No love

Summary – Tsuna was a boy who is abused and beaten by his parents. Having enough of him, they send him to live with Giotto, his older brother, who hated him when they were younger. Tsuna is sent off but when he arrives, he only has one question. 'What is Love?' G27 Yaoi Incest.

I apologize for future grammar. There is no beta.

Disclaimer: I don't own Katekyo Hitman Reborn.

Chapter 5: Misunderstood

Dash looked back at the kitten that sat in the back of the car with the other two Vongola brats. Though his face was devoid of emotions, he was worried about the kid.

It was a silent ride back to the mansion. Takeshi had a surprising expression of loath on his face, looking out the window and mind completely lost. Gokudera sat in the middle. Though he tried to hide it from sight, Dash could see his eyes wondering towards the new Vongola kitten.

The new kitten wasn't staring out the window. Instead he stared at completely nothing. His eyes and face was devoid completely of emotion.

Dash knows what showing no emotion is like. He does it and so does his little brother. But this was different. This was no emotion.

Finally after some minutes they arrived at the Vongola mansion.

"You two brats go and tell the big boss what happened. I'll take this little kitten to his room." Dash told the two Vongola brats. They nodded in confirmation, not having much to say against it. Takeshi avoided all eye contact.

"Come on, kitten. Let's get you to bed to have a little rest."

Dash led the new kitten to his room, unusually knowing where everything was.

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Dash had left Tsuna alone after bringing him to him room. Tsuna had gotten under the covers but couldn't sleep at all. Especially not after what happened.

It's my fault.

I almost got them killed.

They're better off without me.

I'm better off gone.

Tsuna couldn't keep these thoughts away. They just keep running through his head, despite him being at the brink of exhaustion.

Giotto. I need to go to Giotto, he thought.

Climbing out of his bed, not bothering to change out of his pajamas, Tsuna walked out the door and to Giotto's room.

Opening the door quietly, he noticed that Giotto wasn't in the room.

Hmmm…, Tsuna thought

Tsuna wondered about. He didn't know where everything was in the mansion.

Not that that would matter soon. He's probably going to kick me out after I got Takes-Yamamoto and Gokudera hurt. And how I bothered Dash.

Tsuna was about to leave the floor and go upstairs to search until he heard a voice.

It was Gokudera's voice.

It took Tsuna a bit to figure out what door it was coming from but once he did, he stood outside for Gokudera to be done talking to whomever so he could try and ask where Giotto was. But though the door was think, he was able to accidently hear some words thought it.

"…once Tsuna's gone, we'll be happy."

Everything in Tsuna's mind went completely blank.

I was right…

They want me gone…

Well obviously, who would want me gone?

I'm a burden.

I hurt them.

I'm useless.

I'd be better off dead.

"Herbivore, what are you doing loitering around."

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Giotto immediately knew that something was wrong the minute Takeshi and Gokudera walked into his office.

"What? What happened?" Giotto asked, removing his glasses off of his face and placing the pen down. "Did something happen to Tsunayoshi? Is he alright?" He grew increasingly worried when he noticed that they both looked down and ashamed when he mentioned his brother.

"Tell me what happened."

Takeshi spoke up first.

"It was my fault! I wanted to go out and show Tsuna Namimori! I dragged him and Gokudera out even though they didn't want to! Gokudera even told me that he wouldn't be comfortable to go out yet and I pushed him!"

"Shut up you idiot! It not your fault. He said that he wanted to go." Gokudera spoke a loud.

Giotto let them continued to let them talk it out, knowing that it would get them calm, even though his worry and curiosity of what happened increased drastically.

"I saw the worry in his eyes. He was afraid of going out and I still made him do it!" Takeshi spit back with self-loath evident in his tone, surprising Giotto and Gokudera very much.

Gokudera composed himself and responded back calm, somewhat scaring the other two. "He wasn't afraid about going out…"

"What? Then what, Hayato, tell me what else he could possibly be afraid of?" Takeshi glared back.

"Tch. You idiot he was afraid of bothering us!"

Takeshi's eyes widened. Giotto too was surprised but not as surprised as the baseball player.

Gokudera sighed and ran his hand through his hair. "I think it might be some sort of an anxiety. His mind is constantly telling him that he's a bother to people, that they're better off without him. He doesn't have severe depression from what I've seen in him but he has the thought of action that if, for example, he was ganged up on with a gun to his head, he wouldn't do anything to stop it. Rather he would just let it happen. Kind of like, this was doomed to happen so I'm not going to stop it. If someone gave him an opportunity to die, as long as he thinks that it won't hurt someone else he cares about, he'll take it."

Giotto was now shocked speechless, as well as Takeshi.

"But…Wouldn't he be scared to take that risk of dying? Doesn't he know how sad we'll be if he's gone….?" Takeshi tried.

Gokudera shook his head with a sigh. "Of course he'd be scared to take it. When that one stupid bastard went to punch him, he looked scared shitless. But he didn't move. He could've, even with his late reflexes. But he didn't. Because he thought, this was supposed to happen. They're going to hurt me but that's alright. With the risk of dying, he'd be scared, yeah, of course. Who wouldn't be? But he would still do it. And no, he doesn't know that we'd be sad. He think that once Tsuna's gone, we'll be happy. He's wrong in that matter but he doesn't know that. His brain is telling him that that's the truth."

"Oh god…"

"Hayato, Takeshi. Tell me what happened right now."

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A/N: Smh Gokudera, you had one job.

So it seems that in every fanfiction that I promise that I'll update soon, it turns into a year later.

I never forgot about this and I'm so ashamed of my absence. I quite literally have no excuse for my leave. I had this major writers block and I'm more ashamed in saying that, had AT&T not done fucked up and grant us no internet access or anything and had I not gotten my phone stolen, I would've never wrote this.

But I'm back. I'm never giving up on this fanfiction, even if it turns out to be twenty years later. Along with my other fanfictions, I'm determined to eventually finish them and see that little C on the paper next to the review sign.

I'm so sorry that this isn't a long chapter. Complete ashamed that it's about 1.2k words. I'll try to make the next one longer but I had a hard time trying to capture my younger weeaboo self's type of writing and ideas. But notes for the fanfiction!

1: Tsuna, yes has anxiety (social and mental) and depression. Reason I didn't put severe is because, well, Gokudera doesn't know him fully. He just observed Tsuna and he has a hard time coming to conclusions seeing as Tsuna doesn't show many emotions. By the way, does this have a word for it? I feel as though there is another word for his anxiety? I could be wrong but I wouldn't know haha.

2: Tsuna doesn't realize that what his parents did was abuse. Remember, the only contact he's had with the outside were his parents. He thinks, this is how parents are supposed to be like. This is how you're supposed to raise a kid. Sure he remembers the way they raised Giotto but remember, he was only –what five? Something like that. But with his parents constantly calling his names and shouting verbal abuse, he thinks that they're different ways of raising a kid. Giotto got his because he was smart, he got his because he was dumb. That's how he thinks.

3: A notice to this: "It's my fault. I almost got them killed. They're better off without me. I'm better off gone. I'm a burden. I hurt them. I'm useless. I'd be better off dead." In the way they were put, with enters between them, it wasn't necessary to put the periods. But I put them in to show that Tsuna is absolutely certain that he is true in these thoughts. He completely sure that they want him gone and I just wanted to put this to show that it is going to be very hard to change his thought.

4: Trying to slow down the process of Giotto x Tsuna. Obviously, it's going to be brotherly first and then to romantic love.

5: Speaking of romance, this is NOT an ALL27. As much as I occasionally like it, I had decided long ago to rid of it.

PLEASE REVIEW WHAT YOU WISH TO HAVE AS SIDE PAIRING:

8059 (Takeshi x Hayato) is going to happen so don't bother to review if you want it or not! I promised to the reviewer who correctly answered the last chapters challenge correctly that instead of a one-shot, I would be putting it in this fanfiction!

(By the way, the answer to who Dash, Sal, and Dan were based off of was Bro -Or Dirk, either could work-, Cal, and Dave from Homestuck! You caught me in a weeaboo Homestuck period of me muttering buckets and giggling with my friends -_-' The story behind them…uh…well any Homestucks out there know how complicated Homestuck is so I can't…explain it…But I really recommend Homestuck! and yes that wacky ass boy with no arms is a part of Homestuck. That's the first page of Homestuck and the home screen.)

Any and all side pairings mentioned in comments as a check will be placed in a review poll (Only review, sorry. No poll on my profile will appear! Guests are allowed to vote!)

Rules for side pairing poll (I'll rewrite this on the poll review chapter)

1: Though guests are allowed, no changing your guest name and reviewing you side pair constantly. If so, I will change it to a profile poll, no guests allowed.

2: No side pairings with Tsuna involved

3: If it's my absolute NOTP, I won't do it. Sorry but I just…don't write my notp. I'll say if it is my notp.

And that's just about it I believe! And because I'm a superstitious person (somewhat), I'll say, until next update because every time I promise to update soon…you get it. Really sorry the A/N is just about as long as the fanfiction!

So, until next update!