Haruka's POV:

It's currently 4am in the morning, and i have yet to sleep a wink. To think that Ryouta would come back was a totally shock to me. I would be lying if i said i am not affected at all. I'm still upset over the break up. I never understood why he suddenly left me, well it's not like it mattered anymore. The heartbreak is something i would never want to experience ever again. HEAVENS have gone back to the party after making sure i got home safe. They insisted on staying with me but It's a important event, they ought to be there. After tossing and turning for several more hours thinking about everything including my past and present, i decided to go get a drink. I went down to the kitchen and opened the drawer that i usually rarely open. I picked up a bottle of red wine. The first time i ever drank alcohol was shortly after my breakup with Ryouta. I don't usually touch alcohol, i do only when i really stressed or upset and needed a break from everything. I poured myself a glass and settled myself at the living room. I swirled the fancy glass around and took a sip. As I swallowed the wine, it left a slight burning sensation at the back of my throat. The wine tasted tart, but i couldn't care at the moment. It took me no time to finish a glass. Knowing that i didn't have a high alcohol tolerance, I knew one glass was all i needed for me to fall asleep. Just when i was about to pour another glass, the wine bottle was snatched away from me. I turned around to see HEAVENS, STARISH, QUARTET NIGHT as well as Tomo-chan standing behind me.

" Stop drinking. You don't even take alcohol well. " Eiichi said sternly.

" Lady, you can take alcohol now? " Jinguji-san asked me with a hint of astonishment.

" I'm no longer 17 or 18. " I replied with a empty laugh.

" How many glasses did you drink? " Hijirikawa-san asked gently.

" Just one and i was about to get another. Want to join me? " I slurred as I raise my wine glass.

" Haruka stop drinking already. " Tomo-chan jumped forward and tried to take my wine glass away from me but i douged her, almost falling forward but i managed to regain my balance, "No, I'm getting another glass so Eiichi give my wine bottle back. "

" Haruka, both you and I know you can't drink well. Let's stop here for today. " I felt myself being lifted and i instantly clung onto Eiichi. He carried me to my bed and settled me down under my covers. He stroked my hair and i relaxed under his touch. Before i knew it, I was slowly doozing off into dreamland. The last thing i felt was a soft kiss on my forehead and I fell asleep.

Eiichi's POV:

" What should i do about her. " I muttered softly and exited the room quietly. I went back down to the living area to find everyone all settled around the living area.

" Why are you all here? It's already almost 5am. All of you better go to bed, we still have school tomorrow. " I said as I loosen my tie slightly.

" Is Haru-nee asleep? " Nagi asked me as I sat down on the couch.

" Yeah. You know she can't take alcohol well. " I replied.

" Was that Ryouta guy very important to Kouhai-chan? " Kotobuki asked.

" To Haruka, Ryouta was her everything. She loved him a lot. He was her first love after all. " I replied but continued further, " She gave him her everything. When he suddenly left her, Haruka was left in a depression. There was a time where she wouldn't even see any of us. She just lock herself in her room all day. At night, you can hear her sobbing her heart out. It hurt all of us too, but we can't do anything for her cause we are not Ryouta. In Haruka's heart, Ryouta can never be replaced. "

The room stayed silent. No one talked further. I stood up and said, " This conversation shall end here today. Let's all go to sleep for now, Good night And remember not to bring up Ryouta in front of Ryouta tomorrow. "

I left for my bedroom with Nagi and Kira following behind me. Tonight it's going to be a long night. Both for Haruka, as well as all of us.

Next morning, HARUKA'S POV:

" Good morning princess, it's time to wake up. You have to go to school remember? " I heard a voice said, but i couldn't make out who was it.

I opened my eyes slightly to see it was Kaoru lying beside me, I closed my eyes immediately after and said, " I'm going to call in sick. "

" Oh no I'm afraid you can't do that Haruka. Come on let's get up, everyone is already awake when they slept later than you. " He said as he took my blankets off me. I tried to pull my blanket back up but it was impossible, Kaoru was stronger than i am. I sat up only to feel a pounding pain on the back of my head.

" Hey slowly, I heard from Eiichi-niisan that you drank a glass of wine. It's normal since you do not have a high alcohol tolerance. " He sat me up as I continued to hold onto my head.

" I'm going to go wash up before I head down. You should go down first. " I said as I stood up slowly, fearing any sudden movements will cause my head to hurt even worse.

" Are you sure Haruka? That you don't need my help to help you wash up? " He smirked as he said.

" Before i kick you, you better get out now. " I said.

" Alright then see you downstairs. " He exited and closed the door.

I went to wash up quickly and picked out an outfit. Today we were told that we don't have to wear our uniforms. I really don't know why we always wear our own clothes to school but we since were told so, i guess we don't have a choice. I picked out a simple white button down shirt and black denim shorts. I tucked in the front of my white shirt and left the rest untouched. I paired it with a pair of black converse high and a simple back sling bag. I applied a thin layer of bb cream to make myself more lookable and finished it off with a pink tint to my lips. Simple and natural. I headed down to the dining room to see all of them eating their breakfast.

" Good morning. " I greeted as i approached the table.

" Good morning lady, did you sleep well? "

" Ohayo Haru-Haru! "

" Pleasant how dare you wake up later than i do. "

" Nanami-san ohayogozaimasu. "

" We started eating first, i hope you didn't mind. " Hijirikawa-san said with a smile.

" No i do not mind at all, please continue eating. " I said.

" Here Haruka. " Kaoru said as he passed some donut and painkillers.

" Eat this and take this painkillers, it will stop your headache. " He explained as he pointed at the pack of painkillers.

" Thanks Kaoru! For the donut. Of course Kaoru knows me best. " I smiled as i try to pretend everything is fine and he patted my head before replying, " Anything for you. "

" Where's HEAVENS? " I asked.

" They already went for work. They wouldn't be back for another day or 2. " Kurosaki-san said and I just noded.

" Seems like all of us are most or less done. Let's wash up and head off. " Ichinose-san said as he stood up to wash the dishes.

I continued muching on my donut and after i'm done, I ate the painkillers like how Kaoru instructed me to. After everyone ready, we headed off to school. When we reached the school compound, something was off. There was no one screaming, it was quiet.

" Where are all of your fans? It's strangely quiet. " I asked, as we continued walking.

" Indeed it's really strange that no one is surrounding us. " Kurosaki-senpai said.

" Did you guys do something wrong that make you fans decide to leave all of you? " I asked as we approached the classroom.

" According to my data, we did absolutely nothing wrong. " Mikaze-senpai said and i just nodded. Ittoki-kun opened the door and all of us stepped in. In the class, there was only D:FI. Just then Nagisa approached STARISH and QUARTET NIGHT, "Where did all of you go yesterday, we were worried. " She said sweetly, like usual.

I was about to walk away to my seat until I was stopped by Nagisa.

" You, why did you come to class together with them. Care to explain? " She said, from her voice i knew she was trying her best not to scream at me but i didn't care much. I simply replied with a shrug and walked away. If i replied her, she would definitely ask me more about it and that is the last thing i want to do. I'm already feeling really messed up with myself, and also with my feelings. I sat down at my seat and stared out the window. I started to think about what happened yesterday. I got to be honest, I am still upset over the whole heartbreak and the fact that he came back does not make it any better. It felt like a start of another bad nightmare. When he hugged me yesterday, that was when i knew. I am not over fully him, neither am i over fully 'us'. But deep inside i also knew, there was no more 'us' and also, I can never go back to him again. I cannot let myself go through another heartbreak again. To me, no matter what is the reason, the relationship, the love, has ended the moment he left me. This is when, a voice brought me back to reality.

" Nanami! Nanami Haruka-chan! "

" Yes! " I instantly replied.

" Why are you so out of it today? You got to get yourself together before class start got it! " Tsukimiya-sensei said.

" I'm sorry sensei. " I apologized and Kotobuki-senpai sent me a worried look.

" Are you okay? " I could make out what he mouthed to me.

" I am fine. Don't worry. " I mouthed back to me and gave a slight smile.

He smiled back at me and diverted his attention back to the board and so did i.

" Alright class! Please pay attention to me! " Tsukimiya-sensei said as she banged the table.

" All of you must be wondering, why no one except all of you are here in school today and why all of you are not required to wear your school uniform. Now you must be curious so let me answer all of you. " She paused and continued, " From today onwards, S class is going to attend a very special series of class! Furthermore, only S class can attend these classes! Classes would include everything you need to be an idol and that even includes acting! "

Acting huh. I used to do acting practice with Ryouta.

" And that's not all! Somebody special is coming to join all of you! " She said excitedly. " Even sensei I am excited about his arrival, some of you might have seem him yesterday at the ball but I will still introduce him to all of you! "

It can't be. Right? No, no way.

" Its none other than Minamoto Ryouta, other than his perfect looks and amazing singing and dancing ability, he can act too! Due to request from the President, he will be joining us for the next one week. Come Ryouta-kun, please come in. " She said and i can sense that the guys along with Tomo-chan started to look towards my direction. They were checking to see if i am fine. But boy I wasn't fine. As the footsteps gets louder and louder, so did my heartbeat. Should I run, or should i stay. I didn't knew what to do. Just when I was about to make a decision, it was all too late. He entered the classroom, a man i knew all too well. He was wearing a button down white long sleeve shirt tucked in into and a pair of fitting black long jeans. He had his soft dark brown fringe down, the way i used to like it to be. He was stunning and I felt my heart started to beat just that slight bit faster.

" Nice to meet all of you. I'm Minamoto Ryouta, some of you might know me since I met some of you yesterday. I apologise for any rude behavior I might have displayed yesterday. I hope we will get along well for the next 1 week. " He said and smiled.

" Ryouta-kun you can sit next to Haruka! Haruka you will take good care of him right? "

" Sensei, I dont think- ", before I couldn't even disagree, he was already sitting beside me. He slipped his hand into mine but I removed my hands away from his. I saw his expression fell and i did felt bad about it. But I couldn't let myself fall for him again. Never.

" The timetable for the classes has been sent to all of your mails so make sure to check them. All the information will be in that mail so do read carefully. " She closed her notebook after she was done and continued, " Now that everything is done, I'm going to leave all of you to enjoy your classes and make sure everyone takes good care of Ryouta-kun okay! Byebye! " She said as she exited the classroom.

After she left, the whole classroom fell into silence. I stood up. The dragging of my chair broke the silence.

" Haruka. "

" Haru-chan. "

" Nanami-san. "

" Lady. "

" Kouhai-chan. "

As i was about to exit the classroom, a hand stopped me.

" Haruka. " Ryouta said.

" Let me go. " I replied harshly, looking down.

" Haruka, we need to talk. " His voice, soft and gentle.

" There is nothing for us to talk about. " I said.

" Come on Haruka, please don't be like this. " He almost pleaded.

" Let go. " I looked at him this time round.

" I'm sorry baby. " He said as he stared right into my eyes.

" Do you think a sorry can change everything? All these while you left me without saying anything, do you think a simple sorry can change everything? " I said, voice soft as I let a tear flow down my right cheek.

Instantly, I felt myself being lifted up.

" Sorry guys, we will have to miss the first class. Do help me inform the teacher coming in soon. " I heard Ryouta said, still in his arms. Just like that, we walked out of the class.

" Minamoto-san please let me down now. " I said.

" Let me down instant. " I said a little loudly and firmly this time but still he didn't let me down.

" Ryou! " I said and he smiled widely. I was confused, why was he smiling when I'm half-yelling at him.

" You finally called me by my name. " He smiled at me as we entered a empty practice room. Only then he let me down. Just when I was going to leave and go back to the classroom, I felt myself crashing into his hard chest.

" Haruka, I missed you so much. " He hugged me tighter.

Me too

A voice in me wanted to reply. A part of me wanted to just hug him tighter. I want to, but I know I can't. I didn't know what to do. My heart is so confused.

" Haruka, would you please listen to me now? " He lowered himself to my eye level, but still trapping me in his arms.

" I'm not sure if I can… " I admitted, I wasn't ready to talk to him at all and I'm sure he knew that more than anyone else.

" Please just listen to me. I just need you to listen. That's all I'm asking from you, whether you forgive me, the choice is up to you. " I could feel the sincerity in his voice hence I nodded.

" I'm really sorry for leaving without telling you, no words can tell you how sorry I am. But please trust me, I left because I had to. I did it so that you could be safe. " He spoke as he caught a strand of my hair falling and tucking it behind my ear.

" Why? I don't understand. You leaving me so I could be safe does not make any sense. " I said.

" That, the reason I can't tell you. But would you please believe me? You know I would never lie to you." He said.

" You are not making any sense, how can I suppose to trust you then? " I retort, pushing him back with my palm on his chest slightly.

" Haruka- " He took hold of both my hands.

" No you lied. 3 years ago you lied. " I pushed him back with greater force, he stumbled back by a few steps. " You told me to wait for you but when I went back to our home, you were gone. And all you left was a note with I'm sorry on it. What was it supposed to mean? Minamoto Ryouta, you tell me! "

" Haruka liste- " He wanted to speak but I cut him off. " No you don't get to speak. I'm not done. You left your ring with the note. Do you understand how I felt at that point? " I started to raise my voice. Thankfully the practice room is sound-proofed. " I thought, are we over? What did I do wrong? At what point did it all went wrong? Was it my fault? Why did this happen so suddenly when we were just laying in each others arms all night? And you know what? As time passes, I started to convince myself that it was all my fault. It was all my fault that I wasn't good enough. I wasn't a good girlfriend to the point that my boyfriend decided to leave me. I went into depression, because of you. I was devastated, do you know how that felt? I'm sure you don't know. All the time you left me in another country, I'm sure you had fun with other girls out there. " I laughed, tears rolling down my cheeks.

" Haruka, I-I. " Ryouta started, but didn't continue.

" No it's okay. I'm sorry Minamoto-san, I'm going to go now. " I pushed pass him and ran out of the room.