When You Love Someone
****Note: I don't own anything but the plot. Please enjoy and review cause I'd love to hear from you. Thanks!****
As quietly as a mouse she crept down the stairs, years of training and climbing these stairs allowed her to do so even in the dark. She wasn't suppose to be up but she'd left one of her shoes downstairs and she didn't want Jakken to have another excuse to yell at her more then he already did. Hearing talking Rin pulled back into the shadows and sucked in her stomach as much as possible. This was so much easier when she was little Rin thought with regret. Boy did it suck to grow up. Careful to lessen her breathing Rin moved slightly out of the shadows to look down the stairway. Their was a light in the throne room and the voices were coming from in there. Carefully walking the rest of the way down she kept ready to move in case whoever was in the room came out. Pushing back her bangs Rin sent up a prayer and tip toeing across the floor prepared to go past the door. Backing up she took off at a run and just as she moved past the door did a back flip so that she went sailing past the door and out of sight if someone had opened the door at the moment. Landing without a sound Rin moved towards the door to make sure no one was coming to let her have it. Hearing no one coming she was just about to leave when she recognized her name on her Master's lips. Was he talking about her? Leaning closer Rin struggled to make out the conversation.
"But what are we to do about Rin Master?" Jakken asked with a note of exasperation. "She cannot be here when the other demons arrive."
"Where am I suppose to send her Jakken?" Shesshomaru said as he waved his hands in exasperation though it didn't show on his face. "There are many who wish me harm and would not hesitate to use her against me."
"But she cannot stay here. She was enough of a problem when she was a child but she's not a girl anymore Master. Many question what she is to you and say she is your mistress. If she's here while the demons visit then they will assume that that is what she is." Jakken said looking at his Master sadly. "You'll never find a mate if you keep the girl."
"Rin stays, that's final." Shesshomaru said with a note of finality. "I will figure out what to do with Rin but she stays."
"But Master, keeping her is a disgrace upon your name. If you don't watch it you'll lose your status and be reduced to being treated like Yasha." Jakken said with a note of desperation. "She's not worth it."
"Silence. Leave now Jakken before I kill you for daring to speak to me like that." Shesshomaru said, his voice filled with ice and promise of dire consequences if provoked further.
"Yes Master." Jakken said bowing before his master before leaving through the south door, leaving his master with his thoughts.
What am I to do? Shesshomaru wondered to himself as he sat down. He refused to give up Rin, she was his and no one was going to take her from him. But people believed that she was his mistress, when had he sank so low in the other demon's esteem? He was lord over the West, he was a great and powerful demon, not to be toyed with or taken lightly. Who in their right minds would think that he'd lower himself to mate with a human, and Rin at that. She was just a child. No she isn't a little voice inside his head reminded him as he pictured her in his mind. She'd been with him for over ten years now and she was no longer the child she'd been. She was old enough to find a mate Shesshomaru realized, most girls her age did. Kagome had become Inu-yasha's mate when she was eighteen, the age Rin was now. Where had all the time gone Shesshomaru wondered wearily. Maybe Jakken was right for once, maybe it was time to let her go.
Rin felt tears well in her eyes as she saw the dejected look on her Master's face. He was upset because of her Rin thought with tears rolling down her cheeks as she noiselessly let them fall. Moving away from the door she moved on to the study and opening the door walked inside and carefully shut it behind her.
"I didn't know I was causing my Master so much trouble staying here." She whispered as she leaned up against the oak doors. She loved her Master more then anything else in the world and she'd rather die then cause him a moment of trouble. What have I done Rin thought wiping her tears away. Here I thought my Master benefited from my company and help, but all she'd brought him was grief. She'd known that several of the servants believed she was Master's mistress but she hadn't known that the other demons believed it too. Never mind that he treated her as his pup when he actually showed her affection she didn't see how anyone could come to the conclusion that she was his mate. Not that she'd mind if she was Rin thought bitterly, but she'd given up on that years ago. She'd thought about going to the well many times but when her master had heard her idea to wish to become a demon like him he'd forbidden it and made her swear never to do it. After all she would still have been born a human, and a human she would stay in his eyes until the day she died. Why oh why couldn't she have been born a demon, then she wouldn't be a black mark on Master's name and he and Jakken would be proud to call her theirs. But tears and wishing didn't do anything more then give false hope. She would no longer be a burden on her Master, she would do him that service. She would leave his company so that he might be happy.
"Even if it breaks my heart to leave you Shesshomaru I will do it for you. After all, when you love someone as much as I love you, your willing to do whatever it takes to make them happy. Including leaving them."
Rin looked both ways before edging closer to the balcony. It had been two weeks since she'd overheard Jakken and Master talking and she'd planned her escape down to a T. Edging closer she looked both ways before leaving her shelter to sprint to the balcony. Her Master and most of the servants were downstairs preparing to greet and serve his guest and Shesshomaru had locked her in her room with orders to stay put. But I'm afraid that that's one order that I cannot follow Master Rin thought sadly. Standing on the balcony Rin looked back behind her and sighed. Dark and depressing though it was this building had been her home for as long as she could remember and there were good memories stored in these walls. Squaring her shoulders she silently bid farewell to her old life. Good bye Shesshomaru Rin thought as a single tear rolled down her cheek. I will love you until the day I die. Good bye Jakken, we had some good times, and I am sorry for all the trouble I've caused you over the years. With another sigh she turned back to the balcony and swinging over the side began to climb down. Having been practicing all week she managed to find the foot holes she'd created and when she was almost there she let go and landed with a slight thud on the ground. Looking up she congratulated herself on an escape well done. Now all I have to figure out is how I'm suppose to live the rest of my life without Shesshomaru. Sticking out her chin she squared her shoulder and quickly made her way towards the steps and to her new life. A life of misery and sadness without her Master.
****Hi ya. Now it was short but I'm not sure exactly how to proceed so I decided to put this up and hope for suggestions. Please give me any suggestions and I'll try to continue this fic when I've got a better grasp on how to proceed. Thanks and hope you like so far.****
****Note: I don't own anything but the plot. Please enjoy and review cause I'd love to hear from you. Thanks!****
As quietly as a mouse she crept down the stairs, years of training and climbing these stairs allowed her to do so even in the dark. She wasn't suppose to be up but she'd left one of her shoes downstairs and she didn't want Jakken to have another excuse to yell at her more then he already did. Hearing talking Rin pulled back into the shadows and sucked in her stomach as much as possible. This was so much easier when she was little Rin thought with regret. Boy did it suck to grow up. Careful to lessen her breathing Rin moved slightly out of the shadows to look down the stairway. Their was a light in the throne room and the voices were coming from in there. Carefully walking the rest of the way down she kept ready to move in case whoever was in the room came out. Pushing back her bangs Rin sent up a prayer and tip toeing across the floor prepared to go past the door. Backing up she took off at a run and just as she moved past the door did a back flip so that she went sailing past the door and out of sight if someone had opened the door at the moment. Landing without a sound Rin moved towards the door to make sure no one was coming to let her have it. Hearing no one coming she was just about to leave when she recognized her name on her Master's lips. Was he talking about her? Leaning closer Rin struggled to make out the conversation.
"But what are we to do about Rin Master?" Jakken asked with a note of exasperation. "She cannot be here when the other demons arrive."
"Where am I suppose to send her Jakken?" Shesshomaru said as he waved his hands in exasperation though it didn't show on his face. "There are many who wish me harm and would not hesitate to use her against me."
"But she cannot stay here. She was enough of a problem when she was a child but she's not a girl anymore Master. Many question what she is to you and say she is your mistress. If she's here while the demons visit then they will assume that that is what she is." Jakken said looking at his Master sadly. "You'll never find a mate if you keep the girl."
"Rin stays, that's final." Shesshomaru said with a note of finality. "I will figure out what to do with Rin but she stays."
"But Master, keeping her is a disgrace upon your name. If you don't watch it you'll lose your status and be reduced to being treated like Yasha." Jakken said with a note of desperation. "She's not worth it."
"Silence. Leave now Jakken before I kill you for daring to speak to me like that." Shesshomaru said, his voice filled with ice and promise of dire consequences if provoked further.
"Yes Master." Jakken said bowing before his master before leaving through the south door, leaving his master with his thoughts.
What am I to do? Shesshomaru wondered to himself as he sat down. He refused to give up Rin, she was his and no one was going to take her from him. But people believed that she was his mistress, when had he sank so low in the other demon's esteem? He was lord over the West, he was a great and powerful demon, not to be toyed with or taken lightly. Who in their right minds would think that he'd lower himself to mate with a human, and Rin at that. She was just a child. No she isn't a little voice inside his head reminded him as he pictured her in his mind. She'd been with him for over ten years now and she was no longer the child she'd been. She was old enough to find a mate Shesshomaru realized, most girls her age did. Kagome had become Inu-yasha's mate when she was eighteen, the age Rin was now. Where had all the time gone Shesshomaru wondered wearily. Maybe Jakken was right for once, maybe it was time to let her go.
Rin felt tears well in her eyes as she saw the dejected look on her Master's face. He was upset because of her Rin thought with tears rolling down her cheeks as she noiselessly let them fall. Moving away from the door she moved on to the study and opening the door walked inside and carefully shut it behind her.
"I didn't know I was causing my Master so much trouble staying here." She whispered as she leaned up against the oak doors. She loved her Master more then anything else in the world and she'd rather die then cause him a moment of trouble. What have I done Rin thought wiping her tears away. Here I thought my Master benefited from my company and help, but all she'd brought him was grief. She'd known that several of the servants believed she was Master's mistress but she hadn't known that the other demons believed it too. Never mind that he treated her as his pup when he actually showed her affection she didn't see how anyone could come to the conclusion that she was his mate. Not that she'd mind if she was Rin thought bitterly, but she'd given up on that years ago. She'd thought about going to the well many times but when her master had heard her idea to wish to become a demon like him he'd forbidden it and made her swear never to do it. After all she would still have been born a human, and a human she would stay in his eyes until the day she died. Why oh why couldn't she have been born a demon, then she wouldn't be a black mark on Master's name and he and Jakken would be proud to call her theirs. But tears and wishing didn't do anything more then give false hope. She would no longer be a burden on her Master, she would do him that service. She would leave his company so that he might be happy.
"Even if it breaks my heart to leave you Shesshomaru I will do it for you. After all, when you love someone as much as I love you, your willing to do whatever it takes to make them happy. Including leaving them."
Rin looked both ways before edging closer to the balcony. It had been two weeks since she'd overheard Jakken and Master talking and she'd planned her escape down to a T. Edging closer she looked both ways before leaving her shelter to sprint to the balcony. Her Master and most of the servants were downstairs preparing to greet and serve his guest and Shesshomaru had locked her in her room with orders to stay put. But I'm afraid that that's one order that I cannot follow Master Rin thought sadly. Standing on the balcony Rin looked back behind her and sighed. Dark and depressing though it was this building had been her home for as long as she could remember and there were good memories stored in these walls. Squaring her shoulders she silently bid farewell to her old life. Good bye Shesshomaru Rin thought as a single tear rolled down her cheek. I will love you until the day I die. Good bye Jakken, we had some good times, and I am sorry for all the trouble I've caused you over the years. With another sigh she turned back to the balcony and swinging over the side began to climb down. Having been practicing all week she managed to find the foot holes she'd created and when she was almost there she let go and landed with a slight thud on the ground. Looking up she congratulated herself on an escape well done. Now all I have to figure out is how I'm suppose to live the rest of my life without Shesshomaru. Sticking out her chin she squared her shoulder and quickly made her way towards the steps and to her new life. A life of misery and sadness without her Master.
****Hi ya. Now it was short but I'm not sure exactly how to proceed so I decided to put this up and hope for suggestions. Please give me any suggestions and I'll try to continue this fic when I've got a better grasp on how to proceed. Thanks and hope you like so far.****