I waited; I didn't dare look up at him. I kept my eyes to the ground. Could vampires go into shock? Edward was normally one step ahead of everyone, always able to hear what was to be said before it was, but with me he didn't truly know what I was thinking until I told him my thoughts aloud. Was he surprised by my previous words, had I taken him off guard? The silence between us dragged on, this wasn't normal for vampires I was sure of it, our minds worked much faster than that of a human so the time for understanding was much shorter, but Edward wasn't saying anything. I peeked up at him knowing that I couldn't look at the ground forever.

"Edward?" my voice wavered.

"Snap out of it, Edward" I told him. I didn't know what else to do; he was just standing there, not moving. What was going on in that head of his? Why was he overreacting like this? I only told him that I needed some time alone, anyone would of thought I told him I was pregnant or something!

"Edward, I'm not breaking up with you I just think I need some time to be me, we've only known each other for a couple of weeks and everything's just been so intense. I think I'm going to go back and live with Charlie for a bit. I still want to see you, and anyway I need to finish school, I need to graduate. Of course I won't go back to school yet, but I'd still like to graduate…" I trailed off, it didn't even look like he was listening to me, I was starting to get a little annoyed.

I walked away from him and then started running back in the direction of the house, all I needed to do was grab a couple of things that were mine and then I could leave. The majority of my stuff was still at Charlie's, oh wait Charlie, when I thought of him I worried that maybe he wouldn't want me to come home, I hadn't actually asked him I just assumed that I could go home whenever I wanted. I decided that I would need to ring him and ask him first, he saw what I was like at the funeral. Of course that would never happen again but he might be afraid of me. I hoped he wasn't, that thought made my cold, dead heart ache; all I wanted was to go back to normal.

When I reached the house, I decided I didn't want to be confronted with Edwards's family just yet, not until I knew for sure that I was leaving, so I went around the side and jumped elegantly into the second story window. There I walked to the phone that was placed on top of the table in the far left hand corner of the room opposite the door and dialled Charlie's number, as it rang I pondered at the thought of what he was going to say. Would he want me to come back home to live with him? Would he be too afraid to tell me no? Was I making a mistake, was I overreacting? Maybe I should just put the phone down and talk about this, was there any point jumping into this decision? It wasn't like I was running out of time. I suppose I just wanted to try and forget that I was a vampire and just try and be normal again, but I doubt even for a minute I could forget what I had become. My thought were interrupted by the low mumblings from the rest of Edward's family downstairs,

"I don't know what's going on she keeps changing her mind." I could hear Alice's words clearer than that of the others like she wanted me to hear them

"She doesn't know what she wants to do; I think I should go up and talk to her, is that okay Bella? Can I come up and see you?" She knew I was listening, it felt strange being able to hear her, I didn't know how loud my response had to be so I just spoke like she was next to me,

"Sure Alice, I think it would be a good idea."

The phone had actually only managed to ring twice before I cut it off, I only then remembered that it was Tuesday and knowing Charlie he would be back at work trying to regain some kind of normality after the events at my funeral yesterday.

I waited patiently as Alice climbed the stairs; I wondered whether Edward was still at the cliff edge in shock. Maybe Alice and I should go to speak to him; maybe he should be involved in this conversation. I still didn't understand why he had acted the way he did, he must have known that I was prone to making decisions that I may have not followed through on. This being a prime example.

I walked over to the door to open it for Alice; she walked through the threshold and wrapped her arms around me

"Bella, I don't know what you're doing to poor Edward but I'm sure he deserves it." She said with a slight giggle

A little laugh left my lips but was soon halted by my thoughts

"Alice, my mind is all over the place, I keep thinking that he and I have been thrown together unnaturally. That he doesn't truly want to be with me, that he's just stuck with me." Alice released her arms from around me but placed her hands on both my shoulders. I couldn't look her in the eyes though; I kept my gaze to the floor. I was so ashamed to have my insecurities laid out in front of me like this.

"Bella, no one will ever know for sure how anyone really feels about them, but that's the beauty of life. Only Edward himself knows of his feelings for you. But you need to let him in, having this wall up between the two of you just isn't working. Let him show you." Alice paused, my eyes stayed fixed on the crack in the floorboard

"Take some time away from all this, like you were thinking, but take Edward with you, let this be an… opportunity shall we say for the two of you to learn more about each other and build on your relationship. Because believe me Bella, you have all the time in the world to go back to 'normal'."

Her last words settled in the air, I pondered them for a few seconds

"But what if Edward doesn't want to go away with me?" I shyly asked, I didn't know what had come over me, I knew I was acting childish and self-absorbed, I knew that what I really needed to be worrying about was Jacob, the wolves and the safety of the Cullens, but even though here I was selfishly thinking about Edward and I.

"Ha-ha" Alice let out a snort that surprised me and made me look up at her

"Believe me Bella he will want to get away from all this too."

Author's notes: Sorry it's been so long for an update on this story, please review this chapter as I want to see how many people are still wanting to read it. if I don't get any comments I probably wont continue with this story. Thanks for your time. x