Hiyah Guys :D

Well here's another fic, a present for one of my friends :D

Unfortunately the Sequel to All Is Well That Ends Well got deleted when my Netbook had kind of a nervous breakdown xD

But I'll start re-writting :D

But first, here's my other fic, this time chaptered :D

Greetings

Joker

P.S. The Song used is Shattered from Trading Yesterday :D
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Bilbo was terribly homesick. He was on the road for a while now, and he got along quite well with everyone. Well, almost everyone. Thorin was as cold as a stone. He hadn't had one nice word for the Hobbit. It hurt Bilbo deeply, because he wanted Thorin to like him. He didn't know why he wanted to impress the majestic dwarf king, but the rejection he got was almost unbearable.

Whenever Bilbo would bring Thorin his share of supper, the dwarf would just look at him with those cold eyes. No warmth was in them when he looked at Bilbo.

But Bilbo had felt a flicker of hope once: When they stumbled over the trolls, and they got him, Thorin tried to rescue him. He even put his sword away to prevent the trolls from killing Bilbo. He had saw concern in the dwarves king's eyes. Although this look almost promptly vanished. Soon he was the old cold Thorin Oakenshield again.

Bilbo had realized one thing: He was utterly afraid for Thorin. When the trolls wanted to eat the dwarves, Bilbo had felt shivers of fear running down his spine. Not fear for his own life. Fear for Thorin's life. And a bit fear for the lives of his dear companions.

Really, Kili, Fili, Bofur and Balin were the one closest to Bilbo. But he liked every dwarf in his own way. And in Bilbo's opinion, every single one of the dwarves was a bit fond of him. Except for Thorin.
Right know, Bilbo was at the border of the group smoking a pipe, and singing a slow song. It was a sad song, but one he loved very dearly. It proved as a little anchor in hard times, just like it was now.
"Yesterday I died; tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight
The future's open wide beyond believing
To know why hope dies
And losing what was found, a world so hollow
Suspended in a compromise
But the silence of this sound is soon to follow
Somehow sundown
And finding answers
Is forgetting all of the questions we call home
Passing the graves of the unknown
As reason clouds my eyes with splendor fading
Illusions of the sunlight
A reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
With love gone for so long
And this day's ending
Is the proof of time killing all the faith I know
Knowing that faith is all I hold
And I've lost who I am, (i'm waiting)
and I can't understand (and fading)
Why my heart is so broken, (and holding)
rejecting your love, (love) without, (onto these tears)
love gone wrong; lifeless words carry on (i am crying)
But I know, all I know's that the end's beginning (i'm dying tonight)
who I am from the start, (i'm waiting)
take me home to my heart (and fading)
Let me go and I will run, (and holding)
I will not be silent, (silent) all this time (onto these tears)
spent in vain; wasted years wasted gain (i am crying)
All is lost but hope remains and this war's not over (i'm dying tonight)
There's a light, there's a sun (i'm waiting...)
taking all these shattered ones
To the place we belong (i am waiting...)
and his love will conquer all
Yesterday I died; tomorrow's bleeding
Fall into your sunlight"

"Is everything alright with you?" A concerned voice asked softly. Bilbo jumped. He hadn't noticed that somebody listened to him singing. In front of him were Kili and Fili. The latter was the one who spoke.
"Well, I guess-"But Bilbo couldn't say anymore, for tears were prickling in his eyes and a huge lump formed in his throat.

"Are you homesick?" Kili asked softly and laid an arm around Bilbo's shoulder. But Bilbo just shook his head. He wasn't homesick! He was just so damn lonely and felt as if he doesn't belong! Thorin had made that very clear.

"Seriously, I'm in the mood for smacking our uncle!" Fili exclaimed and gently rubbed Bilbo's back. Bilbo managed a miserable chuckle, which sounded more like a sob.

"Ah, we found the root of your discomfort!" Kili grinned. Fili smiled and said: "Don't take our uncle too serious. Maybe he ate something wrong. Or some bug crawled up his-"

"A bug crawled up my what?" A deep voice demanded. Fili, Kili and Bilbo froze dead in their tracks.

"Uhm… You-you're uhm, I mean, your beard!" Fili said, not really convincingly. Thorin just growled and sent a soul freezing look at Bilbo.

When Thorin was out of earshot Bilbo said, with a mad nuance in his voice: "Exactly that is my problem. His attitude. I wouldn't feel so utterly alone or homesick, if he would treat me better. I shouldn't have left the Shire. I'm not welcome here!"

Right there, Bilbo lost it. Angry and sad tears were streaming down his face. Kili and Fili exchanged a gaze and Fili said: "You are welcome. We like you, and Thorin likes you too, even if he can't show that. Now stop crying and come with us. You look like you could need someone to cuddle!"
"I don't think that that is a good idea." Bilbo said unsure of what to do.

"Oh, come on now Mister Baggins! Dwarves cuddle when they're lonely or cold!" Kili laughed and he and Fili took Bilbo's hand and led him to their bedrolls, which they had already laid out to both sides of Bilbo's.

The poor Hobbit was so tired and sad, that he didn't noticed Thorin's hard looks, but Fili and Kili did and they shot Thorin a look that said as much as "Shut-Up-Or-We-Will-Make-You!"

For once Thorin didn't get angry at them. He saw the Hobbit, streaks of tears still visible on his face. He felt guilty, but shoved that feeling aside. There was no use for liking a useless Hobbit like the one in their group.

"I'm taking the first watch!" he said gruffly and disappeared. He didn't noticed Bilbo's longing gaze follow him.

"Hey, if I am allowed to give some advice" Kili said with a gentle smile "When you think that he doesn't like you, look for another dwarf. One way or another, you won't be lonely anymore!"

With that, they both lay on each side of Bilbo and cuddled him close. Bilbo snuggled a bit deeper into their warmth. But he was sure of one thing: He would never fall for another dwarf than Thorin.

At that thought he almost jerked up again. But he relaxed soon. He wasn't falling for anyone. He may like Thorin, and maybe he was a bit drawn to him, but he wasn't in love. He couldn't be in love with a dwarf!

Kili and Fili tightened their hold on him and slowly but surely, Bilbo fell asleep…

Thorin on the other side couldn't find any sleep this night. Even when Balin came to keep watch, and Thorin finally retired to his bedroll, he caught himself looking at Fili, Kili and the Hobbit nestled between them. He felt something disturbing in his heart, but he shoved it away. He was just tired.

Sleep didn't found Thorin that night…