Based loosely on Dream Story and Eyes Wide Shut, no copyright infringement intended and the characters belong to BBC.

STARTLING CLARITY

Chapter-2

When they were back home last night Gwaine had kept his promise in the car and Arthur's arse was sore from the pounding he'd gotten as he woke up alone in his bed.

He still had no idea if Gwaine had gone ahead and cheated on him or why he'd let Gwaine fuck him last night. By all means he should have demanded Gwaine to explain himself but it had been more than two weeks since they'd had sex and Arthur was lost after Gwaine's demanding kisses and wandering hands.

Atleast he still seemed to be interested in having sex with him. Arthur felt sluggish and tired from the late night he'd had and he checked the bedside alarm clock to find it was eight in the morning. Merlin would be getting up soon and Arthur pulled himself out of bed and went into the shower.

When he was dressed and ready he wandered into Merlin's room to find his tyke still fast asleep with his little dark haired head peaking out from under the covers.

Merlin was a rare and magical miracle. That was why Arthur named him so at Morgana's suggestion, he'd been conceived out of the blue and Arthur had been shit scared when he'd found out that it wasn't a joke and that he being a he was really carrying a baby.

Still he could never imagine a life without Merlin in it anymore. Merlin had inherited Gwaine's dark hair and Arthur's blue eyes, and even for a child he looked beautiful. Arthur just hoped he would not inherit Gwaine's flighty behavior.

And that soured his mood considerably and he left Merlin sleeping and descended the stairs to prepare breakfast.

Gwaine was nowhere to be seen and Arthur was halfway through making pancakes when Merlin sleepily came down to the kitchen.

"Morning daddy"

"Good morning tyke, are you hungry?"

Merlin nodded his head, a few unruly dark strands escaping and hiding his eyes.

Arthur placed a glass of warm milk in front of Merlin who sipped leisurely, seemingly content. He still had not asked for Gwaine like he did everyday and Arthur was clenching his jaw wondering what excuse he'd give this time for his absence.

When Arthur was finished with the pancakes he placed them in front of Merlin.

Merlin looked at him expectantly.

"What?" asked Arthur and his tone had been harsh for Merlin seemed taken aback and murmured 'Nothing' before poking at the pancakes with his fork.

Arthur sighed "I'm sorry baby, tell me, what is it?"

Merlin shook his head looking mournful still and Arthur went around the table and scooped him into his arms making him sit in between his legs.

He spoon fed the pancake which seemed to bring Merlin out of his dark mood and when he was done he quietly asked "Will pa be home today?"

Arthur squeezed him tight to his chest and replied "Probably yes…"

Merlin had turned in his arms now and was looking at Arthur in that innocent way that only children were able to, Merlin's disappointment was palpable and Arthur swore to confront Gwaine if not for himself then atleast for Merlin.

Gwaine was back home only in the evening that day and Arthur had ended up promising Merlin that they'd go to Uther's tomorrow instead of the shopping.

Arthur was waiting on the sofa when Gwaine arrived, looking haggard as he always did these days. And Arthur though he was a workaholic but it was nothing compared to Gwaine.

Gwaine sighed when Arthur's pointed glare didn't drop from his face and placated "Alright, I promise to be home all day on Christmas, okay?"

"Make that promise to your son yourself" snapped Arthur before he headed up the stairs and out of sight not wanting to fight with Gwaine, atleast not until Merlin was asleep.

That night Gwaine dutifully sat with them when Arthur read Merlin a story lulling him to sleep.

When Arthur was sure Merlin was asleep he went back to the kitchen for a couple of drinks. Gwaine was sitting in the kitchen as well nursing a drink himself.

"That lad is growing way too fast" commented Gwaine as he finished his drink and headed up the stairs leaving Arthur some time to think on what he should say.

Having reached a point where he knew liquid courage couldn't fail him Arthur got into the master bedroom where Gwaine was already in dressed in nothing but black boxers.

Arthur felt a pleasant shiver in his spine just looking at him and berated himself for being so easy. He went into the bathroom first to delay this as much as possible.

Arthur knew Gwaine hated a confrontation, would do anything to escape one so he had to be careful but he wasn't sure whether he could keep a calm head about the situation when all he wanted to do was rage and throw things in anger.

When he went out of the bathroom equally naked except for his briefs Gwaine smirked at him and gave him a lewd once over.

When he was closer Gwaine pulled him into himself and then pushed him into the bed as he ran his hands up and down Arthur's naked chest and shoulders.

"I've missed you" Gwaine whispered and Arthur had to fight off the feelings welling up in him urging him to just give up and take what Gwaine offered.

"Really?"

Gwaine hummed and started to kiss his neck, small pecks that drove Arthur's mind to distraction.

Arthur relented for a while before he managed to evade Gwaine's limbs and mouth moving a little away from him on the bed which made Gwaine give an audible groan.

"Tell me something' Arthur said deceptively calm so as to not spook Gwaine, 'those two girls at the party last night…did you..'Arthur paused looking up at Gwaine, 'by heresay happen to fuck them?"

Gwaine's eyebrows shot up in outrage before he let out an awkward high pitched laugh, "What? What are you talking about?"

"I am talking about those two girls that you were so openly hitting on last night."

Gwaine was all denial, "I wasn't hitting on anybody."

Arthur hummed, did Gwaine really think he was that much of a fool.

"Who were they?" asked Arthur, "and don't tell me you don't know, you spent the better part of the night with them than me."

Gwaine ran his hands through his hair in frustration, "They were just a couple of social workers."

Arthur got up now and sat as he queried "Where did you disappear to with them for so long?"

"I didn't disappear with anybody Arthur," Gwaine came closer to him again and pulled Arthur against his back placing him between the v of his legs as he started kissing Arthur's neck again.

"Then why did I see you coming downstairs?"

Gwaine brought his fingers to Arthur's chest and squeezed Arthur's pink nipples, "Grayson wanted to discuss some business proposals with me and I got called up, that's all."

"And anyway, who was the old codger you were dancing with?"

Gwaine was smiling as he asked it and Arthur chuckled half in amusement at how Gwaine was obviously trying to shift the attention from himself because Arthur knew Gwaine didn't give a shit about who Arthur had danced with last night, and half in mad desperation wanting to see, wanting to know how Gwaine would react if he told him that the old codger just wanted to take Arthur upstairs and fuck him.

He laughed lightly before saying "A friend of the Grayson's" in a naughty tone.

Gwaine hummed, "What did he want?"

Arthur snorted and turned to look at Gwaine with incredulousness, "What did he want? What did you think he wanted? Sex…." Arthur turned back front again when all this made Gwaine chuckle even more, "Upstairs, wanted to fuck me right then and there."

"That's it?"

"Just about"

"Just wanted to have sex with my husband?"

"Mhmm"

"He was quite disappointed when I told him I was married."

"Well that's certainly understandable…"

Arthur who'd been waylaid by Gwaine's seduction right up to this point frowned, "Understandable?" he questioned, his tone full of confusion. How could Gwaine possibly just understand.

But it seemed Gwaine wasn't as phased as Arthur was by his statement as he grabbed Arthur's arse in one hand and tweaked his nipples with the other as he hummed, "Yes Arthur...you're after all a very….very beautiful man."

Gwaine's husky voice which usually did wonders to Arthur's libido now made him feel like ice cold water had been dumped on him.

"Woow…wow…Gwaine…" Arthur batted Gwaine's hands off which were trying to cling to him and got up from the bed. He leaned on the closet door for support before he asked "So you're saying that because I'm a beautiful man any other man whose gay would only ever want to talk to me because he'd want to fuck me, is that what you're saying?"

Gwaine frowned, "No Arthur, not so cut and right but I think we both know how men…think."

"So based on that I must understand that you wanted to fuck those two social workers?"

Gwaine rolled his eyes and as Arthur looked expectant, not ready to give this up without a straight answer from Gwaine. "There are exceptions to everything Arthur…"

Arthur fixed Gwaine with a cutting glare, "And what makes you an exception?"

Gwaine widened his eyes and spread his hands in an all encompassing gesture, "Because I'm married to you, and I'd never hurt you like that."

Arthur paced slowly towards the dressing table, "Do you realize what you're saying Gwaine?"

Gwaine looked uncertain and a little annoyed, "What?"

"You're saying that the only reason you wouldn't fuck those two girls is out of consideration for me, not because you don't really want to."

"God Arthur, are we going to be running in circles for the entire night."

"I'm not the one who's running in circles, why can't you just give me a straight damn answer for once?" Arthur raised his voice for the first time that night.

"I thought that was what I was trying to do here! I can't help it that you're such a jealous princess!"

Arthur glared hard at Gwaine willing him to take it back but when Gwaine looked smug and satisfied something ugly settled in Arthur's chest making him want to spout vitriol at Gwaine, he wanted to hurt Gwaine just as much.

"And you're never jealous of me are you? Because you're not the jealous type"

"No"

"You've never been jealous of me in the entire time we've been in a relationship, have you?"

"No"

"And why have you never been jealous of me?" shouted Arthur not caring now if he screamed and woke up Merlin.

Gwaine pulled at his hair in frustration, "You're actually angry that I'm not jealous of you?"

"Answer the question Gwaine!"

"Fine damn it! Fine, if that will shut you up! I trust you implicitly alright, you're the father of my child, you're my husband and I know that you will never be unfaithful to me."

Arthur gritted his teeth as he turned on Gwaine, "You are very very sure of yourself, aren't you?"

Gwaine paused before he shook his head and said "No Arthur, I'm sure of you."

Arthur started laughing hard making Gwaine look at him like he'd gone crazy. He kneeled on the ground and clutched his sides as he laughed and Gwaine got mad.

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

Arthur fell silent after a while contemplating whether or not he should tell Gwaine about something that he'd kept secret so far.

Arthur looked at Gwaine, looking vaguely annoyed and already inching to get away from this conversation and act like everything between them was fine. Well it was not fine, it hadn't been for a long time and for once Arthur wanted to see what it would be like to tilt Gwaine's world from its axis.

For once he wanted Gwaine to feel unsure and insecure.

Decision made he sat against the wall and faced Gwaine, "Do you remember last summer in Paris?"

Gwaine nodded and Arthur continued "Do you also remember that we were invited to a party and there was an army personnel sitting opposite to us in between two other officers?"

"No" said Gwaine although he remembered quite well. The army personnel Arthur was speaking of was Officer Lancelot Du Lac and he'd seen the way Arthur looked at him.

"He went out when the waiter delivered our food to take a phone call…"

Gwaine refrained from clenching his jaw that Arthur remembered so much of what happened still didn't sit well with him but he couldn't let Arthur know he knew. He wanted to hear what Arthur had to say.

Arthur waved his hands away, "Well, I saw him earlier that day, he was checking into the hotel and as he walked past me he looked at me."

Arthur was speaking very slowly now, but everything rang in Gwaine's ears as he listened wanting to stop and go out or escape this situation entirely. He had a feeling there was more to this and he wouldn't like what he had to hear but a sick fascination made him stay rooted to where he was.

"Just a glance, nothing more. But I was struck by him…I couldn't even move."

Arthur noticed Gwaine's tightly puckered lips and narrowed eyes, the only indication that this was news to him and it was obviously finally making a chink in his armor. Sadly, all Arthur could feel at the moment was a strange sense of elation.

"And I remember thinking that if he had wanted me…" Arthur tilted his head, "even if it was only for…one…night, I was ready to give up everything we'd built together."

"You…Merlin…my whole bloody future." Arthur turned away his expression that of pent up anger and frustration.

"I barely slept that night…and when I woke in the morning all I could think about was him. I didn't know if I was afraid that he had left….or that he might still be there…."

"But by that afternoon I found out he was gone."

"And I was relieved."

Gwaine stared at him comprehension dawning on him with a sudden clarity that he could no longer ignore. He felt something tight in his chest making him feel dizzy as Arthur stared back pensively at him.

The phone rang jarring the building tension in the room and Gwaine picked it up glad for the excuse to get out of there as soon as possible, he needed to think preferably where Arthur was not around.

"There's been an accident in the office, I need to go" said Gwaine before he quickly dressed and left the room leaving Arthur where he was sat on the floor.

When Gwaine was long gone, Arthur allowed the tears to fall putting his head in his hands as sobs shook his body and made him whimper. What had he done?

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