Phan Fic-

Based on "Long Live" by Taylor Swift

"Night Dan, I love and miss you a lot too."

Phil hung up the phone and placed it on his bedside table. He rolled onto his back and looked up at the ceiling and started to think. He had been busy all day with barely a moment to himself, though it had kept away the loneliness. As he drifted of to sleep he started to think about the past few years. They had been some of the best he had ever had .His memories flowed from meeting Dan, how it had almost been fate in a way and he was so glad that he had. How they became friends and he remembered being in bed at the start of 2010 , thinking about the end of the decade, how he had gained a new best friend. He wondered what the next one would be like for him and he did not know that it would be the start of an age, one of the best of his life. Then starting the radio show, he remembered how they had stood there with shaking hands, waiting for their names to be read off a card, announcing their first radio show being about to start. They watched the people going crazy on the internet and he couldn't believe how much they liked it. He knew from that moment more than ever that their lives would never be the same. It still shocked him when the crowds went wild for him at events like Playlist Live and the like, he wondered if it felt like what Kings and Queens must feel like. He remembered the normal things that he and Dan had done over the past few years, when they were just two friends ,fighting dragons on games and pretending to have magical powers, laughing at each others jokes, even the awful ones.

When Phil woke up he found himself scrolling through pictures of him and Dan from the past few years, remembering each and every feeling from each picture, trying to remember each moment as fully as he could. He looked at the earlier ones and remembered wishing for the life had he now. He looked at the most recent pictures they had taken from before Dan left. They were adorable and made Phil miss Dan more. He put his phone down and resigned himself to making breakfast alone, he needed to eat as he had a busy day himself. After he was done he spent an hour making his new video before hopping into the shower. He had to leave within an hour and hurriedly he dressed himself and sent a text to Dan before heading out.

Phil returned home late that night and ended up with a quick microwaved meal for his dinner. He flicked through the television channels for several minutes. It was until he was taken over by a large yawn that he realised how tired he was. A glance at the clock told him that it was almost 1 am and he realised happily that Dan would be home that day. As he climbed into bed he found himself thinking again. He thought about when both of their 1 million subscribers awards arrived at the same time, they took silly pictures of themselves holding them, lifting them like trophies. He remembered how the cynics were outraged at them earning what they had, commenting that it was absurd but Phil just ignored them, he knew that he had worked hard for every subscriber. He remembered the happier memories they had built up the past few weeks, he held onto memories of spinning around, watching London light up like a it was their own kingdom, the lights shining just for the two of them. Kissing in the rain and nights when they made each other their own. The only downside of reliving the memories was that he ended up wanting Dan more and he found himself calling him. After a few rings Dan answered, he had only just gotten back to his hotel room and sounded excited to be coming home. Phil listened as Dan told him what a great time he'd had and asked what Phil had been doing. They talked for a while and a few times Phil just let Dan talk about random things just so he could hear Dan's voice. They eventually said good bye to each other and Phil fell asleep replaying the conversation.

When he woke up, he felt almost excited as if was like Christmas all over again. Dan was coming home within a few hours and Phil wanted to make sure everything was just right for when he came back. Phil was going to meet him at the train station and he made sure that he had enough money for the taxi home. The minutes dragged along and Phil distracted himself by cleaning the littlest things and took as long as he could in the shower. He waited the rest of the time and when it was time to go, he found himself actually jumping out of his seat, he was that excited. In the taxi ride there, he wondered to himself what would happen if Dan left him any longer than a few nights, he would be some sort of wreck, he imagined. he had been lucky that Radio 1 had wanted him to do something. He would have gone crazy otherwise especially if he didn't have YouTube videos to make. Soon enough they arrived at London Euston and he paid the taxi driver. Phil wandered into the station and bought himself coffee whilst he waited. There was 10 minutes until Dan's train was due and Phil wandered up and down the station as he waited. Eventually the tannoy announced that the train had arrived and Phil moved to wait by the entrance. He scanned the crowds coming through the doors, checking each face for Dan's. Dan was one of the last of the train and Phil spotted him he waved him over. Dan hurried over and Phil threw his arms around him. The two of them walked hand in hand out of the station, talking rapidly as they went, making up for lost time, smiling at each other as they joked.

Many years later ...

"Grandpa, where's Grandad?" A young boy shouted from the other end of the garden.

Phil smiled and replied,

"He's in the house somewhere I think, see if you can go find him."

Once his grandson was safely out of ear shot, running determinedly into the house, his grandad did appear, emerging form his hiding place by the shed. Phil knew that Dan had been hiding from their grandson for a while now. They were in the middle of hide and seek and Dan had been winning all day, he was still a bad winner and this made his grandson even more determined than ever to find him. Dan moved from the shade of the shed and Phil could finally see him in the summer light. He looked the same to Phil as he had when they had first met all those years ago. Even though grey coloured his hair and he had developed lines over his face from age, he was still the same Dan that Phil had fallen in love with. Phil took Dan's hand whispered into his ear,

"I know where we can go."

Dan smiled in response, Phil knew that Dan knew where he meant. On the way out he shouted to the two grandchildren that he and Grandad would be back soon and that their mother would look after them. As much as he loved to spend time with his grandchildren he wanted to spend a little time with Dan on his own. They climbed into the car and drove for a while, talking as they went. They arrived at their spot by the Thames. Even though the two of them had changed and aged, their little spot was still the same to them. They leaned over the wall, looking at the reflection of the city floating along the water. Phil remembered all the times they had come here before. Before and after they had broken up what felt like a life time ago. When they had been about to tell everyone about the two of them getting together. One of Phil's favourite had been the summer of the year he had turned 30. The two of them had been out for another meal and gone for a walk by the Thames, it had become a ritual almost for the two of them to go there when they were about to do something big. Phil had made them go that night because he had already planned what he wanted to do. It had taken him a while but he was finally sure that it was the right thing to do. He was excited and nervous at the same time, his heart racing as he got ready to say it. They were talking about the past again and they ended up talking about their time apart. Dan spoke about how alone he had felt and Phil knew that it was the right time,

"Dan, I don't want to you to ever feel alone again, I want to stand by with you forever so you'll never be. I love you and that's all I've ever known and will ever know. You are the best thing that has ever been mine and I would like you to be mine even more. Will you marry me?"

Dan smiled and Phil knew that was his way of saying yes. Phil remembered how excited he had been telling everyone and how time had managed to fly as it was time for the wedding before he knew it. He remembered them both making the promises of standing by each other forever, the moment making Phil feel happier than ever before . He remembered the two of them walking out after the ceremony, the confetti falling to the ground, the two of them spinning around at the reception. The years that followed were miserable and magical at times. They moved into a new house and carried on with what they had been doing before. They had a few arguments like every couple and made up every single time, they took ridiculous pictures of themselves together and still played videogames like they always had. The time came when they both wanted a child and they decided to use a surrogate mother. Phil remembered being given his child to hold for the first time, how he saw a tear fall from Dan's eyes and their baby's looked back up at them. They had a son and a daughter, they wanted one of each and Phil loved watching them both up. He tried to help them with their homework, helping with projects from school. He remembered watching Dan playing with the children, a game of knights and princesses, Phil joined in and the two of them pretended to knock down the castle walls of their children's imaginary castles. Then their children grew up and it came time for them to find their own lives. Phil remembered all of the girlfriends and boyfriends his children had brought home, the serious ones that lasted and those childhood relationships. Phil remembered Dan bringing them all up at both of his children's weddings and Phil remembered his daughter blushing like she had when she had found some of their old YouTube videos. Then time slowed down for a while and Phil found himself still making YouTube videos, he didn't want to stop yet and neither did Dan. After a few years the first grandchild came along and Phil loved the feeling of holding a small life again, it was comforting in a way, it reminded him of when his children had been born. Years later, there were several more of them and the house seemed to be full of people. It felt nice for Dan and Phil to take a break from all the noise and go back to somewhere only they knew.

As Phil looked back over the years and then looked at Dan he knew that he'd had the time of his life with Dan, he wouldn't change his mind if he could go back. Phil knew that he wanted to spend as long as he could with Dan and he just hoped that if he wasn't around anymore one day that when his grandchildren pointed to his face in the photo albums that Dan would tell them his name, how the crowds had gone wild for him and Grandad ,how Phil hoped they would shine. Phil thought long live to the walls the two of them had broken through to get to where they were, how much they had overcome through the years, the mountains they had moved. Phil thought long live to all the magic they had made, the way they had changed other people's lives for the better and their own. Phil thought long live to the look on Dan's face when he told him he loved him, how much hope there had been in his eyes. He'd had the time of his life fighting many different dragons with Dan and would carry on for as long they could, he was not afraid when he had Dan by his side and hoped that one day people they would be remembered still by people for all they had done.

The End