. "Something more age appropriate. What do you say?" Jazz smirks. Damn that smirk, he's up to no good!
Donna's POV (a few minutes before Carlisle is in the garage)
"Alice, I haven't had this much fun in years. Honestly, the last time I was invited to a sleep over was when I was in elementary school." I blush as I place the cookie sheet in the oven after I roll up the last ball of cookie dough. "Thank you for asking me over, Alice. It's a nice feeling hanging out with new friends and being invited to stay over night." I smile and bite my bottom lip out of habit.
"You're welcome, Sweetie! I knew we would be great friends," Alice hugs me. "I feel like we are sisters."
"You know, I feel the same way! You're like a younger sister to me Alice. Wise, but also younger. I never thought I'd meet someone who is vertically challenged like me!" I giggle and hug her in return. Her small features and giggle remind me of a pixie. She is definitely unique, that's for sure!
"Ok. So the chocolate-chip cookies are baking. We have the salad already made and ready to serve. Oh, the baked lasagna is in the top oven warming for when Carlisle comes home. We have the sleeping bags, blankets, and pillows out in the living-room. Oh, I should go check to make sure we have enough wood for the fireplace!" Alice suddenly goes into hyperactive mode and makes my head spin, figuratively of course.
"Geez Alice, calm down!" I laugh as I watch her run around the kitchen and living room. "Are you sure you don't have ADHD? I'm not one to diagnose, but you sure are hyper today!" Alice giggles and comes to a screeching halt. I hear the garage door and a car engine.
"Oh!" Alice squeals in delight, "Carlisle is home from work early! Come, let's get you freshened up for your lover boy!" I don't have any time to think of an answer before Alice takes both of my hands and brings me up to her bathroom. "Come, take a quick shower and don't wash your hair, it's fine as I'll just blow dry it quickly to clean it up a bit." Alice pushes me into the shower.
"Alice, do you really think this is necessary? Doesn't your brother have more important things to do than watch movies? I imagine he has tons of paperwork and medical jour-" Alice doesn't give me time to finish speaking my thoughts. I lather myself up and rinse off quickly. She has me out of the shower within five minutes and hands me my pink Victoria's Secret panties, grey cotton pajama short-shorts, a pink Harvard t-shirt, and matching grey slippers to keep my feet warm.
I'm so glad that my mom talked me into getting a full-Brazilian and legs wax a couple days ago, or else I wouldn't feel comfortable at all in this little pajama outfit that Alice has me in right now.
"You look so cute, Donna! Don't worry, Carlisle is used to seeing skin." Alice rubs my right shoulder gently as she looks at our reflections in the mirror.
"But what if Carlisle feels uncomfortable and-" I begin to worry.
"Trust me, Donna. Carlisle won't feel uncomfortable around you wearing this. You are both adults, in your early thirties and very mature." Alice leans in to whisper in my ear, "My big brother has always been old-fashioned, a bit prudish in my opinion. I think you two complement each other very well." her smile beams in the florescent lighting.
"R-really?" I feel a little blush rise in my cheeks in embarrassment.
"I wouldn't lie to you, Sweetie." Alice's face lights up in a knowing smile. I swear, it's like she knows the future. Alice has told me already, in the cafe, that Carlisle has an interest in me. I realized she was right when Carlisle came over the other day to tend to my sprained ankle. Which, thanks to Carlisle's care, has healed and no longer hurts.
As Alice and I come back down the stairs and into the kitchen to check on the food in the oven and stove, my mind wanders back to my previous thoughts. Though it's comforting to hear Alice assure me that Carlisle reciprocates my feelings, Alice's ability to 'know everything' still makes my stomach feel queasy and nervous. I start to look inside one of the lower cabinets for a large bowl, hoping the action of bending down helps ease my queasy stomach. Just then I feel a wave of calmness fill my body and my queasiness lifts away. Strange. I move to stand up right to give attention to the popcorn in the microwave. I hate when I'm off by a few seconds and the popcorn burns. Standing up as I hear the microwave beep, I don't notice someone sneaking up behind me. I feel two large hands brush the exposed skin of my mid torso and his cool breath tickles my neck. I gasp in surprise and lean up against the kitchen countertop for support.
"Are you looking for this?" His long fingers gently tickle my sides and I giggle softly, enjoying this flirty attention. I look over to my right and I see the large bowl I was looking for filled with the popcorn. Once again I gasp softly in surprise. How did he fill the bowl so quickly? I brush that thought away, blaming my scattered attention to letting time slip by. I let my attention return to the gentleman standing behind me, turning around to have my face in direct contact with a lean, yet muscular chest. As I lean my back to the counter, he looks at me with worried eyes, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." His soft English accent calms my startled nerves.
I gaze up, letting my dark blue eyes meet bright gold, my lips turn into a smile at the sight of him. Carlisle. He is tall and lean. At this time, I notice he is in his lounging attire just like me. He's wearing navy blue and grey plaid pajama pants and a fitted Yale sweatshirt over a t-shirt… and barefoot. Usually, I'd find this outfit average in a university setting, as I have been in college for a few years. But on Carlisle, it's refreshing to see. He seems relaxed and younger. His normal work clothes make him look like he is in his late 30s, maybe early 40s. Now, he looks like he is fresh out of med-school, maybe my age, 28 or 29. Heck, I might as well admit it to myself, Carlisle Cullen looks handsome, dare I say sexy right now.
"I um... It's oh- ok C- Carlisle." Geez, what the heck is wrong with me? Why am I suddenly tongue-tied in front of Carlisle? I'm going to be 30-years-old in 2 months and I'm reacting to a man like I'm 13 again! Get your ovaries in check girl! I blush as I take a deep breath and clear my embarrassing thoughts. "It's ok Carlisle. I was so focused looking for that bowl for the popcorn, I didn't hear you walking in the kitchen." I blush again, "Thanks."
"You're welcome, love." Sweet Lord, he winks at me. I suddenly feel moisture in my panties. Lord help me! I feel his right hand fingers brushing my left hip gently. "Do you girls need any help with the food? I could smell something delicious from the garage." Carlisle leans over me slowly, removing his hand from my hip, and turning on the faucet to wash his hands.
"Thanks Carlisle. You've had a long 24-hour shift at the hospital, just relax on the couch while Donna and I finish up." Alice comes over to us, handing Carlisle a plate of the chocolate chip cookies I made. "You can bring the popcorn and this plate in the living room."
"Let me know if I can help you in any way. Ok?" He whispers in my ear, taking the bowl in his hand and I nod. I watch him walk away. I silently wish his hands were on my skin again. I give myself a mental slap on my head for not being a good guest and asking Doctor Cullen how his day at work went. Maybe once we start relaxing and watching a movie, I will feel more at ease and ask him... or maybe I'll be so nervous that I'll be stuffing my face with pizza and cookies, so Carlisle won't want to talk to me? Yeah, I like that plan. Less talking means less awkward moments!
"That was so cute!" the petite pixie brunette whisper/squealed, clapping her hands like a 13-year-old watching her BFF and her crush interact. I sigh audibly and roll my eyes. "Awe, come on Donna," Alice takes my hands in her cold hands. "My big bro has been alone and heartbroken for over a year now after his ex-wife decided to be a whore. He deserves happiness and you deserve happiness. Why not be happy together!" Her golden eyes look pleadingly into mine.
"I don't know Alice," I whine. "I've never been in a relationship before and men like Carlisle don't go looking for women like me unless they want to play with someone's heart, have a good laugh at the expense of a lonely heart. I mean, don't get me wrong, I feel awful that Carlisle was married to such a hurtful woman. But I don't know if I'm ready to… trust a man so quickly." I look sadly at Alice as she takes the pizzas out of the oven and cuts them into slices. She turns around to look at me.
"No Donna, no! Carlisle would never do such a thing to you or any other woman. I know he is so shy and serious when he is in 'doctor mode.' But he is fun and playful, and very romantic. He loves treating his woman extra special. He won't try to move the relationship fast; he is too old-fashioned to do that. Besides, you two look so cute together! Please give him a chance?" she begs and gives me a sad puppy face look. Damn, the sad puppy face works! Ugh!
"Fine, fine, fine! I'll do it." I sigh and give Alice a small smile.
"I promise you won't regret this. By tomorrow evening you will be thanking me." Alice throws her arms around my waist in a hug.
"For Pete's sake, what are you two doin' in here? I'm thinkin' Carlisle is gonna fall asleep on the couch while waitin' for you two!" Jasper yells at us from the love seat in the living room.
Carlisle's POV
"We're coming Jazz. Don't let your panties get into a twist!" I can hear Alice muttering to Jasper. I have my eyes closed for a few minutes to clear my mind while I recline on the couch. I sense Donna following Alice into the living room. I peek one of my eyes open to see Donna set the lasagna down on the coffee table while Alice places the other pizza on the side table next to the love seat. Just when I feel my mind is calm, something heavy jumps up on the couch and pounces into my lap, startling me awake and alert to all of my senses. It was Alice.
I swear she was spawned by a hyper vampire demon of some sort. I hear Donna giggle softly witnessing Alice pounce me. I give Alice a low growl, low enough to be outside of Donna's hearing range.
"Come on Carlisle!" She slaps my face gently. It's times like this that I wish I wasn't the only soft bodied vampire in my coven.
"I'm up, I'm up!" I sigh loudly at Alice before she squeezes my cheeks between the palms of her hands. Donna comes back into the living room with plates and napkins for all of us. She sits down on the air mattress that she and Alice must have put together before I came home. She reclines on her stomach, leaning on a big pillow. A smile lights up her face as our eyes meet.
"No time for sleep yet! Everyone knows that a sleepover requires that we have to watch a movie first!" Alice says with laughter in her voice.
"Ok, Alice," Donna says with a sigh, "What movie should we watch first." Alice skips over to the entertainment center next to the large flat screen television.
"Loosies! We should watch Loosies first!" Alice waves the DVD disk in the air, then places it in the player.
"Oh, no Alice!" Donna sighs knowing fully well that Alice must have found out about Donna working as a Production Assistant on the movie. "Why? Why that movie of all movies?"
"Oh, come on Donna. It will be fun! Plus," Alice jumps on the couch next to Carlisle and gives him a wink. "That guy playing Bobby, looks so much like my handsome big brother! Isn't that right Carl?"
I let out a low growl that only Alice and Jasper can hear. Jasper gives me a knowing glance and laughs as I plead with my, for all intents and purposes, little sister. "Alice," I glance at her. "Please don't call me that name ever again." I really dislike that nickname Alice gave me some years ago. Then again, it was better than the nickname Emmet gave me.
"Alright, Papa C," Jasper whispers the nickname I despise the most under his breath. "We get the hint."
"Let's watch the movie ladies." I say in a soft, yet authoritative voice. I would rather Donna enjoy her time than let her listen to us talk about my nicknames. I give Alice and Jasper knowing glances, to keep them on their best behavior in front of my human mate. They all sit back comfortably as the movie starts.
Donna's POV
After watching Loosies, we all finally decide to watch The Holiday, or more truthfully, Alice decides after arguing with Jasper. Watching them argue was funny for a minute, but the other 10 minutes was getting them nowhere.
I'm laying comfortably on my stomach, on the air mattress. Carlisle is behind me, occupying the couch alone, with his feet propped up on the recliner. Alice and Jasper are sharing the love seat to my right. I take a glimpse every now and then, catching them making out.
By the time the movie is almost over, my arms start to become numb. I turn to look at Carlisle sitting on the couch. We catch each other's eyes for a brief second before focusing back to the movie.
Carlisle looks kind of lonely sitting there on the couch. I wish I had the guts to get up and sit next to him. Heck, who am I fooling? The way his sweatshirt is open at the top to leave the skin on his neck bare. Gosh, I'd love to kiss and suckle on his skin. I wonder what his lips taste like? Are they soft and warm? Why am I thinking about Carlisle? I'm way out of his league. Plus, I'm a virgin, I've never been kissed, and I've never had a boyfriend. So why would Carlisle want to waste any time with me? I'm 30-years-old next month and I know I'll die an old, grey-haired virgin. Ugh!
Suddenly something catches my attention from behind me. Carlisle leans over to the coffee table and takes a cookie I baked.
I finished eating my burger and salad, and lean up to grab a cookie also, hoping they came out good. I wonder if Carlisle enjoyed his burger. I've never purposefully undercooked a burger before, so I was a bit nervous if Carlisle approved of my cooking abilities.
"Carlisle, how was the burger? I was a bit nervous that I cooked it too much. Alice told me about your special diet, so I was just..." I find myself rambling on and on, wanting to stop myself from word vomiting even more.
I glance over at him as he takes a bite of the cookie. He hums in approval with a smile. "Donna, these cookies taste delicious. These might be my favorite. The burger was grilled perfectly just the way I like it. I'm sure Alice and Jasper agree, you can cook for us anytime." Carlisle winks at me.
Darn it! I think I just came in my panties. Why does Carlisle have to be so handsome with everything he does? I say to myself and sigh inwardly, blushing at his complement.
"Thanks," I say softly, noticing his eyes are sparkling. I'm no longer interested in the movie on the tv, just this handsome man reclining on the couch like a GQ model. Suddenly, said handsome man decides to take me out of my thoughts.
Carlisle's POV
"Donna, you don't look very comfortable there on the floor. Come sit next to me." I take one of the large throw blankets on the back of the couch. Donna gives me a look of uncertainty as she sits on the other end of the couch. I shake my head disapprovingly. "I meant next to me, Sweetie." I cover myself with the blanket and keep one side up, motioning for her to share my blanket. My bright golden eyes plead to her, "I promise I won't bite."
Then Jasper chuckles, taking me out of my thoughts, "Nice one there, Carlisle." He says too low for Donna to hear.
I growl low in embarrassment when I realize what I just said, giving myself a mental face-palm. But then I inwardly rejoice when Donna sits next to me and she copies I posture, covering herself with the offered blanket.
I gently slide my right arm over Donna's shoulders and hug her closer to my side. "There we go. Are you warm and comfortable now?" She leans her head against my chest and then look up into my eyes with a hesitant look. She stares into my eyes for a moment before looking away briefly at the tv screen. Then she looks into my eyes again, breaking the silence between the two of us.
"Yeah, I'm warm now. I didn't realize how cold I was before." I realize that she is subconsciously wrapping her right arm around my waist under the blanket. If I didn't know better, I swear the gentle contact makes my dead heart flutter in my chest. "Thanks for allowing me to stay the night." She whispers to me. In response, I let my fingers softly draw lazy patterns on her arm, giving her goose bumps. "I can't remember the last time I went to a sleepover."
"You are more than welcome to come stay with me... with us whenever you wish. I meant it when I said you brighten up my day." My finger moves to her chin to bring her attention to my bright golden eyes. I sense a heat emanating from Donna, and a light heady sent. My vampiric senses alert my brain, and my nostrils flare. Thankfully, my mate does not notice with her attention drifting to the action scene currently on the tv screen.
"I'll keep that in mind from now on. Carlisle... Very few people, in my small circle of friends, can make me not feel so self-conscious of myself." Her attention drifts back to me. She stares into my eyes with amazement and wonder, noticing my golden eyes are sparkling in the dim light. "I don't know the right way to say this without sounding strange, but you make me feel welcomed in your company. I feel butterflies in my stomach whenever you're near me... in a good way." Oh my dear, you have no clue as to how happy I am to hear those words from your beautiful lips. I want to taste your plump lips, kiss you wish such passion that it makes you weak in your knees. I chuckle softly to not gain Jasper and Alice's attention. Though, by now, neither of us realizes Jasper has been using his talent to give us the confidence we both need tonight.
"Donna?" I whisper as my fingers dance on her neck, chin, and below her ear. Donna hums; I take it as a sign to allow me to continue. "I don't want to scare you away, or seem too forward, but I..." I bite my lower lip to make myself seem unsure for a moment, as a human effect. "May I kiss you?" Donna's eyes widen in surprise and she gasps softly. I feel like my heart drops to my stomach. I take a deep breath to compose myself.
"Carlisle... I... um, I... I've. Well, I..." Donna stutters nervously. But then she takes a deep breath. "Carlisle, I think you need to know that I've never kissed a man before. Sure yes, I've kissed my parents. But I've never been kissed romantically... ever. Also, I think you need to know that I've never been in a relationship before, if that is what you are looking for... and well, I..." Donna's blush deepens as she out-right confesses to me of her lack of a romantic past.
"I... I'm a virgin. I want to save myself for my husband. It seems wrong otherwise. At least that is what I was taught in church and Sunday school." I can't help the jovial smile that comes to my lips, despite how embarrassed Donna becomes at her last confession.
"Sweetheart, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable. Look at me, love." I brush my fingers on her cheeks gently as I pull Donna closer. "I'm glad you told me this... about yourself." He smiles to comfort Donna. "It shows me you have a lot of respect for yourself and for your beliefs as a Christian." Donna looks down to her lap. "Donna, I was raised by an Anglican preacher to be a gentleman and a man of God. I would never ever take advantage of you. I hope you know that and trust me." She nods slowly and raises her eyes at me. Honestly, her confession here makes me so happy to know that she will be all mine that no one else has tried to mate with her. It thrills me to know I can show her what eternal love is, what making love is supposed to feel like. I want Donna to feel me fill and stretch her deeply inside. I want her to know she is all mine, just as much as I am all hers.
I stop my feral thoughts as they start to become too aggressive for my gift of composure to handle.
We look at each other silently, unaware that we are alone as Jasper and Alice fleeted at vampire speed upstairs. The only light illuminating the living room is a dim light from the kitchen.
"Carlisle," she breaks the silence. "I... I want to kiss you too. But I wouldn't know what to do, or where to begin. I know I'll just end up embarrassing myself." Donna blushes even more, hiding her face in my strong chest. I smile to myself, feeling warmth and pride fill my chest as I watch my adorable mate use my chest to hide her blushing face from my view. Then two words come to my mind.
Protector. Provider.
Oh, how true that is. I will always protect my mate. I will always provide for her, emotionally, romantically, and financially.
I break the silence once again, "Donna," I caress her right cheek with my knuckles. "My father had always been the provider to my mother and I as a child. He taught me to do the same, love, protect, and provide for my wife, and family." Silence fills the room again, until music begins to play softy in the background. I roll my eyes, knowing this is Jasper and Alice's doing, setting up a romantic atmosphere for Donna and I.
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone,
Or anything
I can hear your thoughts,
I can see your dreams
"I would be honored if you would like me to lead. We can stop if you feel uncomfortable. I promise to be slow and gentle." I silently pray to God in Heaven that Donna will agree.
"I think... I think I'd like that," Donna breathes and looks up into my eyes. She let her right hand slide up my stomach, over my chest, and cups my left cheek, caressing my skin softly with her thumb. If I were human, that touch would have surely made me shiver. "Kiss me Carlisle."
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life,
with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.
I cup Donna's cheek in my right hand, while caressing her hip with my other. I lean in closer as Donna's eyes close, my lips barely touching hers. With both of my hands gently cupping her warm face, my cool breath dances across the skin of her cheek and on her lips. I can sense Donna's nervousness as she licks her lips. Suddenly, like in those old romance films, our lips meet softly once, twice, and then the third time my lips press to Donna's in a sweet, gentle kiss. Donna responds, pursing her lips in a kiss and smiling. I smile back at her, pulling back an inch or two. I breathe deeply. Wow, that felt amazing!
The smell of your skin,
The taste of your kiss,
The way you whisper in the dark.
Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me
Touch every place in my heart
And it feels like the first time
Every time.
I want to spend the whole night
In your eyes
"Relax your jaw a bit and part your lips, Sweetheart." I whisper my instructions gently, not wanting to startle my precious mate, and she easily complies.
Satisfied, I move in again. My lips take Donna's plump bottom lip between them, suckling on her soft flesh, pulling gently.
Within a few seconds Donna does the same, taking my soft upper lip between her own. Unconsciously, a soft moan seeps from Donna's lips.
Oh gosh, this feels so, so amazing! Feels so good! Kissing is so much better than I ever expected. Mmmm... Oh Carlisle!
Donna thinks to herself.
Being a gentleman and a doctor, I realize I need to let Donna breathe, but I don't want to stop kissing, this feels too good to stop now. So I revert back to closed mouth kisses on her lips and start trailing a pattern to her right cheek and down her jaw to her neck, suckling gently on her warm skin.
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life,
with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.
My vampiric senses can smell and hear the warm blood pulsing in her arteries. Donna starts to breathe deeply while my lips cool her burning skin, as I trail kisses from her décolletage back up her neck, suckling that same sensitive spot again. My mind wanders a bit as I suckle on my mate's soft, warm skin. All this kissing will form a love bite on her neck, I am sure of it. I feel honored to be the first to give her a love bite. I smirk to myself, until Donna pulls my thoughts back to her kissing my cool flesh.
Grabbing my nape with her small hands, Donna pulls me closer. I keep my right hand on her neck and in her thick, luscious blonde hair; while my left roamed on her back and right hip, brushing soft patterns on her heated flesh. After a few more minutes on her neck, I move my lips back up to her lips, giving her an open-mouth kiss. Donna surprises me, biting gently on my bottom lip playfully, and giggles.
Oh Heavens, this feels good! So very, very good! There is no doubt in my mind now, that Donna is my true mate. She's willingly giving into me and it feels amazing. Her skin is so soft and smooth, and I can smell... I can smell her arousal. The sweet aroma seeping from... Mmm... Oh my mate, you are a playful tease, aren't you?! Hmmm... If only you knew what I am!
I think as I gently glide my tongue across Donna's lips, begging for entrance. She willingly complies, opening her mouth just a little more. I sense a wave of fearlessness come from Donna, as all her fears die off feeling my tongue brush against her teeth.
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life,
with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do,
Baby I'm amazed by you.
But from upstairs, Jasper is keeping his attention on the flooding emotions between the two mates. Jasper helps Carlisle ease the turmoil and calm his feral hormones and emotions. Compassion. Protection. Love.
Then Jasper focuses on Donna. She is emanating a mixture of love, fear, lust, and compassion for the lonesome vampire sitting besides her.
Donna finds her hands move from Carlisle's chest to roaming through his soft, flaxen hair, gently tugging as she wants... no, needs more contact with this incredible man sitting beside her. What are these emotions that she is feeling from Carlisle? Does he really have feelings for her? Jasper sends Donna a wave of happiness and calm. For the first time, Donna is experiencing something wonderful that she has been yearning for over a decade.
Carlisle's POV (continued)
My lips and tongue begging for more, Donna feels a little more courage. She pulls her mouth and body closer to me, and opens her mouth a little bit more as I feel her warmth. With her eyes still closed, Donna feels my tongue finally touch hers and a blissful feeling sparks inside both of us. She moans quietly, caressing my cheeks. She can feel me smile and giggle softly in reaction.
I hesitate and pull away gently from Donna's lips, giving her soft, reassuring kisses before speaking.
"Sweetheart," I kiss her nose, "I think we need a break to breathe." I watch as Donna does not make eye contact. She is being shy, burying her face in the crook of my neck, taking deep breaths while holding the front of my shirt with her small hands. How did I get so lucky to find this woman as my mate? I giggle softly, "My darling, please do not be shy with our first kiss. I did not mean to frighten you with my forward behavior."
I am surprised to see Donna pull her face out from my chest, but she stays close, clinging to my body. Our eyes connect as I continue, "Are you ok, Sweetheart?" I ask with a smile as I study her eyes.
"Yeah, I'm fine, Carlisle," she takes a deep breath and returns my smile. "That was not what I imagined my first kiss to be like." I worry for a moment, looking at Donna's deep blue eyes. "It was better," she leaned in and kisses my right cheek. "Much better than I ever imagined, thank you." If I could blush, I would be blushing at this moment.
"If it's not too bold to say, I do not regret kissing you just now." My knuckles brush gently on the soft skin of her right cheek, as Donna leans into my touch with her eyes closed. "It was a lovely experience." Without feeling the need to ask, I slowly move my lips forward, closing the small space between us. Just like our first kiss, I am slow and gentle with Donna again. I pull away slowly, still holding Donna in my arms around her waist, seeking for her approval. She seems a little hesitant. I don't mind though. I have forever with my mate... well, that is if she wants to be one of my kind. I realize I have not told her yet.
"Th... This? What is this, Carlisle? Are you sure you want to start a relationship with me? I've never done this before." Donna says with a shaky voice and tears well up in her eyes.
"Yes, Sweetie. I want a relationship with you. I'm willing to take this as slow as we need to, to make this work." I find myself taking deep breaths of air to calm my nerves.
"I'm scared."
"I'm scared too, my love. But doesn't that make love all the more interesting and exciting?" I smile, noticing the sparkle in her deep blue eyes as she smiles back at me shyly.
"You're right Carlisle," Donna lets out a deep breath. "Can we take this slow?" Donna asks in a whisper and smiles, looking into my eyes. That is all the reassurance that I need, and I hum in approval before taking her back into my arms, kissing her lips gently.
Donna's arms wrap around my neck, pulling herself closer into my embrace. She hums in approval as her lips gently tug at my bottom lip. I don't really notice this, but Jasper sends Donna a wave of courage. Donna slowly lifts herself up on her knees, while kissing me and slowly maneuvers herself to straddle my lap. This move really surprises me, in a good way of course. Having Donna this close to me with my superior sense of smell, I feel weak at the sweet sent of my mate.
"Mmm... You smell so sweet and taste so good, Donna." I hum into her hair by her ear. "So close to me. It feels wonderful."
Donna just feels so good sitting in my lap, our arms wrapped around each other. Feeling my lips and tongue lick, nip, and suck at the delicate skin on her neck.
"Oh Carlisle! Mmm..." Donna gasps. "Ohhh... F-f-feels so good." Shuddering, a moan escapes her lips. Donna gently kisses my shoulder as she sighs. I hope she isn't cold from my lack of body heat.
I brush my hands over her sides, as I take the blanket and wrap it around her shoulders and back, forming a cocoon of warmth for both of us. I pull away gently from Donna's lips. We both stare into each other's eyes as we giggle softly.
"Wow," Donna breathes. "That was amazing. I can't remember the last time I ever felt something as wonderful as this." She snuggles and leans her head on my chest, wrapping her arms around my back. We are both quiet for a few minutes. I draw lazy patterns on Donna's back with my fingers as we listen to the soft music in the background. Finally, I decide to break the silence.
"Donna," I ask softy, finding my British dialect ease it's way in, but not harshly, "What do you like to do during you free time?"
"Well," Donna is silent for a moment while thinking of an answer. She takes a deep breath. "When I do have free time, which is hardly ever, I like to watch movies. During the winter months, when I have time, I look forward to reading a classic novel of some sort. I like reading The Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit. In school, I enjoyed some of Shakespeare's work. His sonnets are inspiring. I like Nicholas Sparks' romance novels. But I was never fond of Jane Austin. In high school, her wording confused me. My vocabulary was not exactly something I would be proud of back then." I give a snort and smile, bemused about Donna's confession.
"That is completely understandable given the circumstances." I speak gently; understanding how today's young generation is less educated in Literature than previous generations. I am thrilled though, that Donna has such a wide range of interests. My mate is a wonderful addition to the Cullen coven. "That is wonderful that you carry a wide range of interests."
"You really think so?" Donna asks while tilting her head back to look up into my golden eyes. I'm the lit candles in the room are creating a glowing effect on her eyes and skin. I'm sure it's doing the same to me also. "You don't think it's strange? You seem very old fashioned, Carlisle. Despite how young you are, you seem like the type of man who would rather read classic novels and medical journals, than watch a movie. I hope you don't mind me pointing that out." Donna smiles and blushes. I bet she is wondering if she said too much and that she offends me. If only she knew. I laugh with a big smile, my dimples show in my cheeks.
"No, not in the least bit, Sweetheart. Not in the least bit. Actually, you know me quite well. I am a bit of an old fashioned person. I like to read the classics when I'm not busy at the hospital or reading the latest medical journals in my study upstairs. I like listening to classical music. I know it must be strange to you. How old do you think I am?" I smile.
Donna smiles and caresses my cheeks with her warm hands. I could stay like this forever, feeling Donna's hands caressing my skin like this. It feels so good; I cannot help but smile.
"I like that you are old fashioned," Donna pauses and blushes, glancing down to her lap and back to my eyes again, "and that you're kind and gentle with your hands. I don't think you're weird for preferring classical music and literature. I actually find it kind of sexy." Donna winks playfully.
I look into her eyes. Just hearing my mate referring to me as 'sexy', makes me become quiet and still. My vampire brain immediately wants to change the subject before something goes wrong. "Would you like to come see my study? I have a whole library of books you may be interested in reading any time you would like."
"That would be nice," Donna gazes from my eyes, down to my collarbone and chest. I can tell from her eyes that she is thinking about something. Perhaps she is realizing how cool my body temperature is? My superior self-control allows me to reign in a primal growl. It is far too soon for Donna to be hearing or witnessing my basic instincts.
Just enjoy the closeness that she has with Carlisle for now and their blossoming relationship. "Maybe tomorrow morning you can show me your study." Donna smiles as she gazes into my eyes again. She seems to have a renewed sense of confidence. Perhaps it is thanks to Jasper from upstairs. "I like this quiet time, just you and I," Donna leans in, innocently kissing lips.
"I like this too, Sweetie," I whisper with out giving my answer much thought. I seem to be doing that a lot lately with my mate around. Perhaps I'm recovering from the divorce better than I thought. This angst reminds me too much of Edward. I am not Edward. I let my breath caress Donna's lips before I return her kiss with more enthusiasm than ever before, ridding my thoughts of angst.
Carlisle's lips and tongue form good feelings to enter Donna's body. His more sexual nature is riding a high as he keeps it steady in the background. Self-control is paramount. The pressure of his lips on her pulse point makes her feel lightheaded, as she leans into his comforting chest. She moans softly, kissing at the juncture of his collar bone and neck. Her arms wrap tighter around Carlisle's neck as the fingers of her right hand play with his hair. Donna can't seem to keep her eyes open any longer as she feels herself becoming sleepy from the ardent passion between her and her new lover. Her first love, and God willing, she hoped would be her only love.
Carlisle. Intense. Passion. Enchanted. Desire. Yearn. Contentment. Devoted.
Donna's thoughts stay on Carlisle and his ministrations as she fades into blissful sleep in his cool, inviting arms.
Carlisle's POV (continued)
I feel Donna's heartbeat and breathing slow down. Without looking, I know my angel is asleep in my arms, against my chest. Turning off the tv, I whisper "Thank you," to Jasper, knowing the two vampires can hear me from upstairs. I feel my sleeping angel stir slightly against me, readjusting her legs to wrap around my waist. The fact she has underwear on does very little to help my vampiric nature. It takes all of my learned self-control not to react to the smell of my mate's arousal snuggled against my lower abdomen, as she stirs again.
"Shh... It's okay, sleep now my angel." I whisper as I place a feather-light kiss on her cheek, brushing her hair with my delicate fingers. Settling myself on the couch, I close my eyes, and find myself in a dreamless sleep.
A/N: So... what did you guys and girls think? Mmmm... Carlisle is one smexy man! Possessive of his mate isn't he?! Growl! Do I have Carlisle heading in the right direction, becoming his original Carlisle and not so OOC? I think so! Donna will figure out that the Cullens are vampires. I have my plan and it's not the normal "girl almost gets killed by a truck and black ice" kind of thing. No, this will be different :)
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