Jane sat at Maura's table with a beer in her hand as she stared into the wall in front of her. Jane had been seeing Maura for two months. Things were going great until Ian returned. Jane wasn't the jealous type, but it pissed her off that Maura went to see him without telling her. He'd been here for about a week and Jane had to find out from Frost. Apparently he saw them at a coffee shop together. She asked Maura about Ian and they had gotten into an argument so Jane left to her old apartment.

The detective missed the M.E. and was tired of receiving the cold shoulder. So Jane decided that tonight she would wait for the M.E. to come home and the two would make up, after all she shot Maura's biological father and they got through that. But what Jane couldn't shake was how suspicious Maura had been acting. She couldn't get rid of the little voice in the back of her head that told her something more than coffee had happened. Maura would never do that me.

She shook her head and took another swig of her beer, but the voice would come back stronger and stronger. She did say Ian was the love of her life. She has been refusing my kisses. We haven't been…intimate since he came to town. Her heart pounded so loudly against her chest she was sure if anyone walked through that door they would be able to hear it. She hasn't returned my calls…She arrives home later than usual. She put her beer down and began to rub her hands. She took out her phone about to call Maura when she heard the door opening. Maura looked disoriented and she stared blankly at Jane but stood still right next to door like a deer stuck in the headlights.

"Hi." Jane broke the silence "I was just about to call you."

Maura nodded but didn't say anything instead she began to walk to her bedroom avoiding Jane's gaze. Jane grabbed her and spun her around looking into her eyes. Maura turned away unable keep composed under the intense stare.

"I need to take a shower Jane."

"Why?"

"Please Jane just let go." Her voice was pleading.

"Are you still mad at me Maur?" Jane's voice was cracking; she couldn't lose Maura but the voice continued to warn her.

"No Jane. I-I was never mad at you. I'm sorry." Tears began to fall from the hazel eyes. Jane lifted Maura's head to give her a kiss but Maura turned her away. Jane let go her hands go slack at her side, her eyes were wide. She knew.

Jane grabbed Maura's face gave her a rough kiss she could feel Maura's tears. Maura broke the kiss.

"I'm sorry Jane." Maura said through sobs.

Jane growled and continued to kiss Maura eventually making her way down to her neck. Jane lifted Maura up the stairs to her bedroom. Jane threw Maura on the bed, positioning herself between the honey blonde's legs. She began to unbutton her shirt slowly. Maura sat up reaching for a kiss but a scarred hand pushed her back onto the bed. Jane shook her head at Maura a scowl on her face.

"Jane I have something to tell you."

"Shut up Maura." Her voice was filled with anger. Jane took off her shirt and began to undress Maura. Maura had on a black lacey bra. She felt hollow under Jane's gaze. It wasn't her usual loving gaze it was one of betrayal or disgust and she turned away.

"Jane…we shouldn't do this."

Jane ignored Maura and unhooked her bra. She kissed Maura's neck making her way down to her breasts where she took a hardened nipple in her mouth forcefully. Maura moaned and arched into the touch, she felt Jane using her hand to rip off her skirt. Jane suddenly stood up leaving Maura a whimpering mess.

"Stay down." Jane commanded. Maura could hear Jane shuffling about and opening a drawer. Maura knew what that meant. Her instincts were so in tune with her surroundings she could practically feel Jane's pants falling towards the ground. Maura felt Jane in front of her and she propped herself to see Jane wearing the strap on and her bra. Jane once again pushed Maura down this time keeping Maura in her place.

"I said to stay down." The growl sent shivers down Maura's spine.

"Jane we can't. Please Jane I need to talk to you." Maura felt tears in her eyes again, but willed herself not to cry.

Jane didn't answer Maura but went back to attacking her chest. Maura moaned loudly. Jane closed her eyes for a second meanwhile making her way down Maura's body. She tasted pain and regret in Maura's sweat Jane knew Maura had been practicing. Jane knew Maura had done the unthinkable but she was content with the fact the Maura was with her tonight and not with Ian. She shook away her thoughts and got on top of Maura. The smaller woman reluctantly nodded. Jane pushed herself inside Maura and began thrusting quickly. Maura was surprised, usually Jane took her time. There was no gentleness tonight. Maura closed her eyes as Jane took a hardened nipple in her mouth. Maura felt herself getting close to the edge.

"Jane I'm-"

"Don't Maura not yet."

Jane quickly took of the harness and got between Maura's legs again. They were both dripping and the sensation when their cores touched was unbelievable. They both cried out as Jane set the pace once again. Maura couldn't hold it in any longer, neither could Jane. When they came Maura lifted her hands up to her face and began to cry. I'm so sorry Jane. Maura could hear the water running in her bathroom. She was left alone with her thoughts and her guilt. How could I do this to her. The only person who truly loves me. No matter how hard she tried she couldn't stop the tears.

Jane stepped out of the shower and quickly got dressed. She couldn't stand the sight of Maura, but she couldn't stand the thought of losing her either. Maybe if she admits it I can forgive her.

She got out of the bathroom and sat at the edge of the bed putting her shoes on.

"Jane I slept with Ian." Jane stopped for a second and looked at Maura. She opened her mouth to say something but found that she just couldn't. Her admission didn't make her feel better, it just hurt her more.

"I know Maura. I know you did." Jane's voice was unwavering. "I'm leaving Maura. I'm leaving you. I'll leave the key on your table."

Maura's eyes were wide and she felt herself panicking, she grabbed Jane's arm but the Detective pulled away.

"No Jane please. I love you." Jane pulled her arm away without looking into the hazel eyes and walked out the room. She could hear Maura calling out for her. She put the key on the table and walked out the door. She sat in her car in disbelief before the anger got to her. She slammed the wheel with her palm and began to cry. I did love you once.