I don't know xD

I wrote this, randomly having a burst of inspiration around three weeks ago. I was procrastinating on writing a paper for English due to next day….spent like 4-6 hours on this and internet. Around 1 am I started the paper, and wrote about weed in it. Darn it.

Anyways, this is just a chapter of all my Bleach fics I haven't written yet c:

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"Izu, I heard Rangiku had her baby less than an hour ago! We should go see her and her baby!" Momo was the most excited Kira had seen her in a while; he didn't have much of a choice in her response.

"We should," Kira smiled and wrapped his arms around Momo and kissed her. She looked beautiful with her bright dark eyes.

"What has gotten into you? Spontaneous kissing?"

"Uh, I was just thinking… I wonder - uh, never mind," Kira panicked, not wanting to seem like he was trying to move their relationship too fast.

"You'll tell me at some point if it's important. So, are you ready?"

"Yep, all ready." Kira looked into her eyes thoughtfully. "It's chilly outside," he released her and glanced out the window, "we should put our coats on." He began to walk toward the coat rack.

"You're right. Hitsu-chan said he thought it might snow," Momo said as she went to grab her coat. Kira grabbed it before she got over there and opened it for. "I can put on my own coat," she smiled and accepted Kira's offer. After her arms were in , Kira wrapped his arms around her stomach and held her tightly, not wanting to let go. She kissed his cheek.

"Momo… What do you think of having a child?"

"What?!" Kira felt her body posture stiffen with shock at the question.
"What if we were to… y'know… have a child one day. Not now, but one day."

"I've all ways wanted to have a little one of my own, but I don't know. We're shinigami. We have jobs that require a lot of our time and if we were gone on parental duties… What would our squads do?"

"I know. Just the idea…" Kira released her and grabbed his coat. He slung it over his shoulder as he opened the door and held it open for her.

"Are you mad?"

"What? Why would I be mad? I just wanted your opinion is all."

"Oh good… The way you let go of me… It made me wonder." She smiled and walked out with him, latching onto the arm he held the door open with. "Speaking of opinions, what is yours on Rangiku having a baby?"

"Uhhh … It wasn't a planned baby… So that just about sums it up." Kira tried hiding his true opinion with that. Truthfully, hated it, and with good reason: Hisagi and him were together when that baby was created, even if they weren't public about it. They hadn't even told their closest friends about it. Which is just another thing Kira regrets now.

"But what's your opinion on it?"

"They should've planned on it," Kira was trying to answer her without raising questions.

"That's true. She had it on an inconvenient date, but it could be worse," she paused before saying, "Hitsu-chan was right. It's starting to snow. Rangiku is lucky she had it earlier rather than later otherwise a medic might've not came to help her deliver."

"Yeah, very true," Kira put his coat on, and Momo returned her grip on his arm, "she's very lucky." He meant that in more ways than one. She was lucky to have a baby safely. She was lucky to have medical attention while having this baby. But most of all, she was lucky to have Shūhei. Kira missed him more than he expected, especially since he has Momo. And that made Kira feel even guiltier.

They arrived at Rangiku's as the snow picked up from a moderate snowfall to a harsh blizzard. As the couple approached the front door, the realization hit them that the front door was cracked opened.

"Rangiku! Izuru and I are here!" Momo called out as the two stepped in and Kira closed the door. There was no answer, and Kira and Momo exchanged apprehensive glances.

"Give me your coat and find her. I'll hang them up." Momo did as Kira said quickly. She darted off toward Rangiku's bedroom, her blue cloth covered bun bobbing with every step.

It was weird to Kira, being in here. He hadn't been here since him and Hisagi were on good terms. Which was months ago. Hisagi had moved in since then, and it is apperent that there is a couple living here. Kira went in the direction Momo went, and surely enough, he heard weeping in between muffled words. On the way to her room, Kira passed the living room and the kitchen. Both were in usual order with a few things out on countertops in the kitchen, and a blanket or two and a pillow on the couch in the living room.

When he was about to enter the master bedroom, Kira picked up on Rangiku's crying voice "…and he just left without a word."

Kira entered the bedroom where Rangiku sat in her bed, holding her newborn. Momo was now next to her, listening to her friend.

"Go find him!" Momo yelled with urgency once she was aware of Kira's presence.

"Okay." Kira didn't need any explanation, as he had all ready heard enough. He put his outdoor things back on, and tried finding Hisagi's Reiatsu. But he couldn't… Hisagi didn't want to be found.

Shūhei, what are you doing…

Kira still had an idea of where he may be. He checked at Hisagi's office, his former home, and even Tōsen's unnamed friend's grave; Hisagi wasn't in any of those places. Kira was just on his way to Hisagi's parents' grave, when he sensed a faint Reiatsu flare up that he recognized as Hisagi's. Kira Shunpoed to the Squad 9 indoor training dojo.
And there stood Shūhei. He wore his usual sleeveless Shihakusho and tabi and his zanpakutō was on the ground next to him. His hair was drenched with melted snow and fresh flakes stuck to it, as it did all over his body. His eyes were darker than usual and appeared as if he didn't see anything at all.

Kira approached him cautiously and called out to him, "Hisagi?"

He didn't respond so after a few seconds Kira walked up next to him perceptively, and Hisagi turned his body parallel to Kira's as he became aware of Kira's presence and he muttered something that sounded similar to, "oh, it's you."

"What are you doing out here? Hisagi, Matsumoto needs you…"

"You didn't see it, did you?" Hisagi spat bitterly.

"'It'? Do you mean your baby?!" This wasn't like something Hisagi would do. Even in the worst of times, Kira knew Hisagi would have sucked up all of his problems to help someone else.

"Kira, that thing isn't mine!" Shūhei yelled and slammed both his hands on Kira's shoulders pinning him fiercely against the building.

"Why do you say that?" Kira kept his composure.

"Kira… that isn't any bit of me, nor any bit of her…" Kira felt Shūhei slumping as he dropped eye contact, his grip on Kira loosening. "That baby…" Hisagi trailed off and said something Kira couldn't understand, and Hisagi's breathing picked up speed and depth and he released Kira. "It doesn't matter…" Kira could see Hisagi breaking down, his whole body beginning to tremble all over, if not from the cold then the realizations of what he was saying. Hisagi turned away from Kira and sat on the steps, putting his face in his hands. "Kira, please leave…"

Kira didn't know what to believe. Not too long ago, Kira had resented Hisagi and all he had done, but now, he wasn't sure about anything. Kira removed his coat and draped it around Hisagi's shoulders from behind, wrapping him in it. Kira sat next to Hisagi and brushed the snow out of his former friend's drenched hair as Hisagi began sobbing violently. Kira tried to pull him over onto his shoulder, but Hisagi swatted the gesture away and kept his face buried in his own hands. Kira wasn't about to leave him outside like he was, and so he sat next to the tattooed shinigami as he sobbed. After a few minutes of this Hisagi's crying calmed down and he partly uncovered his face to at Kira from his hands. His eyes were bloodshot and raw. It seemed to Kira that Hisagi began to cry harder once he looked at Kira. Hisagi allowed himself to lean onto Kira's shoulder, and Kira held him, trying his best to comfort Hisagi as he choked and sobbed. Throughout this, Hisagi soon uncovered his face, and moved his face onto Kira's arm and shoulder, soaking it with his tears and snot. The grime getting on his sleeve didn't matter to him.

It was like Shūhei had froze and when he saw Kira, his frozen self began to crack and finally break… And Kira had no idea what to do for Hisagi… They hadn't even done as much as spoken to one another for months.

After his fit seemed to have calmed down and he was quiet, Kira said to him, "Hisagi, you need to get out of this blizzard." Kira said this after he had began to shiver himself, having the snow melt in his blond hair and over his back. Hisagi didn't reply but he stayed in the position he was in Kira's arms with his face buried on Kira's shoulder. "Shūhei?"

"I don't' care," Hisagi's head turned to the side and Kira could see his face a little bit. His eyes were irritated and deeply bloodshot.

Well I do… Kira wanted to say.

"I'm taking you home." Kira knew Hisagi had moved out of his former home and was living with Rangiku, so Kira took him to his place. He doubted Hisagi would want to be with a friend of Rangiku's, and as it happened, Momo and Rangiku were close friends. Kira also knew that if Momo saw Hisagi, she would probably slap him and yell at him for leaving Rangiku, find something to blame him for, and make him feel terrible about himself. Which was basically everything Hisagi didn't need in the mental state he was in at this point. All Kira knew was that he needed to figure out what was going on with Hisagi, and calm him down.

"Ok," Hisagi said in acceptance without question.

The two walked back to Kira's home, Hisagi not really able to go faster than a gentle walk, Hisagi kept his eyes practically glued to the ground.

This is even more unlike Hisagi than I thought… I knew he was in bad shape…but… This is almost too much for me to watch. He's so…down…defeated…

Kira's place wasn't warm, to say the least. He led Hisagi into his bedroom, and let him sit on his futon. Kira placed Hisagi's Zanpakutō against the wall. "I'm going to draw a bath for you to try and regulate your body temperature." Kira went to the thermostat on the wall and turned it way up.

"Ki-ra- what-t about you? You-u're dr-reched and c-cold," Hisagi could hardly form words.

"I'm fine…" In comparison, Kira was fine. Sure, he was pretty clammy himself, but Hisagi was dripping with melted snow. Kira didn't doubt that if Hisagi stayed out there much longer, it would have began to freeze onto his skin and clothes. "I'll be right back."

Kira was indubitably worried about Hisagi to the point where he hadn't thought about anything but Hisagi. He drew the bath water a tad hotter than he normally would when taking a hot bath. Kira walked back to the bedroom when the water was ready, and told Hisagi it was ready and, "I can wash your uniform, and hang it to dry while you bathe if you want… Leave your clothes outside the door… And let me know if you need something else."

"O-ok," Hisagi said, his head and eyes angled to the ground. This was so unlike the Hisagi Kira remembered.

While Hisagi bathed, Kira went into his bedroom and changed clothes and dried himself off as best he could. After drying his hair with a towel, Kira heard the bath water had finished draining and returned to the corridor and found that the bathroom was open and the room was empty. "Hisagi?" Kira walked into the living room, and Hisagi was half-sitting on Kira's awkwardly tall stool with nothing on except a towel wrapped around his waist, his gaze on his hands which held each other. Kira saw there was bruising along Hisagi's collar bone and ribcage, numerous healing gashes on his chest and abdomen, and Kira could see the shadow of a hand around Hisagi's throat. As Kira examined a bit closer, he saw bruising and cuts along his arms too and a faint shadow of a bruise on Hisagi's jaw line. His eye sockets seems sunken and dark in contrast to his unusually pale skin. Kira was shocked at the state he was in physically.

"Kira…" Shūhei looked up for a second and continued, "I'm so sorry for everything. For all the grief I put you through… For what I'm putting you through now… I'm sorry," Hisagi had began to cry again, "I fucking hate myself," tears streamed down his face. "Everyone would be a lot better off if I were dead," he said coldly.

"Stop!" Kira yelled and walked over to Hisagi who look at him in surprise with his cheeks glistening with tears. "Shūhei, what happened to you?"

"Nothing happened to me," his dark hair hung into his eyes, blocking them from Kira's view partly.
"Look at yourself… You look as though you've been beaten."

"Nothing more than what I deserve," Hisagi dropped eye contact as he said this. Kira wanted to slap him for thinking like this. It was truly ironic that not too long ago, Kira had been in a similar state of mind, thinking that he was worthless and deserved the abuse he suffered.

"No one deserves this," Kira wiped the tears for Hisagi's face and sort of kneeled down so he was looking into Hisagi's lowered eyes. "Shūhei, I need to know what she has done to you? You used to have a sense of pride in yourself but… Now you hardly will make eye contact." Kira slowly raised himself back to standing, "you're so submissive, and that's not you…"

"…" Hisagi bit his lip and looked at Kira for a second.

"Shūhei, I want to help you… But I need to know what happened in order to do anything."

"Kira I-." He let out a sigh signaling that he had given up resisting, "can I sleep first? I promise I'll tell you everything…tomorrow," tomorrow was a rare occasion that no shinigami had to report in the office and do work.

"Okay, Shūhei," Kira backed off and gave Hisagi his space.

"Can I ask you something else?" Hisagi looked directly into Kira's light blue eyes.

"Of course," Kira looked back into those steely dark eyes that belonged to Hisagi, but Hisagi looked back down at his hands.

"Can you sleep with me? I mean, in the same futon… So I can have someone close by… I'm afraid of being alone…" the tattooed man's voice cracked as he admitted this.

"Let me find you something to sleep in."

By this, Kira meant 'yes, but you need to have clothes on'.

After Hisagi was clothed, Kira awkwardly crawled in next to him. And for the first time since he had gone out after Hisagi, he thought of Momo, knowing how she wouldn't approve of this. At all.

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