Hi everyone! I haven't written a thing for a long time, but this story has been in my head since always. Let me know if you like it. Should I continue?

English isn't my mother tongue, so if you see any mistakes, let me know!

Disclaimer: Castle and song Shattered aren't mine!

"Shattered"

And I've lost who I am,

and I can't understand

Why my heart is so broken,

rejecting your love, without,

love gone wrong; lifeless words carry on

But I know, all I know's that the end's beginning

who I am from the start,

take me home to my heart

Let me go and I will run,

I will not be silent, all this time

spent in vain; wasted years wasted gain

All is lost but hope remains and this war's not over

"Why me? What did I do? Why is somebody trying to kill me?" Emily Reese asks her with broken voice. Beckett is trying to hold herself together watching this vulnerable girl with watery eyes. Although she's falling through.

"Emily, have you seen anybody watching you lately?" Kate barely manages to ask. She feels that her self-control is close to an end.

"What? I don't know, I don't know." Emily chockes.

"We got to get her to the hospital." EMT cuts in and starts to move a journey, but the woman takes a hold of Beckett's arm and pleads her: " No! Don't let them take me outside! He's still out there!"

Kate knows that fear very well, she struggles with it almost every day. Sometimes, fear of going out of her apartment is almost impossible to overcome.

"No, you're going to be okay Emily." Beckett reassures. Like that kind of talking would help... "Please don't do this! He's still out there. He's going to kill me!" Emily still screams.

That's it. Beckett loses it. "Just go! Get her out of here now! Go!" She can't watch this woman any longer, it's too close to home. Too much like her. Way too much... She must hide so she starts to run. She pretends, that screams of Emily and Castle calling her name are inaudible to her. And maybe they are...

She runs into some deserted corridor reserved only for stuff of the hotel. She doesn't care if she can be here or not. She just has to hide and let go. Her jacket is suffocating her so Kate gets it off. Her badge following soon after. But that doesn't help anyways. Tough detective slumps on the floor sobbing with hopelessness. This pain... It's worse than any physical one... She just... Can't.

Rick Castle stands there alone in a lobby. He's at lost. He doesn't know what to do. Beckett ran away from him. She hid from him. It hurts. Kate is a mess and he wants to help. But he also knows that his help will be rejected. She's too proud to take it. Unfortunately... So all he can do is wait.

After 5 minutes he's had enough, though. Screw her walls! Rick Castle is not a man who watches the love of his life hurt and does nothing! Period.

She can't stop crying. She can't stop shaking. She can't have a tad of control over her damaged body and soul. Fucking PTSD! It's supposed to be 'soldiers only' disease! Why it hurts so much when there's no blood and all the scars are healed!?

"Beckett...? Kate? Are you in there?"

Oh no... Oh, Castle, no...

She tries to reassure him that she's fine, that there's nothing to be worry about and to leave her alone. She really tries. But when she opens her mouth only one more agonizing sob comes out.

The door opens in a flash. She doesn't even have time to blink when she's pulled in a hug. A great one. A secure one. The hug. Castle flavoured. And suddenly everything is better. Not entirely, but enough to stop the shaking.

So...?

PS. I don't even start talking 'bout Watershed... Don't have enough time.