Morning Dew and Regrets

A.N.: Gonna make an Iason/ Riki fanfic. Oh yeah.

P.S.: I like Ai no Kusabi or as some say Ai no Jusabi.

Disclaimer: I don't own it.

Riki sighed as he pulled silky red bed sheets around his naked torso. He pushed his legs to his chest and rested his tan chin on his now covered knees. It was about three in the morning and Riki found he could hardly sleep. All night he tossed and turned to the point where Iason Mink groggily told him to go to Ceres if it would help him sleep. Riki knew it was bad if Iason was willing to let him return to Ceres if it would help him. Not that he didn't want to of course, but how could he explain himself to Guy and the few members of Bison who may be hanging around. Surely they'd turn him away before he could even get to Guy. So either way it went, Riki was in a compromising position. "Damn it all," Riki said louder than he thought. Iason smacked and rolled onto his back. He tugged at his black pajama pants but otherwise stayed asleep. Riki cast dark eyes on the Blondie's sleeping form but didn't speak again. He needed thinking time all to himself without any distractions.

Riki sighed again and snuggled deeper into the covers. He wished that Guy was here to wrap his arms around him. He missed Guy so much and not to mention his buddies from Bison. "Man I wonder what they're doing?" He turned his head as the fleeting shadow of a lone bird passed by the window. It had been a while since Iason allowed him outside. It was almost as if he didn't trust him. The thought added to his anger as he felt bitterness rising up. "Who does he think he is?" Riki smacked the pillow and clenched his hands into fists. "Damn him and damn Eos. He can't control me." He smacked the pillow again but was surprised when a larger hand covered his tan one. Iason yawned sleepily and turned his head towards Riki. "If you insist on being angry please do it at a more sensible time." He squeezed Riki's hand softly. The boy huffed and snatched his hand away. "Whatever. It's not like you have anything important to do anyway. It's a week day." The dark haired boy folded his arms tightly across his chest. Iason laughed and laced his fingers together across his stomach. "That may be the case pet, but I do value sleep. And speaking of sleep, why are you up at this hour?" Riki shrugged and rested his head on his knees. "Couldn't sleep." Iason opted for a gentle yawn rather than ask his pet what bothered him.

They were silent a while more before Riki decided to speak again. "Aren't you gonna ask what's wrong?" Iason, who had dozed off lightly, raised his delicate eyebrows. "I assumed you would tell me if it bothered you enough. Besides, you have spitefully told me before that you didn't want me involved 'in your damn business' as you put it." Riki rolled his eyes at Iason. "So what if I did. All you're gonna do is get involved it no matter how much I ask you not to." Iason smiled although his eyes stayed closed. "I only get involved if your safety is questioned. But really I choose to mind my own business since it's more convenient for one of my status." Riki snorted but honestly he felt a little sad. He wanted to tell somebody about what he was feeling. Still though, he hadn't sorted out all his feelings yet. Plus he still wasn't sure whether or not he liked Iason or if he hated him. It was a mixture of both he guessed. Iason watched with half-lidded eyes as Riki's eyebrows would knit together before suddenly going back to their natural arch just before shooting up in confusion. His pet was doing some serious thinking about something and he could tell it weighed heavy on his chest. Riki's snide remarks lack three fourth of the fire they usually have, Iason said to himself.

He shrugged while still lying in bed but eventually found the intensity of obsidian eyes on his face to great. So he slowly extended his hand to Riki. "Come to me my pet. Tell me what ails you." Although Riki made a disgusted face, he still crawled over to Iason and cuddled up close to his side. He managed to keep the look of relief off his face as the Blondie laid his smooth arm across his back. "Now Riki, since I am fully awake, tell me all that passes through your mind." The dark haired boy sighed. "Well there's a lot I'm thinking about. Hopefully it won't make you mad." Iason raised an eyebrow again. "But I still don't care about your feelings." Iason shook his head but began stroking Riki's shoulder softly. "No matter my pet. Just tell me all you wish to tell me." The boy sighed before he began talking. "Well I was just feeling angry. Bitter even, towards you and Guy. And really everyone else. I just feel so, I don't know empty and worthless. Not to mention I'm homesick even though I know the guys in Bison probably think I'm a traitor to Ceres. I can't help it though, that I'm a pet I mean." Iason nodded. "And I don't know really. I'm just mad for some reason. And the killer part is that I can't figure out why. I hate this so much. I wish I could get my true feelings out." Iason kept rubbing Riki and became vaguely aware that his pet was idly twirling a lock of his blonde hair around his finger. Riki must have noticed as well because he quickly moved his hand and settled for picking at the waistband of Iason's pants.

"Iason do you truly think I'm special? I mean, I still hate you for making me like this, but do you think I'm something. You tell me all the time that you see something in me but what is it? I can't see it myself. Besides I'm a mongrel from Ceres. I fit in with guys like Guy and yet you picked me to be yours." Iason licked his lips in thought. Riki posed a good question. He would give a better answer. "I'm not sure myself what I see in you Riki. All I can say is that I like it whatever 'it' is. The defiance and the rudeness gives me a rush like never before. And you must admit that you like the challenge of a Blondie dominating you. Here, it's not like Ceres. This is Eos, my domain. I am at the zenith of Eos and you are the nadir here. Still I imagine you as my own. But I can sense your heart is in a difficult place." Riki rested his face on Iason's abdomen. "My heart doesn't know anymore. It's confused." The Blondie ran a hand over Riki's inky black hair. "You know who you love, but you want to refuse yourself that thought. I see the struggle you have whenever I retrieve you from Ceres. You hang on to Guy because he is a fleeting image of what you had. Truth be told, you're afraid of change." Riki's eyes widened and before he could catch himself, he had jumped out of Iason's arms and ran to the bedroom's balcony. Riki had somehow managed to pull the cover off the bed with him so he fell hard onto his knees. Riki yelped but refused to stop. So he roughly yanked the cover from around his ankles and stood on his feet. He flung the glass doors open and ran to the balcony's bar. He gripped the black rail so tightly his fingers began to cramp. Tears had started forming in his eyes at the words Iason said.

He stayed there gripping the bar. He had no shame as the wind blew across his naked body. Nobody would be up to scrutinize him so closely anyway. He tried to breathe and calm his beating heart. "Damn you Iason," Riki yelled loudly not bothering to turn around. He felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up as the soft pat of Iason's feet assaulted his ears. "Don't touch me," he yelled again as he heard Iason moving closer to him. "I swear I'll throw myself over this railing. Don't touch me." His words posed an empty threat. He wouldn't do it. Iason smiled as he finally stood behind his pet. He wrapped his arms around Riki's chest and pressed their bodies together. "Don't be upset pet. You asked me a question and I gave you the answer. Although you didn't want to hear it." Riki blinked. Iason was gently rocking them side to side. He kept kissing Riki's shoulder and rubbing his chest. "I hate you Iason. I'll kill you someday." Even with the threat, he leaned back against Iason and let him hold him. He closed his eyes and placed his hands over Iason's larger ones. He regretted telling Iason his thoughts but then again when did he not feel that way. Leaning his head back he gave a small smile when morning dew from a plant fell onto his tan nose. He had forgotten about the rooftop garden in Eos tower. And so this was how Riki spent his morning, cradled in Iason's arms; He spent his morning with morning dew and regrets.

CHAPTER DONE

A.N.: Pretty good start right? Oh and give me reviews.

P.S.: Zenith is the highest point above the imaginary celestial sphere or simply the highest point.

Nadir is the lowest point below the imaginary celestial sphere or simply the lowest point.