The headlights were infecting the darkness of the car, the roar of the engine became deafening as it moved toward the vehicle in slow motion. My body subconsciously prepared itself as if it knew what was happening before my brain could transfer actions into thoughts. My muscles stiffened, and there was utter silence before the car crashed into her side. We were still looking at each other and then impact hit, I threw myself over her and screamed her name subconsciously, the car was spinning out of control, throwing our bodies around as if they were rag dolls. I remember waiting for my life to flash before my eyes, like it does in the movies, but nothing happened. All I remember were these blinding lights and deafening silence. I remember the look on her face; she looked calm. We were holding hands, did you know that? But when I threw myself over her our hands were torn away from each other, I think when the car stopped spinning I tried to find her hand, but I couldn't. I don't really remember anything immediately after that, I must have blacked out..

It was then really quiet, I opened my eyes but there was nothing, the kind of nothing that made me claustrophobic.

I managed to say her name, but I don't remember her saying anything back.

I focused my eyes on crimson red, before my eyes searched for Ziva

Everything was foggy and sticky.. I remember this because all I could smell was metal

There was a constant ringing in my ears, as if they were bleeding, it felt like someone was screaming, but I couldn't hear a thing though.

I couldn't move, but my body was shaking uncontrollably.

My face was damp – I'm not sure if it was blood or tears

I remember turning my head; I must have been lying down because my cheek was pressed up against something.

I could see the road - there was glass everywhere. But I couldn't see the other car, or Ziva..

I began calling her name repeatedly with my short stunted breath.

I turned my head again and laid it flat, I still couldn't see Ziva, I guess I started to panic.

It felt like I was lying down – did I mention that already?

I think I went into shock.. I was breathing so fast into my throat, and I was freezing

My hands searched for the seatbelt so I could find Ziva. I just could not find the seatbelt, or her.

It was eerily quiet even though I could hear sirens, I think they were sirens

All I clearly remember was saying her name over and over again.

I couldn't stop shaking. Then everything just stopped.