For those reading Secrets Revealed - life is very hectic and if I write one of those chapters I want to giv you guys a good one. I have not quit on you I promise. I just got inspired for a quick short fic seeing as how I'm kind of having Castle withdrawals lol

Untouchable

Castle and Beckett were sitting on their swings. Beckett had called him, she needed to tell him. Needed to tell him about the job offer from the F.B.I she was most likely going to take in D.C. They needed to discuss so much. For one she needed to know where they were going in their relationship. She thought she wanted more and wondered if he knew that she did. Though, he never asked and when she did he didn't give her the answer she wanted. She needed an answer, but right now she needed to tell him about D.C.

Castle spoke first surprising and almost shocking her when he started to explain in a voice weighted with importance that he wanted more. He went on to say that they both deserved more out of their relationship. She slowly and agreed, wondering why he chose this moment to tell her this. The moment she was about to unload the news that she wanted to take a job in another state.

Castle then proceeded to get down on one knee, "Katherine Houghton Beckett. Will you marry me?" Terror and shock ran through Kate's body. Suddenly, she wanted to return to her old ways and leave, run, but instead she sat frozen her mind whirring with thoughts too fast to comprehend. She wanted more, right? She needed this, but it was just too much to comprehend right now.

She felt horrid as she looked down to her hands and then met his eyes, "Castle…I…I -"

Castle seemed prepared for this reaction as he lowered the ring from her view, "- You don't have to say anything. I understand Kate. I know you. It's okay, really." He pocketed the ring with a face strewn with disappointment and rejection as she looked on with a knotted stomach and trembling hands.

Castle stood, "What did you want to tell me?"

She swallowed her tears and tried her damndest to build her walls as to become untouchable, like she could do with everyone else. Though, she wasn't immune to him. She had opened the door and allowed him inside past her walls. Instead of pushing him away like everyone else in her life she had needed his touch. She looked down quickly remembering the night her walls had fallen down before him. Remembering face saving promises whispered like prayers and how he had washed away all the darkness. Remembered on this very swing she had realized, she needed him.

A tear escaped and rolled down her cheek, "I want to take the job offer in D.C. I think it will be good for me."

Castle inhaled and nodded as he looked away and then back into a tear stained face. He nodded, "So, you are serious about this then. Fine, alright." Castle's face was stern, as he held in the anger. She was running again, leaving like she always use too. "Well I hope you are happy there Kate." Castle turned and started to walk away.

She started to call out his name and then stopped as she watched him leave and sunk farther into what had become her swing as she succumb to more tears inhaling she closed her eyes and as she exhaled a shaky breath accompanied with an ironic sad smile. It had grown late and the park was silently still. She wiped at her face quickly and stood and started walking to catch a cab. Her strangled heart made it hard to think never mind breath. Though, she couldn't marry him. What if something went wrong? She could never break that promise to Castle. What if their love died out? So many what ifs?

Castle walked into the loft and Martha greeted him, "Hello dear, how was work today? Well I wouldn't really call it work it's not like you are a cop." She hadn't noticed he hadn't even paused to acknowledge her, but walked straight to his room.

The next morning Kate found herself at the airport waiting on her flight to D.C. She had done everything she needed to do to make it to the top. They wanted her and so she had called and they had even booked her flight for her. So, now here, she sat in the terminal waiting for her flight to be called.

Castle woke to a note on the kitchen counter from his mother, "Went shopping and met some old friends, be back tonight dear. Oh, Alexis came by yesterday to surprise you, but she had to leave. She left a can of whipped cream in the fridge for you. Love your dearest Mother"

Castle threw the note away and smiled sadly, of course Alexis had to leave yesterday. Everyone else did, what difference did it make?

Soon Beckett found herself putting her carry on in the compartment above her and sliding past the first two seats to her window seat. She looked out the window at the tarmac and waited for the rest of the passengers to be seated as well. Drawing in a deep breath she then let out a long shaky one. She looked up as a teenage girl who immediately stuck in headphones sat down next to her and not long after a large business man sat in the isle seat.

Beckett looked back out the window as the captain announced they were going to be taking off and to shut off your cell phones. Soon she began to roll down the runway and Beckett thought of another flight a happier flight that she and Castle had been on together. They were on their way home from California to New York while she read the letter that her training officer, Royce, had written to her. The letter ended with Royce saying, "It was clear she and Castle had something real and she was fighting it. But putting the job ahead of her heart was a mistake. That risking our hearts is why we're alive. The last thing she wanted was to look back on her life and wonder. If Only."

The words hit her hard making her stomach knot up even tighter. She pursed her lips as she fought the gloss that she wanted to let spill, but knew never would in such a public place. She was now untouchable. No one could reach her here. She was fine. She was on her way to becoming what she had always wanted to be.

Though, in the back of her mind a small, yet clear voice taunted and haunted her assaulting her with memories she knew would haunt her dreams as well. A voice she knew deep down would be with her, always.

I have more if you want it? lmk...bc we all want to know how it ends ;)