Oh my God guys I'm sooo sorry! I've been at camp, volleyball, New York, and I had freshie orientation today! Busy beyond belief! I'm so awful! I'm sorry! I"ll update as much as I can I PROMISE!

After my encounter with Tobias yesterday, I decided to not tell anyone. Wouldn't really want everyone knowing that both Tobias and I were breaking Abnegation values. I go into breakfast today not exactly sure what to expect. I see his beautiful dark blue eyes and know by the way they're smiling that he sees me and he's thinking about last night. I also can't help but smile when he sits next to me.
"Hey, Tris." He says.
"Tris?" I ask. It actually sounds nice. I really like it. It's a plus that Tobias came up with it too.
"Do you not like it?" He asks, his voice edging with concern.
It's a little funny that he cares that much.
"No I love it." I say.
"Good," he says "then I didn't buy this for nothing."
He holds out a little charm necklace with a "T" on it.
"Now it can stand for both of our names" he says. Aww that was kinda sweet. I wonder what he sees in me? I can't think like that though I chose to stay in Abnegation so I must think and act like someone from Abnegation. Because I am someone from Abnegation. We've both been in an uncomfortable silence for a while I need to make small talk.
"So, where do you work?" I ask. No! Why did I ask that?! We aren't supposed to talk about ourselves.
"In the control room." He replies.
"Control room? You must be very good with computers to be working in the control room at eighteen."
"I guess." He says. Oh, I just implied that he talk more about himself. I've lived here my whole life yet I still can't seem to understand the right way to talk. Well, this again rises the question of what could he possibly see in me. I honestly want to ask, but before I can Grace calls the volunteers over. After a brief conversation they turn to us and Grace begins to talk.
"As the first day of initiation is today, you'll be split off into five groups of and Maria will be together and Kaitlyn and Shawn will be together. Georgia and Maria, choose your group first please."
I desperately hope they don't choose me just so I can be with Tobias. Georgia starts picking and says "Hannah, Patricia, Nathan ."
Thank God. They walk over to Georgia and Maria.
"Kaitlyn and Shawn, your turn." Says Grace.
"Shannon Jeffery Owen ." Says Shawn. Yes, they didn't pick me either.
"Tobias." Says Grace.
"Tris, Dianne, Noelle." Tobias says. He said Tris. He didn't say Beatrice. I hope he doesn't get in trouble for that.
"James." Says Grace.
"Nancy, Gregory, Shelby." Says James.
"Tyler your turn." Says Grace.
"Jennifer, Jade, Matthew." Tyler says.
All the groups have been picked, yet we still don't know what we're doing. I look to Tobias and mouth "what are we doing?" He just pretends to zip his lips shut and throw away the key. I chuckle a little, but quickly stop. Sometimes I feel like Abnegation is a little too uptight. Grace tells us to follow her and she leads us out of the building and to the school. From there she begins to tell us what we're here for.
"As you can tell, there is a lot if trash around the school. We'll give you an hour to pick up as much trash as you can. If there are two group leaders, one must sit out. Each member of the group with the most trash will get ten points. The next gets eight, the next six, and so on. Any questions?"
Gregory speaks up.
"What are the points for?" He asks.
"Well," says Grace, "at the end of initiation the person with the most points gets to choose their job and where their house is first." The more points you have, the better your job is and the better place you have your house."
I guess we need to make a game plan otherwise we'll just be mindless fools walking around. I'm not sure what picking up trash has to do with being selfless though. Wow, just another reason I seem not fit for Abnegation.

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~Ellen