AN- Twilight and the characters are owned by Stephanie Meyer, I don't own anything

My name is Bella Denali nee Swan. I am nineteen years old and will always be nineteen because I am a vampire. Well nearly a vampire would be more accurate, as my heart is still beating. Only a beat a minute but that's still beating in my book. Carlisle my adoptive father says that it will stop very soon. I will by all human definitions be dead and technically a vampire, although I will always be different. This I will cover later, as it is part of the whole process I am going through. I am happy to be a vampire. Ever since I worked out what the Cullen's were I have wanted to be one. There was a brief period after my eighteenth birthday that I didn't think this would happen or if I really wanted it. My boyfriend had left me with his family and I wanted to die but fate stepped in and here I am on the verge of becoming what I was born to be.

Carlisle has asked me to record my memories of the change. How I felt, my experiences with a changing body and basically how I have coped. You see I am different to all other vampires. A normal change takes approximately three days and is extremely painful. You feel like the flames of hell are running through you veins. Mine has taken nearly two years and I have experienced no pain at all. Well nothing but the headaches which, if I hadn't briefly already experienced the burning, would have most humans thinking it was hell on earth. Those were more to do with my powers and if I hadn't had it then I would not have experienced any pain at all. I think they were the first time I thought something was really wrong with me but at the time I had no idea what it was. Still Carlisle is bemused at the lack of pain. In fact the only sign of the burning I have shown is a raised temperature. This was about the same as one of the shifters on the reservation. More about them later on as they play a part in my story. Now I am about the same temp as any vampire. Don't get me wrong the absence of pain hasn't made this easy. The raised temperature and several other things have been rather uncomfortable and in some cases confusing. This is the reason I am writing this down, recording it for posterity so to speak. Its good therapy apparently.

Now if I think about it the first thing that was different was my broken leg. I had received the broken leg from a vampire called James, he also bit me at the time and that is the reason behind my change. He had come across me while I was with the Cullen's. They were playing baseball in the middle of a storm (they are vampires with super speed, strength and senses; they need the storm to cover the noise). Three nomads had heard them playing and come to investigate. One of these nomads was James, the others were Laurent and Victoria his mate. After a brief confrontation between them and the Cullen's they had left. Unfortunately James was a tracker and I had become a challenge because of the protection from the Cullen's I fled Forks with Alice and Jasper to Phoenix while the others lead the false trail. Apparently it had worked for a while, Laurent managed to get himself killed by going into claimed territory, but James and Victoria sussed the ruse. James with the help of Victoria had tracked us to Phoenix and lured me alone to my old dance studio by threatening the life of my mother. He had broken my leg by the time my boyfriend Edward caught up with us. During the fight he managed to bite me. After Edward and the rest of Cullen's defeated him, Edward proceeded to suck out the Venom.

The thing that no one knew at the time is that once bitten the change is inevitable. It takes just a drop in the blood stream and you will turn. As most vampire's see humans as food and drain them breaking the preys neck in the process, none of the Cullen's or any other vampire would know sucking the venom out will not work A vampire sucking out the venom and not killing the human, has never happened before as far as Carlisle has heard. For Edward to manage this is a testament to his control and remaining humanity, after all my blood is so attractive to him. I could almost forgive him for his actions for that if I didn't know that there was an ulterior motive for his actions. Plus I suspect the rest of the Cullen's pulled him away, I have never asked, I have no pressing need to find out.

Unfortunately though, it is not possible to suck all the venom out without killing the human, so catch 22, if you want the human to stay human. If you think about it the heart is still pumping and the blood is moving around the body so the venom spreads quickly. A blood transfusion could possibly work but how many people have the blood and equipment hanging around for that. Carlisle has theorised that the venom acts like a virus and once in the bloodstream it enters a cell and changes the DNA. Then it starts to reproduce itself. He believes that there could only have been a couple of changed cells left in my body, hence the length of my change. When a vampire bites you the exchange of blood and venom is constant until the human is drained. There will still be a little venom in the body which is why a vampire hides or burns the remains. So people who go missing randomly, good chance that they were some vampire's dinner.

Now because there was only a miniscule amount of venom in my bloodstream it had to replicate and spread. You would think that the venom would do this quickly. Interesting little fact that has intrigued Carlisle is that the immune system fights the venom as if it was a virus slowing it down, eventually though it overwhelms the immune system shutting it down. The discussion between him and Eleazar about whether it was possible to create an anti-virus is still going on. Without experimenting with it though we will probably never know. As the Cullen's and the Denali's would never change someone unless they were dying or their mate, we will probably never know. We are keeping this information closely guarded though because there are others who would not as scrupulous and apparently the slow nature of the change has some side benefits. Well that is Carlisle's theory but he has also said it could be something different as I was never a normal human according to him.

My leg however, healed extremely quickly. I have had broken bones before and have good idea how long they take to heal. When you are as clumsy as I am you learn this information very quickly at a young age. The first difference I noticed was that the pain disappeared very quickly. You know that dull ache you get from broken bone or the pain when you inadvertently put weight on it before it has knitted back together properly. Well it was gone within two days. At the time I didn't think much of it. Within a week I was walking normally, well as normally as you can with a cast covering the bottom half of your leg. I mentioned it to Carlisle at that time, but he just theorised that the venom had probably been in my body long enough to start the healing process. He had in the past noticed with Esme, Rosalie and Emmet that the first thing that venom does is heal any injuries. It makes sense if you think about it the body naturally increases the blood flow to an area if it is injured.

So except for that brief question about the time it took to heal my leg I had, no clue about what was going on, nor did the Cullen's. If there had been any indicators then certain events may have occurred differently. I noticed differences in myself and others noticed things which left to some interesting miss understandings. In general we were ignorant of the effects that, that one incident with James had on me.

AN: So what do you think. This is the first time I have written I a while. I have had several story ideas running around in my head. There's another like this about Bella's so change into a Vamp or something supernatural. I liked this one because it gets me back writing and it is pretty much laid out for a few chapters in my head. Let me know if I should continue. Not sure on the romantic relationship. I prefer Bella and Alice but would consider Tanya and Kate. Not Rosalie though because I don't have the heart to break her and Emmett up in this.