Confessions

Summary: Dean, after realizing his love for his best friend wasn't going to go away, decides to tell him.

a/n: So I wrote this in a fit of passion. Well, it started out that way. It was the middle of the night when I wrote this. This is un beta'd so all the mistakes are mine.

Dean: Hey Cas... I'm not- I'm not very good with words, or feelings. But... Cas, you're my best friend. You've always been my best friend. You've been there for me, you make me smile and laugh. You really... when I'm around you I feel... good. You make me happy. I've never really had much of a home, but.. they say that home is where the heart is. And Cas, when I'm with you I feel... at home. I know this is all really cheesy, but bare with me here. Cas, i don't know if you know this but you've pulled me out of some the darkest times in my life, you've been there for me and I don't think you know how much I appreciate it. Appreciate you. I... Cas, I know I've never showed it before... but I've been thinking about this for a while and... Cas, you're- you're amazing. You're smart and funny and ... gorgeous. Cas, what I'm trying to say is... I... I like you. I've liked you for a while and... it's weird. I've never felt like this about anyone before. You make my- my chest feel tight and when I look in your eyes I can barely breathe. You have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen and... I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything. I just ruined everything and you probably don't feel the same way. I should... I should stop. I just... can we pretend that this didn't just happen and that I never said anything? I mean, I break everything I touch why should this be any different? I'm sorry Cas. I just told you that I loved you and...

Dean looked up from the keyboard and looked over everything he just typed. He sighed, highlighted everything and clicked delete. He typed in a new message and sent it.

Dean: Hey, Cas. What's up?

Castiel: Nothing much. Just thinking.

Dean: Oh really? Anything interesting?

Dean leaned back in his chair and waited while the 'Castiel is typing...' icon flashed across the chat screen. He ended up waiting for a while, until finally Castiel's message appeared on screen.

Castiel: Well, if you must know... I was thinking about you. Dean, we have been best friends for years. I think that after all this time I should admit something to you. Dean, I love you. I've never told you before because I was always afraid you wouldn't like it. I've never... I've never really trusted anyone before as much as I trust you. That's why I'm telling you this. I know a love confession is something that should be voiced in person... but I couldn't bring myself to face you as I told you this. But I had to tell you because every time I saw your face I would feel guilt for keeping my feelings a secret. I truly am sorry for not telling you before... But I am now. I love you Dean and I will completely understand if you do not wish to speak with me again. Thank you for everything Dean. I mean it.

Dean was shocked. He never would've thought Castiel liked him back. He reread the message again. Finally, Dean leant forward to type (and send) his reply.

Dean: Cas... you have no idea how much you mean to me. I... I love you too, Cas. I have for a long time. Damn, I had this whole speech about telling you that I loved you and I chickened out at the last minute. I should've told you earlier too. Sorry for that.

Castiel: You... you really feel that way?

Dean laughed.

Dean: Yeah Cas. Why would I say it if I didn't mean it?

Castiel: I don't know?

Dean laughed again.

Castiel: Dean... what does this mean for us?

Dean: I don't know, Cas. But it opens up a whole new world of possibilities.

a/n: Tell me if you liked it or maybe want a part two. Thanks for reading.