When Judai showed up at her house, she assumed it would be another night of listening to his adventures and feeding him until he passed out on her couch. At which point he would be gone by the time he woke up.

Sort of like a type of stray cat that she couldn't keep but continued come around anyways.

He was shivering when he came around,, the jacket stuck to his skin with rain, "Hey...mind if I come in?" His teeth were nearly smashing together they were cattering so hard.

"...get in you fool", she sighed, opening the door just a little bit more so that more water couldn't get in, "Bathroom, shower, get dried off and I'll bring you something to wear"

Judai nodded sharply, hurrying off to the bathroom. It was nice to not have to think when Asuka was around, she could order with the best of them and direct him to do whatever she thought was best for him.

Despite his desire for independence, when he was tired or just out of it emotionally he wanted her to ordered him around. Which was why he always came back here when he wasn't in the best place emotionally.

"Thanks!" He pondered if he should tell her about his thoughts, how her controlling personality tended to take away the feelings that made his stomach turn and made him hate himself even just a little bit.

She would probably tell him he was being strange or that he didn't need her telling him what to do too feel good about himself or something along those lines.

Judai wrapped his hands around the bowl of soup, feeling the warmth soak into him, "Mmm, smells good!"

"Sea food chowder, you need the protein", she said, pushing a glass of milk towards him, "Eat it all and then we can talk"

"Awww Asu-", her glare slienced him, her finger tapping on the table, "...okay"

The food was good, probably ordered out form somewhere, but Asuka knew how to choose food. Sometimes he thought she knew when he was coming so she would pick out food that he would like.

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He was scruffy, more so then she remembered, his hair was over grown, and there was a gentle sprinkle of shadow along his jaw line. Maybe it was because it had been a few months since she had seen him or maybe he just wasn't taking care of himself.

Judai was about to bring the bowl up to his mouth before he saw the look that Asuka was giving him over the rim. Setting it down he began to soak up the reminding broth with the bun she had given him.

Asuka held her hands up to her face, hiding a small smile. It was nice to have someone that listened to her every once in a while, especially with everyone else around her that seemed to have fun ignoring her.

"Have you been eating?" her hand brushed a lock of hair back behind his ear, pleased to see that he had washed it out. "You look thin"

"...it's hard to remember sometimes", he mumbled, pulling away form her to stand up, pulling the shirt down over his legs.

Asuka stood up as well, grabbing his hand to look at his wrist, thin with viens showing. He was pale, to the point where he was almost see through.

"What the hell is wrong with you?!" She pulled him closer, looking into his eyes to see the bloodshot whites and the deep bruised skin around his eyes, "You're killing yourself", she might have noticed that he was a little less then perfect looking the last time but nothing like this.

He shook his head, trying to pull his wrist away form her, "So what if I'm a little sick looking? That all it is sick right? I'm fine!"

"You call looking like this being a little sick! she pulled him until he was flushed with her, "You can't even fight me off Judai, you're sick"

Judai began to shake, "What do you know?! Maybe I deserve to die maybe I deserve to just stop-"

There was a sharp crack as her hand connected with his cheek, "Shut up, go into the bed room. Sleep. And we'll discuss this in the morning"

She wasn't about to let him slip out on her again like he had so many times before. He opened his mouth, considering to fight but the twanging pain in his cheek stopped him. Judai nodded turning around to head towards the bedroom.

Asuka sighed, falling back into her seat, hitting him hadn't been the best option but at the time she couldn't think straight. It had made her crazy, thinking that Judai hated himself so much that he might want to do something like that.

Honestly it looked like the only meal he had in a week had been with her, and only because she had told him to eat. This whole night it looked like he had only did things because she had told to do it.

That thought brought an idea to her head, though she wasn't sure if it was a good idea. She would need to speak to Judai when he woke up to see if he thought her idea would help him out. No one had ever caused her quite as much trouble as Judai.

His sleep was uneasy, filled with nightmares of things that he couldn't see or tell what they were and moments that he just couldn't sleep. The pain in his cheek had faded after a few hours, she hadn't put that much power behind it to hurt him.

Breakfast was uneventful, Asuka not saying a word beyond ordering him to eat or clean up. Honestly Judai was worried that she as going to kick him out and he wouldn't have a place to stay anymore.

"…Does it help you to have me order you around?" Asuka finally asked, after everything was cleared away, her hands propped up as she stared at Judai.

He blushed at the sudden question, not sure if he quite wanted to answer that especially after what had happened last night. "Maybe…I mean yeah I guess…sorta?"

She tapped her fingers against the table seemingly lost in thought before she suddenly spoke again, "Do you know about BDSM?" this was said without a hint of embarrassment, or blush at saying that.

"…yeah, I mean I've read some stuff and yeah…"

"I'm not sure how much you know about this, but there is…something known as a master slave relationship. Sometimes they're only sexual but there are others that extend for personal reasons outside the bedroom and can even be nonsexual. …You…if that's what you need I'm…"

"…you want to be my mistress?" he mummered gently, his face bright red with embarrassment, he hadn't even considered that idea before, "I mean…it does…make me feel a little better I mean to be ordered around by you"

"…take a day to think about it, and if you still want to, we'll figure out the boundaries and things", Asuka pushed her chair back in, "I have to go to work, so you'll be alone to think about it"

He grabbed her wrist as she walked by, "…thank you. For caring"

She smiled gently, rubbing his fingers as she walked away, "It's only decent"