The weird little things.
Lights …flashbacks … piano music … dead roses … a broken window … a fly … the weird smell … old curtains… the clock … another clock…empty wine bottle… a necklace … oil colors… a teddy bear …. Bags…a half eaten apple … books… a doll inside a jar… the smell again … a dead spider in the corner… black buttons… sketch book… a dusty floor … winds moaning … doodles dancing in the wall..a chair… the wall incision…an eye..a killer…my hands are red …killing a chicken … real blood…somebody's blood…am I a killer…the image bleeds into me.. one mess of ugly color… everything mixed… I flew into the wall.
"HAAAA!" I suddenly woke up from my dream to find myself in my specialist's room again
"relax Hikaru .. you fell in a magnetic sleep" the brown coat docter explained to me
"did you..did you figure out anything about those flashbacks?" I asked him … I've been having those flash backs for a very long time now… every time I fall asleep or I have a daydream and I ignored them for a long time but lately they became faster and deeper that sometimes I faint because of them… they are chasing me , so I decided to stop them thus I started visiting Dr. Adam .
"well , Hikaru… you are seeing through another person's memories "
"WHAT? I mean ,how could that even be possible ..?" I couldn't understand it this is totally unbelievable!
" do you remember anything weird happened to you when you were a kid ?" I remained silent for a while but I couldn't remember any
"not really .."
" please take your time today and try to remember , any small detail can help , this situation is rare . but it's not impossible and by the way you described what you saw to me ,Hikaru I shouldn't be telling you this but ,either your past has an effect on you .. or … you have somebody's else memories because you're spiritually chained with that person .. and both cases are possible .."
"chained ..? how ? I mean I've never really had someone close to me and I've used people as toys for my whole life ! this is totally crazy … and why am I seeing those memories of this person !?"
"probably , that person needs you .."
That was the last thing the doctor told me today morning and untill then my mind couldn't stop thinking of anything else
"..who could that person be… and why me?..." I whispered to myself
"Hikaru kun ! you better concentrate on your work instead of wasting time staring at the wall! " my bosses voice brought me back from my state "yes sir.." so I got back to my papers .. " you better finish inking this chapter soon !" he screamed at me again as I nodded. I'm work as a mangaka so I have to ink this last chapter before Friday … I have drown into work lately so I could stop thinking,but that didn't work … sometimes I see happy peaceful flashbacks … butterflies,kits,a small river and a green field, that person even shares those with me … he must be a calm person thought …wait.. "he "? I don't know his gender yet… I don't know anything about him…
I walked home after finishing my job … people seems to walk through me, I feel high that I can't even hear their voices anymore ,I can't hear anything,am I dying ?...huh… where am I! everything is different now … it's an apartment … the walls are colored grey … a black sofa … socks … half opened door… a frame … I can't reach it … white carpet … a window … the same symphony … and I can't reach my voice..looking out the window ,buildings ,trees, the wall again …a fan
"HAAH!..Shit ! I drafted into flashback again ! " I was sitting in an alley, a very dark one,I stood up and completed my walk to my house and looked through people faces . "what am I doing? …searching for someone that I don't know how does he look like"
This is impossible now,I'd never know him… " I walked and walked till I finally reached my apartment ,entered the place and threw myself to the bed …" if you want my help…you should let me know who you are!.AAAAH man, I am speaking to myself goddamit .." so I rolled and slept
Lights …crying noises…and somebody's in the corner … somebody that…belongs to me… I fly to him… he's hiding his head between his legs … I touch his hands … I feel so complete …he stops his crying …he rise his arms around my chest … he wraps them tightly around me … neither one of us spoke a word … I can feel him … I put my arms around him too slowly…I feel his breath .. I bring him closer to me… a long hug…he cries to me… his tears fall down … I can't see his face yet… I feel his smooth hair …he never want to let go of me … I hugged him even closer … we are chained … an orange light comes around us … "hi-ka-ru" he whispers … his voice is close to mine … he pull away … he removes his hair from his face…he… looks the same…as me…he smiles warmly …his tears keep runs down … he leaves … lights go down …flash back is over .
I woke up sweating and scared . I took my phone from my career bag and immediately reached my doctor's number " Doctor Adam … I ..I have seen his face in the flashback !"
"What! how does he look like?"
"he looks like… me"
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