"Oh my baby, my baby," Mom got out her chairs grabbed me, held me, and kept on repeating her works.

"Baby Boy," Derek said softly.

"Can we just go something else?" I asked.

"But what about Ryan?" Derek asked?

I didn't say but walked over to the living room.

"What movie should we watch?" I asked.

I heard movement from the kitchen.

"We could watch whatever you want Pretty Boy," Derek said as he sat down on the couch.

I nodded my head, and put on a random movie. I sat in the middle of Derek and Mom. Derek gave me a pained smile, but he didn't wrap his arm around my shoulder like normal. Mom kissed me on the cheek, grabbed my hand, and looked towards the tv. We watched the movie, till the middle of it and Mom's phone when off. She took it and walked out to the kitchen. Me and Derek stayed on the couch.

"Derek, I'm not a doll," I said.

Derek looked at me, gave me a big smile, then started to mess up my hair.

"Derek, leave your brother alone," Mom said walking in to living room. She sat on the couch and looked at us.

"Now boys, I have to go back to work. Something came up and I have to help out. Now that doesn't mean that you have to come with me Spencer," Mom said.

Derek sighed. And I just looked at her.

"Can't you stay?" I asked.

"No baby, I can't," Mom said.

"You know what during summer, both of us our getting two or three weeks off and no phone. Sarah and Desirée are going to come to, and we're going to have a family vacation," Derek said.

"You're not mad?" Mom asked.

"No Ma I get it. Now Pretty Boy what are you going to do?" Derek asked me.

"Can I stay here a bit longer?" I asked both of them.

Mom gave me a nodded and a kiss on the cheek, then she went upstairs. Derek ruffed my hair, and then looked at the tv.

...

It was three hours after we dropped Mom off at the airport. Derek was in the middle of cooking, when there was a knock on the door.

"Spencer can you get the door?" Derek asked me.

"Reading," I said without taking my eyes off the page.

I heard Derek chuckled, and walked out the kitchen. I heard multiple voices greeting Derek. I smiled and walked out to the living room.

"Reid!" Garcia squealed and ran to me. She started jump up and down as I was in her arms.

"Kitten why don't you let him go?" Rossi said.

Garcia frowned and let me go.

"Hi mio figlio," Rossi said as he patted my head with a smile.

Blake smiled at me, JJ gave me a hug. Hotch looked calm, as he gave me a smile. I looked down at the ground and sifted foot from foot, not liking the attention I have had. I looked over at Derek.

"They wanted to come see you," Derek said.

I nodded my head.

"What are you going to do about Ryan?" Garcia said, and once she did it looked liked she regret it.

The team looked over at me to see what I was going to say.

"Nothing," I said.

"What? What do you mean?" JJ asked.

"He's going to be gone by now," I said.

"We can go find him," Blake said.

"No, It's okay you guys have work to do," I said.

"You have a plan don't you," Rossi said with a smile.

I smiled back and walked over to the kitchen to get my book.

"I'm going to go outside," I said the pointing the back door. I walked out and sat away from the door.

Maybe about 10 or 15 minutes passed when the door opened.

"Spencer are you okay?"

I looked up to see Hotch.

"Yeah, I'm fine," I said,

"Sure you are. Why don't we go out for a walk?" Hotch asked me.

I put my book down, and gave him a look.

"The team is leaving but Garcia. I don't think that they realized giving you all this attention would make you feel. I talk to Morgan, and he said it was okay if we go for a walk," Hotch said.

"Okay," I said and walked towards Hotch.

We walked out to the sidewalk, for a while we didn't talk, we just walked in a peaceful quietness.

"You know when I was a kid, dad abused me right?" Hotch asked me.

"Yes, I know," I said.

"You were too, weren't you?"

I looked down to the ground.

"Did you try to protect someone?" Hotch asked me.

"Yea, my umm her," I said looking up at the sky.

"I tried to protect my little brother, Sean."

"Why are you telling me this Hotch?"

"Because Spencer you think you're broken. That you can nor shouldn't be fixed or saved. But you are, you're worth saving," Hotch said.

I couldn't look at him. We stopped walking and sat at a bench.

"But I still don't see why-" I started to talk.

"I thought that I was broken too. That I shouldn't be saved. I remember think that I wasn't serving any type of purpose. Then I remember my brother, and a life that I want one. There were things I wanted to do, but I couldn't do any of it if I was six feet under ground. If I just let everything go by and not even trying to do anything. I wouldn't let that happen. My childhood was no way shape or form a nice one. I bet you're also wasn't. I don't know what is happening or what happened between you, Ryan, and your childhood, and nor am I going to ask. But I hope you know Its okay. It's okay that you are tired of it all. That there maybe regret, or that you cry. Yes Its wrong of what they did. But you can't go back in the past. What happened is just going to help build you. It's another apart of you. Weather good or bad, this is you. You can get through it. You have a family, and the team is apart of that. No one is going to let you fall." Hotch said.

As he was talking are face kept on getting closer.

"I wouldn't let you fall," Hotch whispered.

I looked in his eyes.

I started to lend in closer than before, and Hotch did the same.

Both of our eyes closed.

Then our lips meet.

1) mio figlio means my son. It's Italian sorry if I'm wrong I got it off google as I don't speak this language.

2) I made Hotch like 27 (I don't want him to be to old like Ryan)

3) Hotch did marry Haley but they did get divorced. And I'm not sure if I should add Jack, but if I do he is going to be six.

Tell me what you guys think. Sorry for any and all spelling/grammar mistakes. Thanks for reading! Hope you liked it!

Ps. I just realized that there is a lot of dialogue, and sorry about that.