Fading Away

Background Song: Main Theme (Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni OST) Duration of the Song: 3:09 Characters: Michelangelo, Raphael, Donatello, Leonardo, Splinter Genre: Tragedy/Family Summary: Nothing but a full of lies in Michelangelo's mind. Always abused, hurt, mocked and laughed at. Always in their shadows and is never accepted by anyone. One day, he ran away...

Question Quote:

"You have the right to be independent The difficult part is letting go You have the right to choose your own decision The difficult part is thinking whether its right or wrong

You have the right to run away The difficult part is never turning back You have the right to leave a horrible life The difficult part is that it will come back to haunt you in your dreams

I, too, have the right to pursue happiness The difficult part is fulfilling it

So tell me What's the easy part in there?"

-Meisaki Hasaki

Nothing but a full lies filled in Michelangelo's mind. Always abused, hurt, mocked and laughed at. Always in their shadows and is never accepted by anyone. He doesn't deserve this life

Why is it like this?

As they grew up, their bonds cracked like a fortune cookie and their love was tainted like ink spilling on paper. Only Michelangelo has full of love left. No matter how he tries to love his brothers back, it always ends up in mockery, abused wounds or wounds in words. It's like they say, "Words hurt."

Everyday, it would always end the same: they would mock him, hurt him in the slightest ways, or laugh at him for being stupid. At night, this would end up in tears on the corner of Michelangelo's eyes. He would toss and turn, recalling all the wounds, mockery and laughs he received. And every time the next day comes, he would hide in his pillow, tears forming more and more each day.

It was all too painful.

The only thing he had left to tell his secrets was his journal. He wouldn't call it a diary because it's embarrassing. Rather, it's called a journal. Day after day, he would right all the mockery and wounds he got from his brothers and most of the time, their father.

"Stupid..."

"Asshole..."

"Liability..."

The words that would never let go in his mind. It was all too painful to be true.

"Useless..."

"Mistake..."

"Worthless..."

If Master Splinter is the sensei, Leonardo is the leader, Raphael is the muscle, and Donatello is the genius, what is Michelangelo now?

The punching bag of the family.

That's what he thought.

Silently, he took the journal and opened it. Today was worse. Now that Raphael worked out even more, his little brother is bleeding on his cheek already and his arm twisted. Luckily, Michelangelo is a lefty so no problem in writing at all.

Sighing, he took out his pen and wrote:

Dear journal,

Today was the same...but much worse.

To make it up to them, I decided to bake some cookies. But when Raph tasted it, he beat me to a pulp already. And now what happened? Blood soon came out of my freckles and they mocked me for being naive.

Journal, I don't know what to do anymore. All lost respect one me. Even April. I thought she was my human friend when all along, she's with them. You are only what I have left, journal. I wish Leatherhead came back. But no. He's still in Dimension X and...we can't save him already.

When patrol came again, I ran to my room, shut my door, leaned on it, sat on the floor and cried. This time, my arm twisted...but no worries, I'm a lefty so no problem at writing here already.

Journal, you are what I only have left to trust. If you are alive...I wish you're on my side. I don't have anyone to tell my secrets anymore except for you.

What do you think?

Should I run away from this to save my own life?

I'll think about it.

Signed, Mikey

Blood soon stained the page of what he wrote; some even covered parts of a word.

At least if they read it, they would clearly understand.

He took bandages from his cabinet and started wrapping his arm and cheek once again. Then, he proceeded to his bed again and cried.

The next day, he woke up again, sobbing. It's time for another beating again. Maybe if he hides in his room? Not a good idea. It would be easy for his brothers to find him. It's obvious.

Dojo?

Too obvious.

Running away?

Still thinking about it.

"What I'm going to do already? My life is nothing but pain, suffering and loneliness. When was the last time I was even happy? Our bonds are nothing but memories already. When will I finally be accepted?"he said to himself, hugging the old teddy bear he had. It was the only thing that made him remember the joy and freedom he had when he was a young kid. And now what happened, if you ask? A locked up life, filled with misery, sorrow, horror and pain.

As the clock rose to eight, he made his bed, put the old teddy bear on the clean bed and closed the door.

"Ow! I cut myself."Donatello exclaimed as he looked at his bleeding hand. He dropped the knife and went to the lab.

This hit Mikey.

Knife...wound...running...that's it! Why won't he end the pain already by running away and killing himself? This was a genius plan he had?

Or is it?

Quickly, he ran to the dojo and spotted the sharpest thing he could find: a kunai. It was the sharpest of all of Master Splinter's weapons.

"I just need to get it without anyone spotting me."

Carefully, he climbed at the ceiling. When he saw his father (now Master since he joined in with his other sons) walking to the kitchen for breakfast, Michelangelo landed in front of the door and slowly opened it.

He looked at the latest family picture. This broke him into tears; only Splinter, Leonardo, Donatello, Raphael and April appeared in the photo, no Michelangelo appeared. It's like they're seeing him as a real punching bag already.

Crawling, he took the keys that was hidden in his Master's bed and opened the weapons' closet.

There stood in front of him was the gateway to freedom: the sharpest kunai of all.

Let's see if they're sorry when I do this.

Once he heard footsteps, he closed the closet door, hid the keys under the pillow and disappeared using his ninja smoke bomb.

Not a single trace left.

Returning back to his room, he made a duffel bag, packed his journal and pen, left his nunchuks and mask, wrote a note, left it on his bed and sighed. He looked at the teddy bear on his bed. Carefully, he took it but held it with his arms. Walking a few steps back, he closed the door.

As his family laughed at a joke, Michelangelo sobbed. His family must be having a great time without him.

I'm just trash to them..am I?

Without looking back, he ran away, avoiding the tears on his face.

As night came, he felt somewhat...tired. He looked at the half moon and sighed. Then, he looked at the Central Park Zoo...maybe he will get attention for this.

Last chance for life, do it.

He ran through the streets and made it to Central Park; the place where his death bed is.

Michelangelo took out his stuff and gently laid them out. Before taking out the kunai, he wrote a song he found on the internet the other day. He used the translyrics instead to make things easier to read. He gently placed the teddy bear on his side. Next, he gathered flowers and sprinkled them around the corners of his death bed. Finally, he took out the kunai.

If he's going to rip his stomach, it's worth it.

He put a scar on his arm. Then, he ripped his stomach at once.

"Foolish turtle..."that's all he could hear.

Then, he collapsed to the ground and bled all around.

"I ran to the meadows and saw a mango Perfect to eat and perfect to drink But as I tried to pull the mango from the tree I came rolling from the ground, unable to stop myself from rolling

But by the seventh time I tried again,
I ended up in wounds and scratches

-Meisaki Hasaki

Okay guys, before you flame me that this is OOC, there's a secret ending. You'll have to find out yourself until Chapter 3 is posted.

In the mean time, I want to hear it from you guys first. This got me in when I read "The truth about the clown" fanfic by Raphangela. It broke my heart while reading and listening to the background song for this chapter. This was used in Higurashi Kai episode 1 when Rena now an adult remembered the good times she had with her friends and the horrible scene burned into her eyes her when she killed Rika in front of the Furude shrine...and maybe this was used in some other seasons in some episodes. This also got me hooked when I was searching in DA for pics in Culinary Alchemist's gallery and I saw three pictures: one with a sad Mikey and three brothers on a side of the pic that says "Do I disappoint you?", the next one was a sad Mikey but angry brothers, Splinter and April that says "I just want to make you smile" and the last one was when Mikey's stomach was bleeding and the thought said "Foolish Turtle". Thanks, Culinary Alchemist.

Meisaki Hasaki is my OC.

For those who are reading "When We Met", I'm still in the middle of Chapter 5.

So, what do you think?

UPDATED: I had to edit the asnwer quote because I thought this wasn't right...