Letters To Zander

-Disclaimer: I do not own How To Rock or any of the characters.

BASED FROM LETTERS TO MADISON ON QUOTEV.

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Dear Zander,

So this is where my letters begin.

You've been together with Kacey for 3 months now. I'm sorry I didn't go to the celebration party, I have my reasons. I love you, Z. I have for a while. Seeing you with Kacey hurts, and I can't see that. I know I'm the worst best friend for not supporting you, but that's why. Best friends. That's all we'll ever be.

Today I got some lifechanging news. I have cancer. Yep, you read it correctly. I started getting symptoms a while back, but thought it was nothing. A few weeks ago I went to the doctors to see what it was, he done a few tests and they got back today. They're going to try everything they can to get rid of it, Zander. I don't want to tell you, I don't want you to see me as anything more as Stevie Baskara, your best friend. Not Stevie Baskara, your best friend who has cancer. I know you'd want me to stay strong, so that's what I'm gonna do. I'll act like I'm okay, for the benefit of you... And Gravity 5. Mainly you.

Love,

Stevie

I closed the book of my diary and locked it in my bedside table. I leant my head back against my wall and shut my eyes. Darkness, it's so peaceful.

Try to get used to it Stevie.

"stop thinking like that," I whispered angrily to myself. I wasn't giving up.

"Stevie, honey?" My mom opened the door, a pityful look on her face, "its time to go to hospital."

I sighed and got up, texting Nelson that I'm sorry I couldnt make it to rehearsals. I'd tell Zander, but he's probably busy with Kacey.

"Coming." I sighed.

"Hey Steviekins where were you yesterday?" Zander asked me the following morning in school.

"Um, I went out with my mom. She kinda forced me." It was sort of true, she forced me to go to the hospital when i really didnt want to.

"Okay," he looked convinced. We fell silent then and I looked around our practice room. Nelson and Kevin were asleep on the floor and Kacey hadn't arrived yet. I sat near Zander on the sofa. He lightly patted my back and leaned back, gesturing for me to lie next to him.

I blushed slightly, I hadn't done that since he started dating Kacey.

"Sorry I'm not tired," I lied. He frowned but just shrugged and closed his eyes.

If only you knew, I thought.

I felt myself sigh, which was obviously quite loud as Kevin twitched a little from his position on the floor. I jumped as Zander sat up.

"What's up?" He asked. I shook my head.

"Nothing."

"Don't lie to me Stevie I know you better than anyone." He pointed out.

"I'm completely fine,"

"Damn it, no you're not! Come on Steves! I trust you with everything," He whined. I considered telling him, but Kacey pushed the door open.

"Hey boo!" She squealed, kissing Zander on the cheek and flinging her back over Nelson's keyboard. I scoffed and rolled my eyes. I could just about see the smirk appear on Zander's face.

"Brb," Kacey said, skipping back out the door.

"You don't like Kacey," Zander laughed.

"Yes, I do like her. I dont like the way she acts at times." I confessed, crossing my arms.

"Stevie Baskara, are you jealous?" He said.

"No, Zander Robbins, I am not." I felt my cheeks heat up for the second time.

"Stevie's jealous of Kacey, Stevie's jealous of Kacey!" He chanted, pumping his fists in the air. I wanted to deny it, but it was true.

"You know what? I am. I'm jealous of Kacey. She's always happy and healthy, she gets everything she wants and has everyone wrapped round her little finger." I shouted, picking up my bag. Zander's mouth hung open a little.

"Stevie wait-" he started, but I was already out the door.

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Wow guess who's commited herself to writing ANOTHER chapter fic?! Me!

I promise I'll try to update as much as I can.

& i just started watching HTR. I ship Zevie. Review because it's cool.