Tried to post this hours ago but somehow it wouldn't let me.

Once Jane made it inside her car she leaned her head against the steering wheel and stared at the message she sent to Amanda, 'Im sorry I can't do this with you.' She quickly closed to the home screen then hit speed dial 2.

"Hello?"

"Hey Ma."

"Janie, what's wrong, you never call voluntarily?!"

Laughing cautiously "Nothing's wrong Ma, can I come over and talk to you?"

"Sure sweetie. I'll make some coffee. What's this about?" Angela got out of bed and walked into the living room to look out the window so she could see her daughter's car. Parked in the main houses driveway she saw Jane running her hands through her hair tirelessly.

"Maura. I'm in love with her. But tonight I kissed her and ran, I feel like a coward."

Stunned, she took a few deep breaths. "Ok. Well, then why are you hiding in the car?"

"How'd you know I was in the car?"

"Last time you called me about you're love life you were 22, you said you just had to be with that big headed boy, Marco. You were so in love you almost cut all your hair off because he'd asked you too."

Jane sniffled lightly in the phone. "Hahaha yeah I probably would have too. But I did a real shitty thing and I don't know if Maura will forgive me." Her voice cracked at the end and it didn't go unnoticed by Angela.

"What did you do, Janie?"

"I told her I was still going to go on a date with another woman, but I really wasn't. She probably hates me right now."

"That has to be the stupidest thing you could have ever done. Why would you go telling her something like that!?" Angela chastised through the phone. The light in the kitchen making her squint.

"Don't you think I know that, Ma, I know. And I'm gonna go back in there and apologize but I'm scared as shit. I don't wanna mess this up any more than I already have."

"Well get your ass back in there and don't even think about leaving until you've apologized at least a thousand times. I don't care if you have to rub holes in you slacks from begging so much, but you better fix this Jane. Maura's the daughter I always wanted and even though I don't completely understand this new relationship thing between you two, me and all of Boston knows how important she is to you." Jane's ma moved from the kitchen back to her bedroom in the guest house. "I'm going back to bed Janie, I know you'll figure this out."

"Thanks ma, I love you."

"I love you too and so does Maura." After they exchanged goodnights, they hung up and Jane quickly exited the car. Before she reached the door her phone began to ring.

"Rizzoli?" She said making her way back to Maura's door.

"If you think you can go on a date with someone else and then come back to me, you should leave the key to my house on the front step now. Along with our friendship." The detective didn't have time to respond before the line went dead.

Maura stood in the middle of the living room anger flowing through her. Who does she think she is? She thought as she began to pace back and forth. Who runs out on someone they say they love!? Jane Rizzoli you are a-

Her train of thoughts were cut short by a loud knocking on her door. It slightly startled her being as she just got off the phone with Jane just a few seconds ago. Peering through the hole to see who was there she opened her door to one red eyed detective.

"You're here to return my key?" The medical examiner asked.

"No, I'm not." Jane wrung her hangs together and shifted her weight from foot to foot. "Can I come in?"

"No." Jane looked up then, never had Maura told her she couldn't come in except the one time she had been furious with Jane for shooting her biological father.

"Ok. I don't know where to begin but I'm the most sorriest person in the world. I lied about going to see Amanda for our date. I didn't think about how I'd make you feel, I was selfish and I let my nerves get to me. Running away from you was the biggest mistake I've ever made besides not kissing you sooner. This doesn't make things better but I told Amanda I couldn't do this with her. I knew she and I wouldn't work the second we kissed but I still told myself that if me and you got together and I did something stupid and screwed everything else up that I'd never forgive myself. You're the last person in the galaxy that I'd want to hurt, intentionally or not." The brunette inhaled deeply and kept going with Maura listening intently.

"Before you called I talked to my ma. I told her that I was in love with you and I didn't know what to do so I told you I was still going on my date just so I could have an excuse to leave. And she agreed that that was a cowards move. I'm stubborn, picky, hardheaded and I was in denial with myself when it came to you. I was so scared of hurting you. I tried to do everything not to but I hurt you anyways." By now she had started to sob again and wipe at her blurry eyes. "I'm so sorry Maura. I don't know if you believe anything I'm saying but I promise I'm telling the truth. The day in the morgue two months ago when I ran out, it was because that was the first moment I thought of you as more that just a friend and I panicked. It might be hard to believe but I know I've been in love with you for a while. The moment you ran to me after Dennis Rockmond let you go. My heart almost burst that moment. My life would have ended if I had lost you. I didn't know it then but I know now Maur, and I want you in my life more that just my best friend; I want to be your lover. I made a promise to my ma that I wouldn't leave until I put holes in the knee part of my pants from begging. So..." Jane got down on her knees and shuffled back and forth on the concrete.

"Maura I'm sorry, please forgive me!" She shouted. "Maura I'm sorry, please forgive me! Maura I'm sorry, please forgive me! Maura I'm sorry, please forgive me!" Next door Angela could hear her daughter apologizing profusely. "Maura I'm sorry, please forgive me!"

"I believe you Jane. Everything you said, I believe you"

"You do!?" The detective asked incredulously springing to her feet. "So do you forgive me?"

"I do but you still have hurt me Jane and it'll take more than a fifteen minute speech to gain my trust again."

"Ok that's fair. Can I give you a hug please." Jane inquired.

"Yes." Reluctantly pulling back from one another Maura looked down at Jane's pants. "You scuffed your knees a little."

"It's ok, it was worth it."

"That's the point Jane. A little. I don't see any holes in those knees and you promised your mother there'd be holes." She said, her tone as serious as Jane had ever heard it.

"What do you mean?"

"You can come in the house when I see those holes."

"You want me to finish?"

"Yes." Maura pointed to the ground and Jane complied getting to her knees and once again shuffling back and forth. The doctor reached for the handle on the door. "When you have finished with that, you can use your key to get into the house, I'll leave the light on in the guest room for you." And with that she closed the door and left Jane with her task.