THE OUTSIDER

by Iland Girl

'for those in search of home.'

A Fullmetal Alchemist Fanfiction

I don't own anybody but Erin... for now...

Prologue: Sacrifice

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
―Dr. Seuss

I had made a promise.

And I planned on keeping it.

I really did, right up to the very end. I intended to see Ed and Al in their rightful bodies, to wish Ling luck as he became emperor of Xing I wanted to taste Winry's apple pie. She'd been practicing for some time now, trying to get it just right. I wanted to see Al's face as he ate that apple pie for the first time. To taste trifle for the first time. I wanted to meet this girlfriend of Bray's, I wanted to know if my brother was in good hands. Did he love her? Did she love him? Why didn't I ask that before?

I wanted Ed to hold me again.

Guess that isn't happening.

Father was right all along, I pushed and I pushed and I eventually caved under the pressure of it all. I wasn't fit for this world, I wasn't fit to survive here.

And so I would die here.

I had things I wanted to do though. I had come so damn far, and now I couldn't even lift my damn arm to wipe blood off my face. Was this my blood? I was bleeding an awful lot. Was he okay? Did I do a good job?

Dammit, I wish I had the chance to learn Alkahestry. I wanted to visit Xing, see the place Ling and Lan Fan talked about, their home. I wanted to stifle giggles as Ling had to act seriously when he's crowned Emperor. He'll do it, I know he will. He'll make his clan proud.

"Ed… Al… Don't…"

You have so much to live for, so many people counting on you.

Sorry.

Sorry I couldn't help you anymore. I'm sorry I couldn't do better. I'm sorry I lied to you, made you promises I couldn't keep.

I told you the truth once though, you're the strongest people I've ever met, and if there's anyone who can fix this, it's both of you.

Everything wasn't hurting anymore- is that a good thing? I mean if I'm going to die I'd rather not be in intense pain. In fact I felt light, weightless. With the strong sensation that I wasn't going away, but rather coming home.

Home.

Where is that?

Ling.

Winry.

Alphonse.

Bray.

"Don't worry…. About… me…"

Edward.

I'm so sorry.

I lied, so don't worry.

Don't worry about the Outsider.

Author's Note!

Hello and welcome to the updated version of The Outsider! I am hoping to update once per week unless otherwise stated. I will be posting another chapter this Friday, so please review! It seriously motivates me! Also a huge thank you to everyone who has reviewed. You're all too kind.

For anyone concerned that this story will be different, well it will be, but at it's core it will remain the same. Our lovely protagonist will be slightly different, but not a lot. In fact I think she is almost verbatum the same, just a bit more 3 dimensional to start.

The plot may be significantly different, but that's because I have more understanding of what i want from this book. I've outlined roughly where everyone goes, and have all chapter outlines done for this book!

Also, something to keep in mind, i started this story BEFORE I even knew there was a second anime. So I was heavily influenced by the first anime before, but i've since watched the entire FMAB and it has honestly changed a lot about the story. FMAB just made me realize it could be SO MUCH BIGGER! So yeah, there will be elements from both anime's, and unfortuntately I have not read the manga and don't really care to. I prefer anime anyway and the generic outline of the story will follow FMAB with a separate story arc for Erin.

So yeah, even if you have read the entirety before, I think you'll like this new update!

This story is dedicated for all those Outsiders out there looking for Home. Let's go on a journey together to find Erin's.

Thank you and see you Friday!

Iland Girl