Hey, guys. I am back with a new story and my very own laptop! Meaning I can update whenever I want.

This is an ALL HUMAN story which contains self harm, suicidal thoughts and attempts and physical and sexual abuse. If this isn't your kind of story, then I am not forcing you to read it.

Disclaimer: I don't own the twilight characters. All I own is the plot.

The first chapter is very short because I want to see if you guys like it. I promise you that future chapters will be longer. I will aim for at least 1000 words per chapter other than this one. Anyway, sit back, read and enjoy.

Jaspers POV

I stand in the middle of my room looking at somebody. He hasn't got a shirt on, revealing ugly scars on his chest and stomach along with blue and purple bruises from recent punishments. He is bony with his ribs sticking out more than they should. I glare at the blond boy only to see him glaring back at me. I look at my wrists as he does with his as we both find red lines covering our skin. He made me do this. He punishes me making me want to punish myself even more. I'm surprised that I haven't tried to end it yet. I think about doing it all day every day but I am too much of a coward to do so.

I look back up to those blue eyes full of pain and misery, disgusted when I found out that it was just my reflection in the mirror. My 'father' put it in there to remind me of the cowardly son that he has failed to raise.

I shouldn't blame him.

I deserve everything that has happened to me.

I deserve to die a painful death

I deserve to be hit, beaten until I am unconscious

I deserve to wake up finding out the sick things he had done to me while I was knocked out.

I will never be wanted, liked, loved. It will always be this way. I will always be this way. A sick, scarred, nervous outcast.

I punched the mirror in frustration, cutting my hand open. Blood runs from my knuckles dripping off my fingers. Oh well, I can take pain. Plus the extra pain that my so called father gives me when he finds out the mess that I just made. I don't care anyway.

Who would want me?

Reviews please... I am hand writing my second chapter and will be typing it up if I get a good amount of reviews so I know that this story is worth carrying on.