Wow, so it's been a very very long time since I posted anything on here, or wrote anything for that matter.

But I'm back! And hopefully this will just be the start of many more updates to come on my stories :)

Enjoy this short Drabble.

Prompt: Irony is a funny thing.

It's ironic how when Sam told her he loved her, while she was holding a bomb, almost convinced she was gonna die, she was pissed that it took a near death experience for him to man up and take the plunge. But, irony is a funny thing, because it took him getting shot in the stomach for her to realise that she couldn't imagine living without him.

Well, actually, she already knew that, knew it right from the start. Knew it when she chose her career over him. (in actual fact, she spent most of her time in temogamei not camping and getting a tan, but convincing herself that these stupid feelings she got every time she thought of him were just her missing having her partner around. That was justified considering they had never spent this long apart from each other. Yeah - she knew way the fuck back then that she was in way over her head, and there was no way of getting out)

She thought that by him telling her he loved her when she was having a staring match with death, that he was being a coward. Turns out maybe she should have cut him some slack, cause now she gets it. Gets the impulse to want to pour your heart out, as if it might be the last time you ever see them. Truth be told, it makes her feel like a jerk, especially when one of the reasons she didn't meet Sam at the penny was because he was too stubborn to say how he felt, until there was an immediate threat of her not making it out alive (that was on her pros and cons list, actually. One she made the second night into her uc op, when she wanted to make sure she made the right decision. And yes, she is serious, because Andy McNally is a planner, and the last time she aborted her plans and went with her heart instead of her head, she ended up with a shattered heart, a million pieces of broken soul. "He told me he loved me while I was holding a bomb" was also on the pros side, because come on people! She was the first girl he ever said that to, and that had to count for something, right? She realised something that second night, when the pros on her list far outweighed the cons. She made the wrong decision, and for that she'll probably never forgive herself)

She understands now why he did it. because she's done the exact same to him, bared her soul to him while he stared death in the face. And they're both idiots, she gets that. Too stubborn to say how they truly feel. If they both just got over themselves and actually talked about it, about them, like proper adults, then maybe, just maybe, they might've had a chance. Instead, instead they danced around each other, all this "how are you McNally?" and "she's not you".

When she was holding that bomb, she wanted nothing more than to feel Sam's arms around her, because she knew that whenever he was there for her like that, nothing and no one could hurt her. So she figures that maybe, while he's laying in the ambulance barely conscious, maybe he wants to hear her talk. (it was something she figured out he liked pretty quick. She remembers way back when, when things were good between them, it was one of his major turn on's. That and black lace. Whenever she wanted to watch him lose it, watch him go over the edge and just let go, she would talk to him the whole time. Random shit that didn't make a lot of sense, but it always worked. And when they would lay together afterwards, he would make some stupid comment about how he always knew her voice was her best asset. which of course got her some pointed stares during work, when they were riding together and he needed her to talk someone down "remember your voice is your best asset McNally"

Thanks so much for taking the time to read my writing.

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