Hey Guys and Girls its FantasyGirl here :)

So i recently watched the Roswell series again and forgot home much i loved it

so decided to have a play around with my own story have a read and let me know what you think, if you havnt seen Roswell you may not be able to keep up with everything

Love you all

xoxox

(P.S ITS ALL Liz's POV)

Dear Journal

Its been a long time since I wrote in here so I will go through what has happened in the last few weeks.

Max, Isabel, Michael and Tess, took Nasedo to the pod chamber where they found out the meaning of the stones they found, it was to show them a message from Max and Isabel's mother. It told them who they were and what they were to each other. Max the King of Antar, Tess his wife, Isabel is sister and Michael her husband along with Max's second in command. It has here I realised there was no place for me here, he had his destiny so I ran, I left the love of my life in the pod chamber with his wife and I ran.

I went away for the summer hoping that when I came back things would have changed but they hadn't Max wanted to be with me and he wasn't accepting his destiny. I told him many times that it could not and would not happen but he still persisted. That was until I got a visit from future Max, he came to get me to change the future. A future where Tess left, Michael and Isabel were died only myself and Max remained. I had to get him to fall out of love with me so that when war came they would be prepared, I had to get Max and Tess together to do that.

So we tried different plans until we did one that worked, I got Kyle to lay in bed with me naked so that when Max came he would see us and think the worst, it worked and it truly broke my heart to see his face. The plan worked but by doing this I gave up what I could have had, a future with Max, we got married in Vegas, in the Elvis chapel, it wasn't my idea of the perfect wedding but I was married to Max so the idea was great but I could never have that now, he would be with Tess and I would be alone. Future Max faded into nothing as he didn't have his future to go home to.

Things were hard beyond compare, I had to watch as Max and Tess got closer and it ripped my heart out, but I had to remember what Future Max had told me and I knew it needed to happen.

It was around this time that I started getting sick, I would wake from horrid dreams, I felt light headed and weak, my body would be burning one moment then freezing the next. This continued on for 2 weeks before the green current started. I woke up one night after the worst dream I had since they started

I was alone in a dark room, it was the size of a football field the windows where open blowing a cold breeze into the empty room, the moon shinning through gives off the only light in the darkness,

I look down at myself and notice I am wearing the same white dress, it flows to the floor, think silk covering my body, backless and a thin strap round my neck coving my chest, it really is beautiful, my hair is hanging lose around my shoulders

I know he is there before he speaks, he is always here the same room, every dream

"I've been waiting awhile for you, Liz" his voice is always husky and a heavy accent that I could not place

"who are you ?" I gasp, as I feel his breath on the back of my neck, it sends warm shivers down my body, my hands are sweating, my breath coming in short pants and I lean my head back into him

"you know who I am, my love" he whispers as he places soft open mouthed kissed down my neck, causing my knees to go weak as my body falls back into his, his arms circle my waist and he continues to kiss me

"of course I do" I whisper and turn to face him, his sandy blonde hair combed back, his dark blue eyes boring into mine, his pale skin with a tint of colour in his checks, his lips forming the most beautiful smile, he is dressed in a black suit with and silk red shirt under, buttoned up till just past his navel, showing his perfect chest

He runs one hand down my side until it rests on my hip the other is cupping my face as he leans his lips down to mine, and lays the softest of kisses on them

"say my name" he whispers against my check, I gasp and push myself up against him, his warm spreading into me

"Kivar" I moan

And that is usually when I wake up, panicked and scared to find myself alone in my room.

But that night I woke up and was shaking, I gripped my hands together and there was green sparks running across my skin, it started in my hands but the more I panic the more it spreads across my entire body. Once I was able to calm myself down it stopped but the moment I start to think about the dream again it will starts.

Since that night I have been practising with it, I wanted to know more about it, I assume it is due to Max healing me I have been changed, which would mean that Kyle is going to go through the same thing. I can make it start on command now, I can also push it from my body moving things or hitting them, usually they will blow up. I have also met someone who can help me more than anyone, she is the same as Tess and when I say the same I mean identical, her name is Ava she is from the New York pods, I think she may have been mixed up with Tess some how as she is kind and friendly if not a little distant from people, whilst Tess is a bitch to put it simple.

She ran away from her Michael and Isabel when they killed her Zan, he was the love of her life like Max is to me, and they killed him and said it was an accident, they wanted the control, so she mind warped them into believing she was killed and she ran.

I was in the desert practising one night when she came across me, she watched me for hours before making herself known. Once I had stopped freaking out as she looked like Tess, she told me everything about the New York aliens, I told her about the Roswell Aliens. She has been here for about 3 weeks now, and she has been showing me how to control my gift and use it to protect myself. She is living in an abandoned hunting shied, I bring her things she needs and we sit and talk for hours, she understands how I feel, and hopes that I don't hate her when I see her as she looks like Tess but I know her and they are nothing alike. She doesn't want the others to know about her and I agree they will just think she is threat and try to kill her, so they don't know where I go on my practice nights and I don't think they will any time soon.

I haven't told anyone about the dreams of my gift, I don't know why but I just can not find it in me to tell them, they seem to want nothing to do with me any more, and Maria is always with Michael so she is out of the question, so I do it alone, maybe it is best as myself and Max can not even be in the same room without wanting to run. He hates me for 'sleeping' with Kyle and I can not bare the pain of seeing him with Tess.

Alex still comes by to see me when he is not with Isabel, he knows that something is different about me but doesn't know what. He says that he misses me, that I never see them any more but he understands why its hard for me. I may not have told him about my dreams or about my gift but I did tell him about future Max and the sleeping with Kyle plan, so he understands why I can not be around the Aliens, as they are always together.

When I have a shift in the crash-down with Maria she makes small talk but I can tell she finds it hard to talk to me, as for Michael he never really spoke to me before and that hasn't changed he knows what I 'did' of course Max would tell him but I don't think its made any change with him, I have never been one of his 'friends' he simply put up with me for Max and then Maria.

Tonight is the high school Prom, everyone will be there, they will be dancing and laughing and remembering the years they have spent together, but I will be in the desert practising my gift with Ava, I think she wanted to go and show me the stars tonight, she said you can see a planet that can be seen from Antar as well it is the only star that can be seen by both.

So I will write again soon

Liz Parker